the boys r having bbq this evening
i'll probably go if they invited my brother too
but i dont think they did
so i guess i'll hve that bbq chicken next time je la
hmm jawa's bbq chicken is good....
no wonder the guys ask him to do the marinating job
or maybe jawa volunteered since he's the only one at home now
the rest has gone to some other places for holidays
intan ponteng the attachment yesterday
n so did her group mates
or maybe the surgeon was busy so he couldnt give them tutorial heh : )
we didnt get any as well
but our team was kind enough to explain mostly everything that we saw on the patient
i mean what the patient was having
n what the next step to investigate further the suspected cause-though we couldnt really b there where they do all that uss,mri,ct scan etc etc
at least we get the idea
they even talked about the differences between swiss/germany chemo
on our first day on wards
i was with mr.r n the team deal with mostly pt with cancer in the abdomen/mostly colon
n the other abdomen/gastro related disease like crohns, ulcerative colitis, 3A, all sort of hernias, stone in the gallblader,pacreatic/pseudopancreatic cyst, appendicitis, hemorrhoids etc etc
my kumar has the list of investigation steps in it
so i have to make myself read those thing
but of course only those involving my attachment part
i'm gnna keep the rest for the years to come la kn
i'm not gonna put myself in a stress after seeing that thick book :p
oh need to prepare for osce : )

pathfinder 'll b out this 13/4
but i wont go to the official website for a second time
or maybe bcos i'm watching the trailer alone
n at this time of day with no light in my room :p

my brother was weird yesterday
he suddenly want to go to town
want to go for a movie
n then it hit me when he mentioned going for a hols in paris
they started their easther hols this week!!
cess do unfair!
we have osce after our hols
maybe they should change that to study week instead of holidays

i didnt go for the osce teaching by srs
my feet hurt bcos of the heels
but since i still want to wear heels for the next ward rounds
i have to get my feet back to their good shape
which mean stay in the house n try not to walk around this small galway
with other high heels shoes

btw i'm not in a good mood
dont ask y
i do eat a lot when i'm anxious
i've finished nearly everything i bought yesterday
this is bad
i'm gonna get fat again
hmmm

Fukisusabu Kaze No Naka De

Second Ending Song

Performed by WAG. Lyrics by Yuka Saegusa, music and arrangement by Akihito Tokunaga.

Gakeppuchi o  bokura wa kakeru
Keshite ushiro o furimukanai

Hitokoto mo kotoba wa shaberazu
Itsu no hi mo zangesuru koto mo naku

Sora o miagereba hageshii ame ga
Furikakaru osomatta ka to
Omoeba  mata  furihajimeru zujou o

Omoi okoseba   karui kimochi de yume o kime
Koi o kime  hito o kime  jinsei o kime

Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Kono puraido o sutesaru koto ga dekiru darou ka?
Koukai to shinjitsu no iro ga
Kokoro o matteiru

Mainichi ga kakumei no naka de  boku wa
Itsumo kimi to issho ni itai!

Asa ga kuru to  toki ga kawari
Kako no kachi ga chuu ni mau

Ima ga ato de kako ni naru you ni
Yami wa itsuka niji no kanata

Dare mo ga zetsubou kakushite  dare mo ga iki o hisometeru
Jibun o azamuku koto wa  mou dekinai yo!

Isshou kenmei  jibun jishin de iyou to suru no ni
Mawari ga mina to onaji you ni suru

Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Amari shinkoku ni wa kangaenai hou ga ii no ka?
Konya wa uso ni makeru koto naku
Kokoro o koraeteiru

Mainichi ga bunretsu no naka de  boku wa
Itsumo kimi to issho ni itai!

Nani ga tadashikute  nani ga machigatteiru no kamo
Wakaranai  kono sekai de
Ima demo kimi ga boku no
Futago da to shinjiteiru yo

Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Kimi no yasashisa ni ochite ikisouna yoru
Namida wa itsuka toki no kakera
Kokoro ga mayoi odotteiru


Fukisusabu kaze no naka de
Shinjitsu no honoo ga moeagatteiru
Jiyuu ni naritaitte ii nagara
Jibun no ori no naka demo ga iteita

Mainichi ga konran no naka de  boku wa
Itsumo kimi to issho ni itai!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LX3cU7xplEc

these few days
the weather was crazy
we were having the all 4 seasons in one day
it was sunny in the morning b4 the cloud started to move n
blocked the sun then we had that gloomy winter like weather
b4 the hail + rain + snow started to fall
it was crazy wasnt it?
but that didnt stop us from going to town
hahaha : )

i am now entering the second of four weeks of core clinical skill
i was a bit tense when we started since evryone seems so excited and eager for this program, but i realized that i am enjoying myself doing this kind of thing
it's different, where during the preclinical year u can just listen and imagine with ur own limited imagination of what the lecturer has just said,now the tests they are talking can be demonstrated and we know what the normal and abnormal responses should be
u can see it with ur own eyes now
no need to rack ur brain imagining something which might not b true at all hahahah
but yeah shortness is a bit of disadvantage for me
because they don't use the bed patients have in the ward, they only put the bed which cant be lowered in that physical examination room *sigh*
oh tomorrow i'm gonna follow intan for ward round : )

this one is by arashi

i'm not really sure whether u guys can be directed to that site of u-tube by clicking that video or not bcos i can't which i don't know why
hopefully it works out fine n u guys can watch the video
can't ask anyone to leave any comment since i think i've lost the comment link or whatever they call it during the skin's updating sometimes ago

oh 'll b starting to read that blue book tonight : )
wish me luck with that

reading someone else blogs are always fun hahahha
they used words which make u wanna laugh rolling on the floor
that's if u r not sitting on ur chair la kn
u'll probably smack ur face on the keyboard b4 u reach the floor
hahhaha what am i imagining
ughh whatever
but i just love picking up blog of stranger n read
but mostly were from spore so far
maybe bcos most of that blogskin people are from spore

oh called my mum
told her i'm on the oral list
whatever again
i'm dead sick for several days
n i'm just too afraid to b sick again to think of that oral seriously
i got that headache most likely bcos of thinking too much about pharm
nvr mind i'll just revise what i still can for the time being
k off for pharm n bs of course
hopefully my stomach is not troublesome tomorrow n the day after

it started with a mild headache on thursday
which i ignored
but it got worse on friday
n the only thing i could do
was to sleep it off with some pills
but the pain was still there the next morning-this morning
though it's not as bad as yesterday
i hate this when it happens
i cant listen to my playlist or turn on the light
it's hurting my eyes n my head
my stomach is not well either
i hate these sickness

mmmm i think i just did smthg horrible
i cancelled the flight booking for my brother

but i'm gonna pay the rest of the amount
for mine,maybe tomorrow or the day after
n have to start that bs
am thinking of uploading some photos
maybe later

hmmm my temperament is bad i know-excuses
but its raining with wind today-excuses
i'm having xam next week-excuses
n i felt sick this morning-excuses
he should offer himself to go n pay his deposit
now that i already cancelled the booking
my mum sure is gonna b mad at me :p hahahha

i'm not hungry am i??
i don't feel like eating...since morning....
where does that eating monster in me disappeared to???
my head feel like it's gonna explode
i'm soo dead
i dont think i remember everything of that pharm : ( aaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!
have to go n study!!!

mai is coming from france to join whatever they are having tomorrow
-which i'm clueless about until mai told me
oh but kbar is going as well
how am i going to see mai??
hmm probably wont
since i'm not going to town on my own tomorrow
maybe next time la jumpe mai : )

clip for u guys : )
heard this one on yamato nadeshiko shichi henge anime
but that guy is soo skinny kn?? : )
mind u i'm not a fan
i watch that anime je : )

we spent the day joining family day!!n half way of that AGM
i wasnt really planning to stay for AGM anyway
wasnt planning to go for that games thingy pun
but just felt like going for the first time
so we went : )
plus kbar said he's the one handling
not bad kot-that family day
i thought since he's the one handling there might b a
chance the game/day wont go on smoothly la kn
hahaahha but he did skip that AGM
ohh i tasted mostly everything hehe :D

what to do now??
i'm so bored
call my home??
kaco everyone that's sleeping??
ughh haven't started a thing for bs.....
neuroanat & neurophysio 'll b posted on the board next week
time sure flies hmmmm
having a family day this w/end
should i go??
havent been to one since my first yr here
hahahha thats so me

justin : )

emm how come i'm thinking of getting ticket to fly back to malaysia(for summer) at this kind of time nih??? : (
intan 's gonna get her ticket dah
i'm soo jealous
but actually i'm not really bother with the actual date
still have to come back to ireland a bit early since kebar's class is starting early
haven't ask aimee whether she mind arriving here as early as last year
hmmm i dont mind-ye la since my home is not in a city as big as kl hehe :p
there the only place u can go for leisure(read shopping) is kb mall
-which is deserted during school time hahahha
there's only the shops owner n their assistants n some school kids when the school time is over n probably some people who's like me-having their summer hols that time-but i doubt that
it's probably just me spending time in kb/trg
the other may b spending time in other countries doing some travelling
if i'm in aimee place i probably wont fly back to this boring place as early as last year

aiyoo!!!shouldnt be thinking about this
ask aimee later
n study pharmaco for now : )

i'm just so tired now : (
should i sleep for a whle b4 i continue studying?
no no no......
shouldnt b doing that.....
mmmmm......

study study study!!!!

here's smthg new
pete yorn

oh great!!!!~~
that book only left me hungry for the next one in the bookstore!!!
-i've secretly sticked the list on the wall of my room(now it's no longer a secret la kn) my bro n the friends might have seen that...ughh they might b thinking 'what is she reading???those r not a list of medical books??!?!?!' hahaha say whatever u want-i read what i want to read :p ehehhe i knew this would happen...should have started my hols with those books not korean movies!!aaaa : (
oh i 've also stumbled upon another book of anne rice-the violin,or smthg like that but i wasnt planning to read that one since it's not one of the chronicles but i do hope no one else might lay eyes on it till i have another hols or maybe it'll last till summer on that shelves bcos i dont trust myself enough to go n buy it now,the temptation might b too strong to be shrugged off n i might end up finishing that one as well instead of my pharmaco-n that 'll only bring me trouble later so i better not do that : ) k la nite2 everyone

do u know the meaning of esophoria??the medical term??
hahahha i don't know why this person chose that word for this skin well he might has his own reason right or maybe we can assume he just like that word ehhehe
whatever that is here's the meaning : A tendency of the eyes to deviate inward.
hahhaha juling ke ape???
oppps i know it's not appropriate to laugh at him when i'm the one using this skin-it's nice right??but i still couldnt find the one that has the posting column in the middle the one like farah's skin is,n its also hard to find the column to be as big as the u-tube clips' width so i have to change the size of the clip everytime i want to post it

oh yesterday i brought back this black jacket with some flowers pattern : ) :D
along with my medication la... : )

ughh...
i now realzed that I DONT LIKE THIS green orange b/ground!!!
should go find a nicer one : (

i'm sooo full
we(intan n me) ate
dgg from pak mat = masak mesir type,recipe form net with lots of ghee
nasi
sambal tumis ikan bilis
some choc.cake=pretty much like puding choc. so try to imagine the sugary taste
then some shortbread=which is clearly some other fatty thingy
OMG we are really gonna b fat!!!!