yes!!
i bought my food supply!!!
at 1st it seems like the rain gonna come down
but it only did when i was turning
into the junction heading to the house
i felt like i a had all the time in the world
thus been browsing the clothes here n there
painfully slow-well that what will other feel, i guess,
if they happen to b with me at that moment hehe :D
another season is coming so they have this sale going on
but nothing caught my eyes except the sandal they had on display
but my feet is not that girlish and the bottom of the sandal is too flat
i'll feel as short as ever if i wore that one
it's quite nice though-wish they have the
version for people with my type of feet hmmph..

umm i have this urge to go jogging somewhere
but i couldnt think of any suitable place or time
n yes the day time is excluded-i hate running under the sun
i've been doing that for several years during high school
i dont wish to be doing the same thing again
hahaha that was actually bcos the players were
too lazy to join the prep class
we made that up as an excuse heh-rather it was me as i'm the head :D
silly us/me
i kinda miss those time
we even played during weekends, though
the hostel area doesnt really provide a big space for
a hockey team to run about n i remembered several incidents where
the teamates get hurt during practices
i remembered having three fingers with blood underneath the nails
bcos of the hockey ball-the pain?
felt like all the blood rushed there in an instant
n left nothing else to ur brain or any other body part
i nearly cllapse n my face went white
it was probably the shock at first
i couldnt speak for a second bcos i was still couldnt believed
the hockey ball just went straight up to my fingers
which were gripping the stick at that time
my fault since i didnt realized there was a bump
just ahead of me thus the ball went up into the air
we were playing in the field beside the hostel
so the ground was not all that flat or clear from small stones
but that didnt stop me from continuing playing
it's only now that i completely stop
n i dont know why

emm i want some pic to put up in here...

grgrr i'm hungry
really need to move my lazy bum out of this house
n buy some foods
it's a pity
when the weather is nice but the timing is just
not right to ask anyone here to go to town with me
hmmmph..

heh enrique : )

the bookstore ran out of stock
thus i ended buying the thickest version of patho book
hopefully the thickness wont bother me much
i got my red surgery pocket book as well
today wasnt that bad-no rain-not yet
i had a tuna bagel from the new bagel
factory just across the street in front of the hospital
but i honestly think the one at town
tasted tastier than the one i had

i arrived around noon at galway on 1/8
one of the sr was on the same flight as me
but i just realized her when we landed at heathrow
but thank goodness since we actually
have to spend the night at dublin airport haha

oh i went to charcoal yesterday-the 2nd day
it was around 9
n people were flooding the streets
drinking n probably waiting for their turn
to get into the pub/club
the old charcoal was full of people
n so we move to the new one
i believed they were just back from the galway races
n the girl next to our table
couldnt stop whining about some other girl
who shows interest towards her bf or smthg
she was absolutely loud but the
parents n the bf just let her b
i felt like smacking her
people want to eat in peace!!
not chocking on their food bcos of her loudness geez~

i'm waiting for kbar n paipon
they had this anak angkat program which ended today
it's nearly two in the morning
where the heck r they???
wish these mosquitoes to just buzz off!!!
why is it only me surrounded by these annoying small thingy???
hmm now it's maybe bcos i'm the only one alive gah~

the reddish lines started to form just above my right elbow,
i was thinking of putting bilah's sneakers on,
but was too lazy to walk up the stairs
and walk some more to find the socks to go along with it,
which god knows where my mum keeps them
well i didnt bring mine home so have to kidnap someone else :p ,
those were probably my sisters' but i dont care as long there's one
anyway, i ended with my dad's sandal
which of course quite big for my feet
so the plastic rope get tangled with them
n whipped the side of my arm
yeah it stings a bit

normally i skips in the house but i hit one of the nails
hammered by the tukang on the cemented floor of kbar's new room
thus the line bcame no longer straight-they had a thread tied from one nail to the other-i guess they r using them as a ruler for the tiling work-
this didnt amused him
n by the look he gave me
i dare not take the chance to get the rope away from him without telling
but that's out of question bcos i hit the nail
i assumed he'll b looking for it if it gone missing even for a second
he was skipping a little bit earlier
just taking a break from the painting work he's doing in his new room
that person who took the rope 'll probably get yelled at
n in this case
i could b yelled at
~ouch that's gonna hurt my ears

as usual my day begins at noon
hahah oh this is not in any way associated with the above pic
but maybe i'll talk about it in later paragraph : ) if only my dad wont-by any chance pass by n start lecturing on the proper way of handling his precious laptop :p
btw i doze off right after my mum left for school this morning
yeah i stayed up all night
my dad drove kbar to some jetty near merang?
supposedly he waited for the tukang to finally replace the old windows with bricks
but kbar announced he's going to some pulau from merang
(err i dont know whethr that's the place he headed for
n i forgot what pulau he was talking about the whole 2 or 3 days earlier)
well yeah he mentioned about that pulau
but we thought he'll be going by bus
like a decent son who wont cause trouble
n thats where the problem lies
everyone even my mum forgot, he as he is
will of course say,
mum i will be driving to merang.period.
which is a completely statement like sentence
but kbar wasnt really thinking of what he should do with the car,
well it's more like he wasnt sure if they have a safe parking site at the jetty,
so then the owner of the car suggested for my dad to go with him
hahahha there goes his dream of driving his way there
oopps he'll b mad with me
nvrmind he wont at least not till he get back home :D

eh i strayed from my main point
my dad as i said was supposed to b the one monitoring the tukang working on
taking down the windows-n since my day begins at noon..
some goes to bilah.. :p
my dad probably spent half of his way driving home from the jetty
trying to reach us on the phone
i knew the phone was ringing non-stop but
i was too sleepy
h/ever that didnt stop my mind from imagining the level of my dad's anger
nonetheless no one answer the phone err what???
we were sleepy that's why hhahaha
n then
i heard my dad said
have u had breakfast?
n he was holding some ketupat n nasi bungkus
guilt-ridden i said not yet, but i'll eat later
ye la he bought those things for us to eat
i am suppose to say i will eat those so not
to make him mad at me even more : ) :p

well bilah actually answered the phone once
n my dad told her to ask me
to open the grill of our front door
n let those tukang to enter the house so that they can do their work but i said
no i dont want to n went straight to bed again without a second thought??!?!
so bad of me
maybe my sleepy head was really really sleepy after all
n maybe i'm a bit worse than kbar then :p

emm why is the pic seems to b smaller than usual?

ugh i've been thinking of moving to live journal instead of this blogspot
but smthg is holding me back
maybe bcos i dont want to lose everything that i've wrote in here
though mostly are just some craps i have nowhere else to write
really love the icons they r using
i havent really go through every details of that lj
i'll probably need some time to get used to it
n knowing myself
probably need more time than others in working the system out
-since i'm easily distracted err should b lost interest haha
like the one i've started in yahoo 360..hardly remember what i have in there
oh need to change my sleeping time
i havent completely finish sewing my pants
yeah i'm trying to fill my time with smthg useful
i'm going to cut the fabric for my baju raye next n then maybe my own white coat
so far i nearly finish with the testing using some of my
mom's many kain in the closet
but my stephen king is still far from the last page
gah i really am a lazy bum these days....haha :D

a week feel like yesterday

eh wait it should b 2 weeks

see my home is not that boring

yeah with everyone around except for maher

the house is lively n full

we got some cermai this evening

well the tree is behind our house

n what else to do then occupying our time with some silly activity

hence the cermai are still in the tudung saji in the compound haha : )

omg i still found that hilarious

we just happened to have nothing big enough

to catch all the cermai once the smaller branches are pulled

n they come tumbling down that particular branch

thus the tudung saji on the table in front of the house

was grabbed

now maybe u r wondering why on earth we have it in the porch

well abah need it to cover the drinks n some foods for

the tukang working at our house during the day

my sister-that particular one- said she want

that cermai to be cooked=cant explain

because it'll sound weird

it is because i dont think u can imagine how that small little fruit can b cooked

it can n we do cook or maybe there's other suitable word for that

but i dont know what-sorry :p

we r still waiting for the rooms to be done

which i doubt 'll b finished by the end of this month

probably have to come back home again next summer

if i want to see the rooms

oh here's some pics

i should b the one taking the pics next time

cos my sister seems to b obsessed with her face

n random people so i cant put them up here

gah the internet is slow like hell!!
i want to read more fanfic!!

n this blogger thingy keep making me mad

maybe the real prob is the internet connection

but this spacing sure got nothing to do with the connection dont they??

finger cross cos i'm dead sleepy now n wont b in the mood for some editing later : (

last pic-can see my father in here

i need more pics!!!

korean again-same group as the last one : )

err now i'm bored
the essay is finished
n so i have nothing in particular to do
dok gigit jari tak tau nak buat ape aaaaaaaa
hmmmph really should get some buku
crite as usual when hols is starting....

yeay!
the essay is nearly done
just needed some more editing
i know i'm supposed to b done with it for good at this stage
but....
anyway 'll probably get my bus ticket
tomorrow
if by any chance i can dedicate myself for my essay tonight
or else 'll buy on some other day :D

the weather was well, as expected=drizzling+the sun
which keep hiding behind the not so dark cloud+less wind today though
n yes i've finally gotten everything i need to bring back as souvenirs
hmm i wasnt really planning to buy everyone presents this year
but at the end of our once again shopping spree
i had my hands full with the shopping bags for them
but of course smthg for me too la kn haha :D

i think i spotted yunho dozing off??!!?!
haha

today
i went to send that practical book of my brother
then i dragged intan along to student union
to return my locker key
before we headed to town to get my new issued ticket
and before we knew
the opening hour of the shops in galway are getting nearer
to their close time
ughh.. i wish they open till late at night
maybe not
but at least close till night cant they???
its not as if they have the whole year full with summer right??
what is more pleasureable then shopping???hahahha
im crazy
yeah crazy enough to buy that top
haiah...now im having this craving to buy smthg else online
but the problem is
where should i address that thing to
because we cant possibly be at home to wait for it to b delivered
that stupid department is making us going to
attachment even when everyone else is starting their holidays!!
my brother is a few hours to reach kl now
hmmph...

nabilah finished her ib exam the other day
n yana still have her exam coming this monday i think
thought yana has finished hers as well,since she started
at around the same time as nabilah
but yana will b going home from kmb this 26
n nabilah will b going to kmb for kem ibadah or smthg
so nabilah will b staying at kms for a while
but she probably spend the time with her friends roaming
some other places
hopefully she'll b fine
oh the new bf...??
but that is just a kid-again
hmm maybe should just let her do whatever she wants
before she fly to india
i believed i didnt get the chance to meet her last year
what was she doing at that time??
peliknya mana dia hilang?
nvrmind 'll get to see her this summer anyway
should i go to town?
maybe not-essay!!!gtg :D

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bakar ayam + jagung +me with my extra kembang baju
u know so that i can eat as much as i want :D

happy people : )

: ) bekas bbq umah nasrul

well i suppose to post this the night after we had our bbq
but my head was sleepy n i couldnt thinking straight
n the one i was typing got deleted
now i have to write all over again

well u know
i was thinking
can i have smthg so that i can look forward to each day??
oh fine~ put that as someone hahahah
but im not telling who :D
everyone else does!!??!i think so la kn...
discreetly or not - depends
so/but i want one too haha
never mind i'll just keep this as a secret to myself
feel like im in a highschool or smthg ~ isnt that what we did in highschool???ahahha
but to put myself in a relationship is just impossible right now
not when im still adjusting to this clinical
n yes i dont want any commitment at this time except for my study
ugh this one is ought to b funny
how come it turned out to b a bit serious???or not?
nvmind ahahah what was i thinking writing all this silly things :p

just back from journal club for medicine
n i have nothing to do today except looking up for some management and classification of diabetes(why am i feeling that is not how we spell diabetes?so lazy to check the right spelling hahaha)
hmm we have clinic for today but i dont plan of going
they can just allow one student at a time
asked najib to go
pamela wasnt sure whether she want to go or not
maybe i should just wait n see what happen
grabbed some pens from the journal
the most fancy one has one word written on it-the word is viagra?!?!!
i'm so gonna cover that when i use that pen hahaha

oh need to do my part of house cleaning
i'm not feeling good
why do people ruin other people's feeling very early in the morning??
s****d

take a look at this
it's so funny *grin big grin*

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i watched blade of glory with intan
but there's this scene where they watched video
featuring 2 korean ice skaters male n female
doing iron loaded(?) or smthg else they called it
they were spinning and a bit of flying-u know stuff they do in ice skating
but that girl's head went off when they both landed on the ice
it's just went off like that
i'm still shock n couldnt believe she's dead
she probably was not expecting that as well
i feel like smthg is tugging my heart
it's scary n makes me cringe everytime it flashes back in my mind
i wouldnt watch if i knew that it'll happen
or the after shock might be less if i knew before i watched it
ughh what do i do now???i stil have that scene clearly in my head
help me....

i'm doing breast n endocrine surgery attachment this 2 weeks
n the prof was only in for one morning
the rest was spent following the other 2 consultants
which i believed i dont know their names
n i havent met the other one
but it has been fun so far
though i was a bit blurred when 1st starting this thing
added with the bullying attitude of the other team members
but whatever it is it's not boring
at least they give us some attention
n not totally ignore
well just have to go through this
n have to do it right : )
one more week to go with this team : )

one of my utube subscription was banned
now i lost my dose of yamato
they-the utube 'police' started to ban people who upload anime
but yamato was just plain normal anime
i dont see why they banned that anime
hmmm....

my class has started
the so called 1 week hols is gone
its not even 1 week
i just dnt care anymore....

oh n we did go to that bbq : )

the boys r having bbq this evening
i'll probably go if they invited my brother too
but i dont think they did
so i guess i'll hve that bbq chicken next time je la
hmm jawa's bbq chicken is good....
no wonder the guys ask him to do the marinating job
or maybe jawa volunteered since he's the only one at home now
the rest has gone to some other places for holidays
intan ponteng the attachment yesterday
n so did her group mates
or maybe the surgeon was busy so he couldnt give them tutorial heh : )
we didnt get any as well
but our team was kind enough to explain mostly everything that we saw on the patient
i mean what the patient was having
n what the next step to investigate further the suspected cause-though we couldnt really b there where they do all that uss,mri,ct scan etc etc
at least we get the idea
they even talked about the differences between swiss/germany chemo
on our first day on wards
i was with mr.r n the team deal with mostly pt with cancer in the abdomen/mostly colon
n the other abdomen/gastro related disease like crohns, ulcerative colitis, 3A, all sort of hernias, stone in the gallblader,pacreatic/pseudopancreatic cyst, appendicitis, hemorrhoids etc etc
my kumar has the list of investigation steps in it
so i have to make myself read those thing
but of course only those involving my attachment part
i'm gnna keep the rest for the years to come la kn
i'm not gonna put myself in a stress after seeing that thick book :p
oh need to prepare for osce : )

pathfinder 'll b out this 13/4
but i wont go to the official website for a second time
or maybe bcos i'm watching the trailer alone
n at this time of day with no light in my room :p

my brother was weird yesterday
he suddenly want to go to town
want to go for a movie
n then it hit me when he mentioned going for a hols in paris
they started their easther hols this week!!
cess do unfair!
we have osce after our hols
maybe they should change that to study week instead of holidays

i didnt go for the osce teaching by srs
my feet hurt bcos of the heels
but since i still want to wear heels for the next ward rounds
i have to get my feet back to their good shape
which mean stay in the house n try not to walk around this small galway
with other high heels shoes

btw i'm not in a good mood
dont ask y
i do eat a lot when i'm anxious
i've finished nearly everything i bought yesterday
this is bad
i'm gonna get fat again
hmmm

Fukisusabu Kaze No Naka De

Second Ending Song

Performed by WAG. Lyrics by Yuka Saegusa, music and arrangement by Akihito Tokunaga.

Gakeppuchi o  bokura wa kakeru
Keshite ushiro o furimukanai

Hitokoto mo kotoba wa shaberazu
Itsu no hi mo zangesuru koto mo naku

Sora o miagereba hageshii ame ga
Furikakaru osomatta ka to
Omoeba  mata  furihajimeru zujou o

Omoi okoseba   karui kimochi de yume o kime
Koi o kime  hito o kime  jinsei o kime

Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Kono puraido o sutesaru koto ga dekiru darou ka?
Koukai to shinjitsu no iro ga
Kokoro o matteiru

Mainichi ga kakumei no naka de  boku wa
Itsumo kimi to issho ni itai!

Asa ga kuru to  toki ga kawari
Kako no kachi ga chuu ni mau

Ima ga ato de kako ni naru you ni
Yami wa itsuka niji no kanata

Dare mo ga zetsubou kakushite  dare mo ga iki o hisometeru
Jibun o azamuku koto wa  mou dekinai yo!

Isshou kenmei  jibun jishin de iyou to suru no ni
Mawari ga mina to onaji you ni suru

Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Amari shinkoku ni wa kangaenai hou ga ii no ka?
Konya wa uso ni makeru koto naku
Kokoro o koraeteiru

Mainichi ga bunretsu no naka de  boku wa
Itsumo kimi to issho ni itai!

Nani ga tadashikute  nani ga machigatteiru no kamo
Wakaranai  kono sekai de
Ima demo kimi ga boku no
Futago da to shinjiteiru yo

Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Kimi no yasashisa ni ochite ikisouna yoru
Namida wa itsuka toki no kakera
Kokoro ga mayoi odotteiru


Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Shinjitsu no honoo ga moeagatteiru
Jiyuu ni naritaitte ii nagara
Jibun no ori no naka demo ga iteita

Mainichi ga konran no naka de  boku wa
Itsumo kimi to issho ni itai!

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these few days
the weather was crazy
we were having the all 4 seasons in one day
it was sunny in the morning b4 the cloud started to move n
blocked the sun then we had that gloomy winter like weather
b4 the hail + rain + snow started to fall
it was crazy wasnt it?
but that didnt stop us from going to town
hahaha : )

i am now entering the second of four weeks of core clinical skill
i was a bit tense when we started since evryone seems so excited and eager for this program, but i realized that i am enjoying myself doing this kind of thing
it's different, where during the preclinical year u can just listen and imagine with ur own limited imagination of what the lecturer has just said,now the tests they are talking can be demonstrated and we know what the normal and abnormal responses should be
u can see it with ur own eyes now
no need to rack ur brain imagining something which might not b true at all hahahah
but yeah shortness is a bit of disadvantage for me
because they don't use the bed patients have in the ward, they only put the bed which cant be lowered in that physical examination room *sigh*
oh tomorrow i'm gonna follow intan for ward round : )

this one is by arashi

i'm not really sure whether u guys can be directed to that site of u-tube by clicking that video or not bcos i can't which i don't know why
hopefully it works out fine n u guys can watch the video
can't ask anyone to leave any comment since i think i've lost the comment link or whatever they call it during the skin's updating sometimes ago

oh 'll b starting to read that blue book tonight : )
wish me luck with that

reading someone else blogs are always fun hahahha
they used words which make u wanna laugh rolling on the floor
that's if u r not sitting on ur chair la kn
u'll probably smack ur face on the keyboard b4 u reach the floor
hahhaha what am i imagining
ughh whatever
but i just love picking up blog of stranger n read
but mostly were from spore so far
maybe bcos most of that blogskin people are from spore

oh called my mum
told her i'm on the oral list
whatever again
i'm dead sick for several days
n i'm just too afraid to b sick again to think of that oral seriously
i got that headache most likely bcos of thinking too much about pharm
nvr mind i'll just revise what i still can for the time being
k off for pharm n bs of course
hopefully my stomach is not troublesome tomorrow n the day after

it started with a mild headache on thursday
which i ignored
but it got worse on friday
n the only thing i could do
was to sleep it off with some pills
but the pain was still there the next morning-this morning
though it's not as bad as yesterday
i hate this when it happens
i cant listen to my playlist or turn on the light
it's hurting my eyes n my head
my stomach is not well either
i hate these sickness

mmmm i think i just did smthg horrible
i cancelled the flight booking for my brother

but i'm gonna pay the rest of the amount
for mine,maybe tomorrow or the day after
n have to start that bs
am thinking of uploading some photos
maybe later

hmmm my temperament is bad i know-excuses
but its raining with wind today-excuses
i'm having xam next week-excuses
n i felt sick this morning-excuses
he should offer himself to go n pay his deposit
now that i already cancelled the booking
my mum sure is gonna b mad at me :p hahahha

i'm not hungry am i??
i don't feel like eating...since morning....
where does that eating monster in me disappeared to???
my head feel like it's gonna explode
i'm soo dead
i dont think i remember everything of that pharm : ( aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
have to go n study!!!

mai is coming from france to join whatever they are having tomorrow
-which i'm clueless about until mai told me
oh but kbar is going as well
how am i going to see mai??
hmm probably wont
since i'm not going to town on my own tomorrow
maybe next time la jumpe mai : )

clip for u guys : )
heard this one on yamato nadeshiko shichi henge anime
but that guy is soo skinny kn?? : )
mind u i'm not a fan
i watch that anime je : )

we spent the day joining family day!!n half way of that AGM
i wasnt really planning to stay for AGM anyway
wasnt planning to go for that games thingy pun
but just felt like going for the first time
so we went : )
plus kbar said he's the one handling
not bad kot-that family day
i thought since he's the one handling there might b a
chance the game/day wont go on smoothly la kn
hahaahha but he did skip that AGM
ohh i tasted mostly everything hehe :D

what to do now??
i'm so bored
call my home??
kaco everyone that's sleeping??
ughh haven't started a thing for bs.....
neuroanat & neurophysio 'll b posted on the board next week
time sure flies hmmmm
having a family day this w/end
should i go??
havent been to one since my first yr here
hahahha thats so me

justin : )

emm how come i'm thinking of getting ticket to fly back to malaysia(for summer) at this kind of time nih??? : (
intan 's gonna get her ticket dah
i'm soo jealous
but actually i'm not really bother with the actual date
still have to come back to ireland a bit early since kebar's class is starting early
haven't ask aimee whether she mind arriving here as early as last year
hmmm i dont mind-ye la since my home is not in a city as big as kl hehe :p
there the only place u can go for leisure(read shopping) is kb mall
-which is deserted during school time hahahha
there's only the shops owner n their assistants n some school kids when the school time is over n probably some people who's like me-having their summer hols that time-but i doubt that
it's probably just me spending time in kb/trg
the other may b spending time in other countries doing some travelling
if i'm in aimee place i probably wont fly back to this boring place as early as last year

aiyoo!!!shouldnt be thinking about this
ask aimee later
n study pharmaco for now : )

i'm just so tired now : (
should i sleep for a whle b4 i continue studying?
no no no......
shouldnt b doing that.....
mmmmm......

study study study!!!!

here's smthg new
pete yorn

oh great!!!!~~
that book only left me hungry for the next one in the bookstore!!!
-i've secretly sticked the list on the wall of my room(now it's no longer a secret la kn) my bro n the friends might have seen that...ughh they might b thinking 'what is she reading???those r not a list of medical books??!?!?!' hahaha say whatever u want-i read what i want to read :p ehehhe i knew this would happen...should have started my hols with those books not korean movies!!aaaa : (
oh i 've also stumbled upon another book of anne rice-the violin,or smthg like that but i wasnt planning to read that one since it's not one of the chronicles but i do hope no one else might lay eyes on it till i have another hols or maybe it'll last till summer on that shelves bcos i dont trust myself enough to go n buy it now,the temptation might b too strong to be shrugged off n i might end up finishing that one as well instead of my pharmaco-n that 'll only bring me trouble later so i better not do that : ) k la nite2 everyone

do u know the meaning of esophoria??the medical term??
hahahha i don't know why this person chose that word for this skin well he might has his own reason right or maybe we can assume he just like that word ehhehe
whatever that is here's the meaning : A tendency of the eyes to deviate inward.
hahhaha juling ke ape???
oppps i know it's not appropriate to laugh at him when i'm the one using this skin-it's nice right??but i still couldnt find the one that has the posting column in the middle the one like farah's skin is,n its also hard to find the column to be as big as the u-tube clips' width so i have to change the size of the clip everytime i want to post it

oh yesterday i brought back this black jacket with some flowers pattern : ) :D
along with my medication la... : )

ughh...
i now realzed that I DONT LIKE THIS green orange b/ground!!!
should go find a nicer one : (

i'm sooo full
we(intan n me) ate
dgg from pak mat = masak mesir type,recipe form net with lots of ghee
nasi
sambal tumis ikan bilis
some choc.cake=pretty much like puding choc. so try to imagine the sugary taste
then some shortbread=which is clearly some other fatty thingy
OMG we are really gonna b fat!!!!

lifehouse : )

hehe
intan said the taste of that carrot cake is a bit weird
as if we didn't use carrots or maybe it's not enough
emmm the carrots taste is just not there...
weird isn't it???
bcos we did follow the recipe...

n then after a while
i remember : )
the decisive reason for that-could b the eggs
they were in the same amount as the recipe
i was suppose to reduce every ingredients into three quarters
of the amounts in the recipe-since we didnt have enough carrots
so the weirdness was due to that extra eggs hahahah :p

that's why the only thing other than cinnamon
which intan n me can taste is the eggs hahahah
but the people didnt complaint at all pun hehe : )
well we bake that for takbir raye gathering
it's not that bad though as everyone ate a piece or more
i'm still stuffing myself with some which we left at home
yeah i know i've been eating,sleeping,watching movies,n sleep
again,n eat again,again n again this whole hols huhu~
should include the word books in my daily activities next time rite?? : )

bought myself a new petite bottle of perfume
hope that one will last till it's time to go back to msia this summer
am thinking of buying burberry prfume at the airport :D
yeah the price is not much different
but shopping is always fun isn't it?? : )
thank god for the weather today-we were happily walking
from one shop to the other without having to worry about the rain drop hehe
this is the 1st time spending my shopping day
in galway-boxing day or whatever it is called in ireland
the shops open later though only next was early-at 5 in the morning
the rest mostly at 9 n above
but my fav butler's coffee is closed today so just have one at the bagel factory
n now i can't sleep
this is tiring-not bcos of the coffee
i just don't know y
it's been like this lately
hmm maybe i should start with that book i bought earlier on today
another one in that chronicles of vampire : )

goong is heavy-yeah since i'm trying to find myself smthg that is much more like my girl type of series which is so-so not too heavy n not that foolish type though that i do felt like smacking that silly/funny face of the actress or the father huh
should have ask someother people b4 i watch it
n it's soo long-24 episodes
but thankfully they have it on youtube
it's about korean royal family(not in real life-they don't have royal families do they??or the last one died last year so i heard)
i didn't sleep for the 1st two days
n then still have to continue the next day to finish it off
the head was already felt like exploding n my eyes were teary n red-not bcos of the scene
but bcos i've been watching for soo long
so u guys better just watch my girl(Lee Dong Wook is kawaai ehehe)
here's some link
http://www.spcnet.tv/reviews/review.php?rID=1184
read the reviews there
hahaha my girl is soo funny
i was laughing my head off watching it
yeah i know everyone probably had watched them
uh my life is soo boring
nvrmind
i just love my life : ) :D
tomorrow is christmas day
which 'll b followed by the shopping day!!! eheheh :D

haha that boy is a chinese after all
but u know kelantan chinese normally speak fluent klantan/malay
: ) :D hehe apela bley terkonpius sdiri

heh i'm bored
oh yesterday we met this group of people
intan n me were on our way back home when we saw them
some chinese-we thought they were chinese from china,
when one of them ask whether we know bob or arsyad
so we ended up with one of the group member following us to our house
since the rest are staying in the hostel in the town
n since we keep telling them that-that dun aras is far away
the only one left is sit who need to go to bob's place
the other flee to their hostel-those r from newcastle???i think
sit is from edinburgh(don't know how to spell)
n bob came to pick him up later-sit is a malay
though at first we didn't really realize there's a malay among them
he's a kelantan guy-so typical kelantan guy is a bit like chinese kn
that's y la mistaken him as a chinese : )



uhuhuh what am i doing during this hour of early morning nih
i had a nightmare hence i woke up as early as 3.30
n now i couldnt go back to sleep.....sleep deprive again even when the xam is not tomorrow or the day after tomorrow : ( aaaaa
the nightmare was smthg which had to do with xam!!!a subject which i didn't really prepared for so i was sooo panic in that dream kakakaka
i was somehow know it wasn't a real thingy n tried to wake myself up
but i was still thinking of that unprepared exam when i woke up
n that make me restless n couldnt close my eyes : (
i hate xam!!!

that clip-one of them was my schoolmate
they r now in japan-that was performed in japan as well : )

new skin new skin
but still the title is not the one that i want
maybe i should one day learn how to make the skin myself
hmm only if time is kind enough to me la kn
nvr mind
it is easier to just use whatever there is made available to us ehehhe

oh xam is over
:D i've been telling everyone that MY EXAM IS OVER!!!
for now la
so here's the result of my unoccupied days
but anat's notes r still on/under/next to my coffee table :p
uhh sye malas nak kemas lg la
takpe2 nnt kemas-tonight kemas :D
k more post to come
since i'm spending my winter hols here....
so sad : (

snow patrol
yes yes again yes
snow patrol hehe : )

: )
for the first time since many2 nights...
i feel sleepy!!!!
yeay!!!
maybe i'll b able to adjust
my biological clock to its normal state :D

king tut wasn't bludgeoned after all
if he was-then he probably be living a dreadful life
with enemies all around-from the inside people(i think)-just waiting to kill him
n that's the conspiracy they thought took place back then
n he was like 18/19/20 years only-still so young rite??
now they discovered that the cranium fracture which they really thought it was
was actually his atlas/axis that was misplaced when they removed his mask
so he died bcos of femur fracture-which was infected
now i wonder how on earth a king got that lethal fracture......

heh i found someone else
who read anne rice n watch vampire movies
i'm so craving for a good vampire movie right
now-like the interview with vampire
or maybe any anne rice book
with vampire lestat in it : (
i want
i want : (

my brooch which i like the most
has gone missing : ( several weeks ago
sometimes i said to myself
maybe it was just under the bed
or some other place in my room
i was really really hoping it'll someday
pop out from that hidden place
which i believed i failed to reach when i was
searching frantically for it
but it's been several weeks with no sign
of my little brooch : (
i miss my little brooch-oh so stupid of me
but it's my brooch from a friend so dear
to me not so long ago : (
am so sad : (
i still have its pair - the bigger one
but how can i wear it if the small one is missing??? : (
oh little brooch do come out from ur hidding place pls pls : (
now i feel like i'm missing u too : ( my dear friend....

been meaning to post these photos since sooo long ago
sorry as they are not in any particular orders
there r more actually
maybe i'll put it up here later since i don't know what to write in here anymore
so photos r ok rite?? : )

: ) emmm
still in the middle of the busy week of studying
xam 'll start on 6/12 with biochem as the first paper
already had our physio lab xam-which was mcq
err what else???
guess that's it-for now : )

OMG i can't concentrate!!!
blame the woman at that butler's coffee
she ordered after i did
n she was way way behind me
but smthg happened n my bro still
haven't received his hot choc.
while everyone who ordered after us
started to leave with their hot cups
tired of waiting we just grabbed one of the 2
cups of hot choc with cream,
put on the counter after some time - n that's after my bro asked if it's his hot choc
but that woman,
stared as if we came without ordering n just
provide fake receipt!!!!
what the @##@%@#@!!!!!
maybe she forgot her hearing aid at home-who knows rite??? :p hahhahaha

couldnt post it on the other blog so
just put it up in here

i'm feeling tired
today is not the best day
tension is building bcos of the becoming xam i guess
so dont really feel like being near people
want to take a walk
go to town
shopping n taking pictures
but but but.......
oh upsr rslt is out : )

the Achiever Thanks for taking the test !
you chose AZ - your Enneagram type is THREE. "I need to succeed" Achievers are energetic, optimistic, self-assured, and goal oriented. How to Get Along with Me Leave me alone when I am doing my work. Give me honest, but not unduly critical or judgmental, feedback. Help me keep my environment harmonious and peaceful. Don't burden me with negative emotions. Tell me you like being around me. Tell me when you're proud of me or my accomplishments. What I Like About Being a Three being optimistic, friendly, and upbeat providing well for my family being able to recover quickly from setbacks and to charge ahead to the next challenge staying informed, knowing what's going on being competent and able to get things to work efficiently being able to motivate people What's Hard About Being a Three having to put up with inefficiency and incompetence the fear on not being -- or of not being seen as -- successful comparing myself to people who do things better struggling to hang on to my success putting on facades in order to impress people always being "on." It's exhausting. Threes as Children Often work hard to receive appreciation for their accomplishments are well liked by other children and by adults are among the most capable and responsible children in their class or school are active in school government and clubs or are quietly busy working on their own projects Threes as Parents are consistent, dependable, and loyal struggle between wanting to spend time with their children and wanting to get more work done expect their children to be responsible and organized Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele The Enneagram Made Easy Discover the 9 Types of People Harper SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages You are not completely happy with the result?! You chose AZ Would you rather have chosen: BZ (FIVE) CZ (ONE) AX (SEVEN) AY (EIGHT)

This test tracked 2 variables. How the score compared to the other people's:

	Higher than 66% on ABC
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food - our open house last year
i want that nasi ayam!!!

:D hehehe finally i'm done with my bs essay
tomorrow is the due date
so need to print it out in the morning
and hand it at the bs office??ke??
of course they have their own office/department rite???

my library books r due on tomorrow as well
banyak nya buku nak kena bwk!!! : (

teratai in my kolam back home
nice colour isn't it??
all this time i only remember teratai with white colour
till my mum showed me that one
nver imagine they do have other colours-err or
did i keep the teratai as only-green in colour in the back of my head nih???
is it bcos i've never saw one??the flower i mean
maybe la kot : ) cam tipu je sye ni, ntah la lupe dah
oh this morning some guys stopped me n asked for the direction to the mosque
so embarrassing as i don't know where it is
hopefully they met some other muslims
who do know the location of that riverside mosque
some one should tell me where it is as well
in case some other people stop me again : )

the leaves has started to turn orange + yellow
n fall scattering on the street
the day is getting shorter with the longer long night
my day begin with a bright sunlight if there's no rain for the day la
then ended with me hardly seeing the sun goes down : (
have to walk in the dark chilly night mostly everyday
thank god the weather is not that harsh this year-at least till today
i want to take picture of those falling leaves
but the time seems to b running
n by the time it slows down the leaves r probably no longer there
bcos my exam is close to the winter hols
the trees wont have leaves by that time dah : (

that thingy fail to work again!!!!
here's the url for those who's curious

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVHp-IKvN04

n the lyric as well : )

Well I was sitting, waiting, wishing
You believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs

The Lord knows that this world is cruel
I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool

I sang your songs, I danced your dance
I gave your friends all a chance
But putting up with them
Wasn't worth never having you

Maybe you've been through this before
But it's my first time so please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool

I keep playing your part
But it's not my scene
Want this plot to twist
I've had enough mystery
Keep building it up
Then shooting me down
But I'm already down

Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting

Well, if I was in your position
I'd put down all my ammunition
I'd wonder why'd it taken me so long

But Lord knows that I'm not you
And if I was, I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waitin' on love aint so easy to do

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool

No, I can't I always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool

jack johnson : )
camne la sye bley baru discover dia nih
nway pretty nice songs
but since this is the 1st one of his many2 songs that i listened to
it's been on my winamp list all day long since like 2 days ago ke??
hahhahaha
this is how i am
'll only change the list once i found out another new nice song
or when i think my brain can no longer process the words he's
saying as beautifully as the first time it did

miss the pg raye suasana
it's been 3 years with me raye away from my family
it's upsetting when i browse through bilah's page

http://www.friendster.com/27852062

n the captions she put up below those pics
n some statement she had on her profile
everyone is going awy from home
n soon there'll only b those who r still in primary school
but they 'll go away as well
n what left is my parents n that lonely house je
'll it b the same for all of us too???

my youngest adek
seeing her growing up mostly through photographs
n talking mostly on phone je

my parents : ) may u 2 b happy always

raye celebration by malaysian society n ppimg : )
were a bit late
but as usual they haven't started the ceremony
n as usual i don't think the imp.people were there
or maybe they've arrived b4 us n were seated at the front near the stage
who knew ehehe
bcos we got ourselves the table just next to the food
easier la kn :D
but the food was great-well i got the sate finally n the rendang to enjoy with
hahaha i ate that rendang with sate rupenya
baru prasan padanla cam pelik at first :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q536JTSe40M
i give up trying to upload it in here
go n check k : ) - a song from aqualung,brighter then sunshine
nice song n nice video isn't it?? : )

went to pay for the locker today
but they 'll only have the key for it by monday
so have to go there again next week
i was soaking wet when i finally have the money
but i can't wait to get my hand on the key for my new locker
thus i gladly entered the student union b4 the
lady behind the desk gave me the bad news
great i was running from the atm machine near ann's
office-which is outside the building
back into concourse-the one outside the boi
b4 i ran again in the rain to sport center only to find out
that the key is still not available
they should just mention for at least a few words
reminding students of when
the key 'll b ready to b given out
especially during this typical weather of ireland
uhuuhu~

i don't feel well : (
i can't sleep either
smthg is bothering me
many things r actually
camne nak raye ni
sakit kpale la : (

b4 the dinner-aimee's missing-she's the photographer
(there's another pic with the 4 of us but that one made
melook so pendek la bcos aimee is taller
hahahha so just uploaded this one la hehe)

photo of my h/mates n me after dinner with dean

the other day

these few days have been tiring
i want to b on a holiday
like my family in malaysia-for raya
i want someone else to cook
to clean the house
to finish my essay(???hahhaha)
to smile for me(????i told u i'm tired)
i tend to get serious/tense if i'm tired n probably lash out at somebody as well
n i'm tired of restricting myself from that : (

lastly i want my calling card!!!ain lupe agaknya : (

raya 'll b this tuesday
so tomorrow 'll have to go through another fasting day
n u-know-the-thing-we-recite-at-the-starting-of-syawal-month 'll b in the evening

i think i'm losing my vocab
does it sound ridiculous??
sometimes i've to stop n think of the word to use n if failed
i just described what i want to say (like i did in the 3rd sentence)
n asked the people around me to come up with the right word
what's happening to me???? : (

it's sunday
n i have nothing in mind of what to write in here
.....

oh yesterday was the pasar ramadhan event
we opened our own booth this year
new improvement eh???
just wanted to try something new
at least we experienced it
but no photos : (
we were busy from the start till everything was gone
: ) everything yes everything
should have put the roti john aside
but never mind we got the recipe now : )
n recipe for lepat pisang,ketayap,kuih talam,roti jala
which r all in intan's recipe book ehehehe :D

but yes it was tiring
with the plastic bag bocor n stuff
no booth for next year
this year is enough for me

oh
i saw this person
with nice shoes
n nice jacket ehehhe :D
face??have to see for urself :D
but appearance is the first thing we see n judge isn't it
at least that's how i see things

: ) live life the way u want(but have to abide by the rules of ur religion of course)
this has nothing to do with the previous paragraph
everything is not in connection today
my mind is spinning as well
drugs to memorise
my neuroanat lab 'll b this week n i haven't start a thing for it
so takut for my mcq
dinner with dean tomorrow-still in consideration 'll go only if i finish everything for mcq
n my almnd londn is not as delicious as last year : (
have to do my laundry
k gtg : )

uhuh the laptop is slower than normal
need to delete some stuff-movies i had stored in my limewire folders 'll have to go away
oh been watching the devil wears prada-the story line is somewhat the same but not totally like the part she slept with that not-so-h/some christian whom in the book is described as such a h/some guy-or is it my taste??or my expectation is too high??(i prefer heath ledger ehehe) hahhaah suke2 ati je kutuk org :D but of course it'll b different from the book rite n we'll find some information missing in the movie since the book tend to elaborate much more maybe i should try to watch the movie b4 i read the book next time : ) ehehhe
should bring the book for sarinah tomorrow : )
now need to go back memorising those drugs for cvs : )

i need my camera
i need my camera!!!
i need my camera!!!!!!!! : ( i need my camera

oh btw smthg funny (to me-at least or maybe to others who knew) is going on
we thought this 'll only last for like a few days
n everything gonna b normal again-or maybe we can just pretend it is eventhough it's not
hahahahhaha funny funny

what do u guys expect when u treat someone badly???
think think n use ur common sense

i came from a boarding school
where u got like everyone is watching u
so u better watch ur step or else who knows what 'll others do back to u
or if u did do smthg wrong apologize is the easiest way unless u have a bunch of though guys in ur side then that's alright cos no one will b able to touch u
but that's if u have though guys la

some common senses they thought me n which i think r not too hard to put into practice:
u don't go saying harsh words around n expect them to b nice
u don't go saying bad things behind their back either cos u don't know exactly who r 100% in ur side or they just pretend they r
people r complicated living things whatever came out from their mouth might not b the one from their heart
don't expect much from others as well we r living different lives with different problems etc
u should b grateful with what u have
don't b jealous with others
don't b hypersensitive
grow up n act maturely-b sensible n b responsible with whatever things u've done
or don't ever do it in the 1st place if u think u won't b able to handle the consequences
n use the appropriate tone n put on the right face expression in the right situation unless u want them to misintepret u

simple eh???

uhuhuh~

someone pls tell me to study!!!!
apsal mls sgt nak baca buku ni aaaaa...........

pharmacology lecture today was 2 hours straight-well there's gap of 10 or 5 min in between the hours but that was not enough to revive everyone from their sleepy state ehehe though that mostly everyone was awake n bcame chatty after the 1st hour-during the break la kn some even managed to get themselves some food like bread (-thava particularly kakaka sempat mkn dlm lecture mentang2 la dia dok blakang ehehe) but they reverted to their initial state once the lecturer said 'we should begin now..' ahahha.so another stuff to study.we r going to have mcq on this 17th of october which was actually scheduled on the 24th but they've changed the date if not we'll b wearing our baju raya n 'll b celebrating our eid on the same day : )

funny thing happened after bukak puase today-my brother was supposedly bring one of my mineral water bottle but when i asked for that bottle he shoved his backpack to me with some large bottle he thought the one i was telling him.seeing this i zipped up his backpack n started to laugh uncontrollably-omg that was tap water in it n i don't even use it as drinking water-well u know there's some exercise they told us to use bottle filled water in exchanged for dumbbell ahahhaha that's what that thing is for kakakka what was he thinking????the size itself was not like mineral water bottle i described hahhaha maybe he just didn't realize that,boys they don't really notice the small things do they??oh b4 that he don't even recognize i was wearing different jacket he simply said 'that was the same jacket wasn't it' when actually the length was way too different one is the short jacket the other one is a long jacket down to my knees kakakka ape la or maybe i'm too short that's why he didn't see the length of my jacket or maybe bcos it's me-maybe he'll take every extra precautions of the details of his bcoming gf ehehhe we'll have to wait n see :D

20 minutes to bukak pose - i want some coffee,ye coffee,i'm a coffee addict
15 minutes to bukak pose - my buah buahan in the fridge dah abis ble nak g beli ni
10 minutes to bukak pose - agar2 pun sedap tp gula dah abis ble nak g beli ni
5 minutes to bukak pose - nak daging goreng uhuhuh~

byk la semua benda pun nak ish3....
abis 20 minutes pikir ape nak mkn je
membazir masa btul
ahahaha :D
kna g solat maghrib dlu : )

lampu bilik nya mentol dah mati
camne nak tuka ni
sampai ke tak ni???cam tak je : ( grgrggrgr........

went to renew my garda card yesterday morning
the office is only open after 7 of course but u'll get no ticket if u arrive after that
bcos they started to que at 5.30 am(????)
n yes as usual the rain was there too
we were wet n cold n sleepy
thank God there's a cab to take us there-after been trying several times calling several cab
i woke up at 5
took a shower
n reached there around 6-when the que was already long
the 1st familiar face was esther at the very front door followed by many many malaysin students in long long que-was hoping that my eyes was seeing smthg my brain was imagining but it wasn't imagination after all sbenarnya mmg pnjg pun que dia uhuhuh~
seems like everyone was either ponteng or have no classes ehhehe
at least there's familiar faces around in time like that hahahha
the rumour is they'll only take the 1st 70 or 65
that's the rumour
the truth is they only take in the 1st 60 people
at least for yesterday
don't know how many people they take in this morning or the morning b4 that
they keep changing the number
n the time they open the office
dah la kna baya 100 euro
cett
nasib baik bley claim je :D hahahha
my adek blum buat
so far everyone had a miserable day in renewing their garda card
his wont be different-i assume la kn hehehe

3 st.endasian with denita during that welcoming party for new students
i was wearing my sister's kurung kedah-she probably doesn't realize that it's gone hehehe :D
she's taller then me that's y it seems to b big for me,well everyone is taller then me nowadays even my sisters in primary school r taller then me.during summer last year people thought i'm the 3rd child bcos they tend to think that the eldest should b the tallest so iqbal bcame the eldest followed by bilah n yana,eh maybe i'm the 4th child then hahahha
bilah n me was in the same secondary school n i remember there was time when we exchanged baju kurung n as she's taller then me-even at that time, my baju kurung nearly bcome kurung kedah for her n the boys keep looking at us in the dining hall kakakka
it's funny to come to think of those silly things we've done in secondary school-some r meant to b secrets so i can't write it down in here only the two of us n several other girls knew particularly her close friends hehe :D

i'm happy with myself now : )
plus i have my bro here keeping me company
n i'm looking forward for new things : ) n new people :D

got the solution i need :D yay!!!

: ) i really should fix a day on which i'll write my new entry for this blog-every sunday perhaps,

i found myself searching for smthg to write in here n not be able to think of any especially on weekdays where i'm too tired at night after classes during the day-ye la of course i have to go back home n study what i've learnt in lect b4 that rite(as if we have many classes on one day la kakaka)
oh we had a sort of gathering yesterday welcoming new students to nuig n followed by hari raya photo. session hopefully that photo 'll manage to reach utusan or smthg this year though that u wont b able to identify everyone in that photo-there's a lot of us here that's y n here's some of the photos taken by some guys on that day


the plan was to move from the hub-where we gathered for the new students welcoming party to quadrangle but due to some unknown reason we ended up posing here instead doesn't matter anyway bcos u still wont recognize every single of us with these big numbers
this second pic is of third med students :D
maybe i should get the front version of this from someone-my brother wasn't around at this time(he got my camera with him) so i don't have the pic in my camera la
k that's all
i'm sleepy actually so need to take a nap hehe :D

: )
got my maggi :D
but it's really only 2
kbar got the same as me and yup 2 as well kakaka
one is tom yam the other one is curry though i did mention i want mee goreng uhuh
seems like i have to cook my own mee goreng la
aimee or intan or farah normally use spaghetti to replace that mee besar u know that we don't have that type of mee we have back in msia but i don't really like that spaghetti so maybe i'll just wait till i'm back in msia la
oh haven't finish my pharmaco task
better start my reading now : )

i want myself to b happy again
but i don't know how
do i have to find my happiness on my own
or u want to help???
or should i say
can u help???

do u know how it feel when u miss someone like crazy that it makes u cry each time u think of them?but i guess u'll get tired of that n soon forget them when u get no response rite??that's possible rite???am i tired now??
no one really read this anyway so i can just pour everything in here as i wish
oh one more thing is it possible to feel no regret when u did that??it is rite especially when u don't want urself to succumb into that depression again n u feel pity for urself rite??
i don't know
can u tell me???

i've problems but i don't know whether that can b categorized as big problems or maybe bcos there's several of them so i don't really know now which one requires immediate solution n which one can b ignored for a while or maybe it's not a big deal n i can just forget about it but then i don't know where to seek help : ( i'm so unhappy at times but i couldn't do anything about it n since my school has started i end up thinking about that when i go to sleep-b4 i shut my eyes or sometimes in my dream : ( i don't like this bcos it feels like it haunting me even when i'm asleep n yes bcos those time allows me to take no action what am i suppose to do when i dream about that??normally this dream things only occur with my exams or me receiving xam result in a couple of days but these??y do they have to come to me even when i'm sleeping i don't understand : (

maybe i should think of smthg else now-it's kinda hard bcos they keep popping up in my brain every now n then n i really hate it when it does when i'm studying.

oh my brother has arrived :D but i forgot about my maggi when i went there with some stuff for him maybe i'll get them tomorrow

i'm not happy : (

uhh there's this nice looking but a bit faded colour jacket which i've been searching since last year-around the boxing day,at miss sellfridge(correct spelling??whatever) well yeah we've been out again-aimee n me u know spending every moment pleasuring ourselves b4 all those books calling for our attention ye la class 'll b starting on tuesday kn tp my wardrobe-i believe is full : ( n me doesn't really need of jacket but that one is very nice.... i remembered last year when i saw that kind of jacket of very similar design in town but when i went there on a couple of days after that there's none even one on the shelves i was yes frustrated bcos i couldn't find them in cork either uhuhu so i bought some other design y does it has to come out again????aaaa uh nevermind i'll try to control myself

i've been reading novels these few days n most recently is memnoch the devil.it's a slow pace novel but once u get the point u'll want to know more i've read another book by anne rice same like this one but the vampire journey is not as complicated as in memnoch the devil.recognize the author?yup the one wrote the interview with vampire n another novel turned into movie, queen of the damp-i think.pandora is with farah-it's farah's so it's in her room but she'll b back when the class is starting maybe i'll b reading that one when we've our hols again.
another one is the devil wears prada :D hehe now i'm waiting for the movie to come out in the cinema here : ) oh but i'm still struggling to finish the rule of four which i think is the first novel i bought among the others last year but yet to finish,it's not about that hypnerotomachia but mostly about the daily lives of the people involve in solving the riddles in the book,so bosan : (

enough about that :D my adek is coming as i mentioned b4 n the books they gonna use r my two years books bcos the college is changing the teaching/study method into integrated which means he'll b bringing lots of books n i'm pretty sure my maggi 'll b hancur when i have them in my hands : ( dah lama tak mkn maggi (me asking him to bring my maggi???it is not bullying or maybe it is the starting point hahaha),my family is a bit strict,no maggi for my adek2 kecik(of those in primary school n secondary) n sometimes even my adek2 besar(out of secondary school) n me have to like,eat that maggi in a hidden place-don't go imagining us eating in a closet or smthg,the hidden place is a hidden place as long as our adek2 kecik don't see us with that junk foods or any other junk foods hehe : ) i think it is all started bcos of my sist-she 'll get asthma attack each time she devoured any kind of junk foods (have to consume them as quick as she could b4 my mum see her) especially maggi hehe.

k that's all for tonight :D

ye la
ye la peq li
ni nak update la ni

dah lama tinggal this sort of things how do i begin eh??oh my wireless tokle gune-my internet actually since 1 month ago n those irish broadband people r too lazy to just come n check what's wrong with it but thank god finally they sent 2 guys to come n fix it but the problem is my laptop still cannot connect to the wireless aaaaa now 've to directly connect that idu box to my laptop : ( (peq li this thing awaits u jd nnt dtg baiki ye peq li)
sian aimee she'd been like working the whole day b4 those guys came to clean the house-hoovering n mpping the floor only to b dirty again by them.but we just pretend they didn't come into the house with their shoes intact la hehe :D

what else??my brother dpt galway so he'll b coming this september.i heard there'll b 9 girls n 4 guys from kmb this year n of course some other people from kdu,taylors etc but 10 'll have no house - probably 'll stay in sr house for a couple of days till someone get them houses

nnt i'll b posting another entry-if i feel like coming down into this cold dining room la : )

: ) dah lama tinggal my blog ni
back in msia now
n everyday have to take turn for the internet esp since kbar is still waiting for his pending malay ib result but i think its more for chatting thingy hehe as if mum know = he just have to make sure that he has that ib result page available when she happpens to pass him by right kbar right??this year the prob is with malay result last yr was worse-they have to wait for their biology result time must b crawling for them thank god it's only malay subject this yr if not mum 'll b bising starting from dawn till dawn again hahahah
he'll b contacting his ib coordinator today-if he remembered what mum said last night which i think he won't-since it's 4.30 in the morning now n i can still hear him laughing over smthg he watch on tv-he'll probably forget everything once his eyelids weight like a stone :p hahhaha
k later i'll smbg balik : )