being 7 months pregnant is tiring lately
i have this need to sit down every so often that im worried to get back to work again
imagine being pregnant and taking care of the o&g patient
i wish i could stay in the screening room till i finished my housemanship - 24 more days to go once i started working again

im at home given some time off after my threatened preterm labour at 28 week - tocolysed with nifedipine loading x4 but failled, they tried bricanyl of which i felt as if my heart gonna pumped out of my chest-basically failed, which left mgso4 as the last option-asked my husband to give the slow bolus part
warded for 5 days and given time off for 1 week

my tummy is getting bigger and the discomfort grew
it's hard to sleep at night nowadays
i should say it's hard to lie down n stay like that for a few hours, i find myself dozing off to sleep on and off at night time the longest i could stay asleep is 1 and a half hour only, i have to toss around preventing my husband from sleeping too soundly or get up walk around or play tetris,words,facebook or strain my eyes to read some books and then try to get another few hours of sleep
the next morning my husband will ask "tak tido ke smalam" sbb ade org kaco dia tido haha

my first post for this year after a few months of no new entry
yes lots of things happened and lots of things to be looked forward to
eventhough i have mix feelings of going through all of these....

do u know how it feels of wanting something but too scare at the same time too excited about it
scare that something might go wrong or maybe not getting what we are expecting to get
all the doubt are there if i keep on thinking
but nothing change in the end i still have to wait patiently till the end of septembre gagaggagaga
yes a new member of the family is on the way
my mom already offered herself as a baby sitter
eventhough i recalled she said the other way around a few years back
maybe she miss having little kids around her

im currently in emergency department at the hospital
a totally different experience from all other posting, except for paeds where i used to standby for cases with possible complication to the newborn - waiting for something that is unpredictable
the baby can be born normal crying or born flat where u have to resuscitate them with or without help
the end result that the senior want is for the baby to be alive no matter what except in cases of already predicted to have poor prognosis - then u dont have to feel so guilty the baby couldnt make it

im on double shift tomorrow
hopefully kemaman's people will behave - but its weekend .............

gagagaggagaga card blum buat
cam mls nk buat urghhhhh

btw sye suke shift kt NICU
sbb bley balik on time haha

apebende la diaorg ni, marah2 budget aku takut ke makcik???
nasib baik la mulut ni bley di control kalo tk nk nak aje perli2 biar malu sendiri
nnt bile anak sakit ke, diri sendiri sakit ke, family sakit ke,
dtg ngan muke tk malu mintak ubat ngan sape???ngan aku juggak la kn
bangang btul

the other day i was in this bookshop in mesrra mall
i wass queuing up to pay for my magazines when this little girl of the age of primary school said "stu***" loudly to her father
n guess what the father response was
he said, as if for the rest of the customers to hear that
"didnt your teacher tought you at school that it is bad to say that?"

what the ****
isssnt that your daughter????
didnt you teach her at HOME not to say something like that
that was as if you left everything to other people to teach your own child
yes put the blame on everybody else except you
ape la tk malu ke???

anyway that was weeks ago
my mood is very much improved today
after spending my one day off with mr.bf
n after my MO let me do the LA cases for today ehehehhe
i think surgery is fun, i had fibroadenoma case and two lipomas/sebaceous cyst removed today
n i inserted a suprapubic cathether the other day ;)

so this is what ive been doing tonight,
cooking my first pasta with tuna n mushroom soup in malaysia,
and cutting up cloth i bought for a new blouse and a pair of baju kurung
but i dont have mesin klim and mesin jahit
so they will stay that way for a few days
before i put them together once i reached home in besut
omg cant wait for my next hols
which start this wednesday!!!!! :D :D

someone patted my shoulder this evening at work n said
i was chose to do MO call for the team by no other than the big bosss !!??!?!??!?n that was during a meeting today too
gagaggagagaa the only thing in my mind was
how am i going to handle head trauma patient??????
n i was only 2 months in surgery
ke big boss memerli tak tau la kn haha
anyway Mdm asked azwan to do the MO call for this month
he's already in his third month in surgery so ok sket la
anyway maybe akn kna buat MO call jugak if we still short of MO
in june huhuhu
so kna study bebanyak sket :)

called my mum-like always this morning
and she pointed out that i need to stop spending soooo much time outside
yes i think so too
but there's nothing to do at home
so here's what she suggested
go buy a new sewing machine
the mini type so that i can carry it around
n start sewing again
i kinda like that idea and will think about it mummy :)

missing everyone
i feel so empty inside
tkde kawan :(

mr. fiance tq for bringing me my new altis!! :)

i miss those days when we sat together in the pc suite
looking for our next destination for the holidays
googling map to make sure we use the chance to visit any city/town possible that are close proximity to each other, within our limited time and money
i miss the different weather the places have eventhough they are next to each other
i miss experiencing the foods
the people who will usually stare at us because we looks different with our head covers
i miss the feeling of anticipation in each and every travel we had in those days
at the end of the day, im glad i''ve spent my time in europe travelling around at least i dont regret studying there for 6 years
we have photos and those sweet memories in our mind to be recalled when we are able to sit together again :)

im contented for now :)
thanks to everyone who attended the ceremony
it was all smooth
n we have decided on the date for the big day
currently there are still a few things to be bought
a few more stuff to be arranged
and pls patiently wait for the card ye :)
oh i'll msg/text for address later :)

nape nk kna ade pimple time2 camni???
knape knape knape????????

urgh rase cam tk buat ape2 pun tuk majlis tu lol
cam balik tuk majlis org lain lak hahahha
ye la sape suh takmo tuka oncall ngan zairi?
padan muke sdiri
neway cepat sgt ke?????hmmmm

i said i want an accord this yr right????
ok i wanted an accord but seems impossible with my spending habit hahahhaha
plus im putting aside some money for future occasion
so my mummy booked an altis instead
insyaAllah i'll get the car by the end of april :D

alone, hungry and lonely :( :( :(
can it became worse than that????

viva for medical posting dah lepas!!!!
that left me another 9 days in medical!
with few more days of oncall and 1 week to settle my logbook
:D :D

im so relieved when my boss announced that i pass my viva
n am looking forward for surgery :D

lamenya tk tulis anything in this blog
i've been busy as expected from medical posting
but it has been enjoyable
eventhough i have to admit it is tiring and very busy
im still handling female ward
which in my opinion is a bit more complicated then male ward
male ward usually came with straight forward kind of cases
unlike female who always always presented with complex history
they say yes they have problem with every single systems of their body
so nk buat ape????tx every single system ke?
huh
nway
my car bumper was hit from behind by my own hospital pharmacist houseman's car
i'll have my relative to fix it for me tomorrow while im oncall
n then i'll be going to KT to see my *ehem2*!!
no la, im going to KT for dengue course
but yes will find time to see him :D

it has been hectic for the past two days
n im oncall again tomorrow
of which i feel so unhappy about it
my feet need massage so badly
i dont feel like standing fr ward round
for blood taking etc etc
we got this two patients who always require branula
the lifetime of their branula is usually one day only
n u have to poke them at difficult small vessel each day
one has ESRF so yes difficulty difficult small line,her hand is so small
it looks like my sister's when she was in standard three or two
the other one has post-cva epilepsy
u might accidentally lost/bump the line if she so happen having fits
while u were doing the line gah
im tired......

woke up from the wrong side of the bed today
i burnt a hole on my beautiful kurung batik while ironing it this morning
this is the first time this kind of thing happen
but why does it have to be my batik?!??!?! :( :( :(
dah la mahal, n it was my most beautiful batik ugh :(
i hardly wear it bcos im afraid its thin material may not tolerate my work in the ward
waaa sedihnya :(
tp nasib baik not my crepe batik heh

ok that was written 2 days ago
so today, went to work in the morning to find out
work round was already done by the MO
yeay tk yah buat round haha
went to pekan to visit my little sister
bought her a new sony ericsson phone on the way there
i think i might bought it for myself if i didnt have my HTC right now
cute nye phone n she was delighted telling my mom after that hehe
ok esok oncall n i have a presentation to be done on monday

my * bought me a new crepe batik today :D
happy nye :D thank u!

i want an accord! this yr!