every single time i see u in the street as u walk by u r shuffling ur feet as if to say u rather die, then live so far from home i wonder is that y u r so alone n i f u found a place to call ur own would u b fine n u tell me that smthg good is bound to happen soon n meanwhile u just wait inside ur room
do u find i odd that u were not as strong as u once thought even if u run u might get caught so u wont go n u'll b the last to know

some photos from my last year flight
i didnt have any photos for this yr journey since i forgot to grab along my camera when the cab arrived at the door n the night was cold so i had my hands full with jackets n other stuff so the camera was left behind in the rush...

this is also taken from someone's page
this is seriously addictive
i'm having it on n on for the 3rd day in a row now
kinda weird bcos i normally listen to oag,flop poppy or indon's groups for malays songs
heh do enjoy it : )


n also smthg from fpoppy + misha

haha i just tried out this one test
which i found at my friend's fs page
the result came out the same as his
i thought 'that was weird??'
so i took it for a second time
this time i didnt change anything that were already clicked for me when i opened that page
guess what
they give the same result to everyone haha
here it is

The medical specialty for you is.... Cardiology

Cardiology is the best of all specialties. As a cardiologist, you'll be sure to profit from the sharp increase in obesity. You'll open at clinic across the street from a McDonalds and retire a billionaire.

To find out what specialty best fits your unique personality, go to:

What Medical Specialty Is For You?

oh the handle of my skipping rope is nearly ripped off
hmm i'll b needing a new one soon i guess
well actually the rope has worn out
it'll probably just detached itself from the handle someday
hopefully i'll b aware when that happen n close my eyes on time-if i was skipping at that time
u know in case it strikes my eyes heh

i want to go out...
ughh there's some drilling sounds coming from the house next door
what r they doing??

finally after been starving n craving for some rice
i managed to force myself to enter the kitchen and made myself chicken curry
i forgot to buy some veg and bcos my stomach couldnt stop grumbling
i settled with only that
too hungry to focus on cooking some other dishes hahaha
oh i got a visitor today :D
some cat-the 2nd cat i saw after the 1st black one
he(i assume bcos he's big??!?!i dont know hahaha) wasn't afraid of me hehe
well the truth is i started to throw some meat for him after seeing him appearing at the back door maybe that's what made him stayed till after i finished cooking n closed the door
he wondered into the kitchen as well though
but he didnt steal my chicken haha
it was late so i just ate small amount of rice :p
err rather i'm not gonna let myself gain weight again after the skipping thingy i've been doing heh

emm the cat-r those 3 colours or just 2?they said only female can have 3 colours...

my eyes got teary watching this one vid
they both dies by disembowelment-they killed themselves!!!
the guy was desperately trying to keep his lover from suicide each time
the memories of the battlefield they had b4 were dredged up
but one of the guy's friend betrayed him by shoving a knife into the hand of his lover
the lover was actually from the opposing party that lost in the battle
so they are labeled criminals now
having lost the battle but not the pride
the lover chose harakiri
when he found out
the lover was already dead
having nothing else to live for
he decided on seppuku holding tightly to his dead lover

that traitor was actually seeking revenge bcos his lover was one of the war victim as well
so he has this grudge towards everyone from the opposing party though they were all japanese just from different clans
the sad thing is the guy had removed every little things that could b used in a suicide attempts
but this hatred-filled guy just go n gave the knife to his friend's lover
evil!!!

the plots were much more complicated but i dont feel like elaborating hehe :D

forget what we r told
b4 we get too old
show me a garden
that's bursting into life
all that i have
all that i ever was
is here in ur perfect eyes
they r all i can see
i dont know where
confused about as well
just know that these things will never change for us at all
if i lay here
if i just lay here
would u lie with me n just forget the world
=snow patrol k,it's not my words :p

why did i watch that thing!?!?knowing it has a sad ending?!?!waaa

do u know what
till today
i've just seen one black cat sniffing and prowling the backyard
where did all the other cats disappear to??

i hate it when someone
wanted to correct me but with a misleading twist of words
go straight n i'll consider it
honestly i'm neither good in interpreting nor i'm good in taking advice
unless it's from someone i know haha

eleanor called today
but i didnt recall any doorbell
she probably thought i wasnt home
so she just took out the brown bin for tomorrow's collection

gagaga cant sleep!!
oh u guys can expect entry from me for each days of this august month :D
i dont think i'll b able to go to uk this month
i'll figure some way to visit de'e b4 she fly back to msia for good
i heard everyone else doing the teacher like course 'll b finishing their study here
so i'm assuming she'll b too
or maybe she's a bit different-ugh i don't really know
need to ask her later
she's probably tired of me asking the same question hehe :p
what do i do now???
emm maybe should go n check blogskin site....

emm did i put this up b4??
heh i never get bored listen this one : )

i skips a bit
but the coldness got to me
i'm out of breath now....

now i'm a little lost
what's that suppose to mean??
ur words r confusing me...

yes!!
i bought my food supply!!!
at 1st it seems like the rain gonna come down
but it only did when i was turning
into the junction heading to the house
i felt like i a had all the time in the world
thus been browsing the clothes here n there
painfully slow-well that what will other feel, i guess,
if they happen to b with me at that moment hehe :D
another season is coming so they have this sale going on
but nothing caught my eyes except the sandal they had on display
but my feet is not that girlish and the bottom of the sandal is too flat
i'll feel as short as ever if i wore that one
it's quite nice though-wish they have the
version for people with my type of feet hmmph..

umm i have this urge to go jogging somewhere
but i couldnt think of any suitable place or time
n yes the day time is excluded-i hate running under the sun
i've been doing that for several years during high school
i dont wish to be doing the same thing again
hahaha that was actually bcos the players were
too lazy to join the prep class
we made that up as an excuse heh-rather it was me as i'm the head :D
silly us/me
i kinda miss those time
we even played during weekends, though
the hostel area doesnt really provide a big space for
a hockey team to run about n i remembered several incidents where
the teamates get hurt during practices
i remembered having three fingers with blood underneath the nails
bcos of the hockey ball-the pain?
felt like all the blood rushed there in an instant
n left nothing else to ur brain or any other body part
i nearly cllapse n my face went white
it was probably the shock at first
i couldnt speak for a second bcos i was still couldnt believed
the hockey ball just went straight up to my fingers
which were gripping the stick at that time
my fault since i didnt realized there was a bump
just ahead of me thus the ball went up into the air
we were playing in the field beside the hostel
so the ground was not all that flat or clear from small stones
but that didnt stop me from continuing playing
it's only now that i completely stop
n i dont know why

emm i want some pic to put up in here...

grgrr i'm hungry
really need to move my lazy bum out of this house
n buy some foods
it's a pity
when the weather is nice but the timing is just
not right to ask anyone here to go to town with me
hmmmph..

heh enrique : )

the bookstore ran out of stock
thus i ended buying the thickest version of patho book
hopefully the thickness wont bother me much
i got my red surgery pocket book as well
today wasnt that bad-no rain-not yet
i had a tuna bagel from the new bagel
factory just across the street in front of the hospital
but i honestly think the one at town
tasted tastier than the one i had

i arrived around noon at galway on 1/8
one of the sr was on the same flight as me
but i just realized her when we landed at heathrow
but thank goodness since we actually
have to spend the night at dublin airport haha

oh i went to charcoal yesterday-the 2nd day
it was around 9
n people were flooding the streets
drinking n probably waiting for their turn
to get into the pub/club
the old charcoal was full of people
n so we move to the new one
i believed they were just back from the galway races
n the girl next to our table
couldnt stop whining about some other girl
who shows interest towards her bf or smthg
she was absolutely loud but the
parents n the bf just let her b
i felt like smacking her
people want to eat in peace!!
not chocking on their food bcos of her loudness geez~

i'm waiting for kbar n paipon
they had this anak angkat program which ended today
it's nearly two in the morning
where the heck r they???
wish these mosquitoes to just buzz off!!!
why is it only me surrounded by these annoying small thingy???
hmm now it's maybe bcos i'm the only one alive gah~

the reddish lines started to form just above my right elbow,
i was thinking of putting bilah's sneakers on,
but was too lazy to walk up the stairs
and walk some more to find the socks to go along with it,
which god knows where my mum keeps them
well i didnt bring mine home so have to kidnap someone else :p ,
those were probably my sisters' but i dont care as long there's one
anyway, i ended with my dad's sandal
which of course quite big for my feet
so the plastic rope get tangled with them
n whipped the side of my arm
yeah it stings a bit

normally i skips in the house but i hit one of the nails
hammered by the tukang on the cemented floor of kbar's new room
thus the line bcame no longer straight-they had a thread tied from one nail to the other-i guess they r using them as a ruler for the tiling work-
this didnt amused him
n by the look he gave me
i dare not take the chance to get the rope away from him without telling
but that's out of question bcos i hit the nail
i assumed he'll b looking for it if it gone missing even for a second
he was skipping a little bit earlier
just taking a break from the painting work he's doing in his new room
that person who took the rope 'll probably get yelled at
n in this case
i could b yelled at
~ouch that's gonna hurt my ears

as usual my day begins at noon
hahah oh this is not in any way associated with the above pic
but maybe i'll talk about it in later paragraph : ) if only my dad wont-by any chance pass by n start lecturing on the proper way of handling his precious laptop :p
btw i doze off right after my mum left for school this morning
yeah i stayed up all night
my dad drove kbar to some jetty near merang?
supposedly he waited for the tukang to finally replace the old windows with bricks
but kbar announced he's going to some pulau from merang
(err i dont know whethr that's the place he headed for
n i forgot what pulau he was talking about the whole 2 or 3 days earlier)
well yeah he mentioned about that pulau
but we thought he'll be going by bus
like a decent son who wont cause trouble
n thats where the problem lies
everyone even my mum forgot, he as he is
will of course say,
mum i will be driving to merang.period.
which is a completely statement like sentence
but kbar wasnt really thinking of what he should do with the car,
well it's more like he wasnt sure if they have a safe parking site at the jetty,
so then the owner of the car suggested for my dad to go with him
hahahha there goes his dream of driving his way there
oopps he'll b mad with me
nvrmind he wont at least not till he get back home :D

eh i strayed from my main point
my dad as i said was supposed to b the one monitoring the tukang working on
taking down the windows-n since my day begins at noon..
some goes to bilah.. :p
my dad probably spent half of his way driving home from the jetty
trying to reach us on the phone
i knew the phone was ringing non-stop but
i was too sleepy
h/ever that didnt stop my mind from imagining the level of my dad's anger
nonetheless no one answer the phone err what???
we were sleepy that's why hhahaha
n then
i heard my dad said
have u had breakfast?
n he was holding some ketupat n nasi bungkus
guilt-ridden i said not yet, but i'll eat later
ye la he bought those things for us to eat
i am suppose to say i will eat those so not
to make him mad at me even more : ) :p

well bilah actually answered the phone once
n my dad told her to ask me
to open the grill of our front door
n let those tukang to enter the house so that they can do their work but i said
no i dont want to n went straight to bed again without a second thought??!?!
so bad of me
maybe my sleepy head was really really sleepy after all
n maybe i'm a bit worse than kbar then :p

emm why is the pic seems to b smaller than usual?

ugh i've been thinking of moving to live journal instead of this blogspot
but smthg is holding me back
maybe bcos i dont want to lose everything that i've wrote in here
though mostly are just some craps i have nowhere else to write
really love the icons they r using
i havent really go through every details of that lj
i'll probably need some time to get used to it
n knowing myself
probably need more time than others in working the system out
-since i'm easily distracted err should b lost interest haha
like the one i've started in yahoo 360..hardly remember what i have in there
oh need to change my sleeping time
i havent completely finish sewing my pants
yeah i'm trying to fill my time with smthg useful
i'm going to cut the fabric for my baju raye next n then maybe my own white coat
so far i nearly finish with the testing using some of my
mom's many kain in the closet
but my stephen king is still far from the last page
gah i really am a lazy bum these days....haha :D

a week feel like yesterday

eh wait it should b 2 weeks

see my home is not that boring

yeah with everyone around except for maher

the house is lively n full

we got some cermai this evening

well the tree is behind our house

n what else to do then occupying our time with some silly activity

hence the cermai are still in the tudung saji in the compound haha : )

omg i still found that hilarious

we just happened to have nothing big enough

to catch all the cermai once the smaller branches are pulled

n they come tumbling down that particular branch

thus the tudung saji on the table in front of the house

was grabbed

now maybe u r wondering why on earth we have it in the porch

well abah need it to cover the drinks n some foods for

the tukang working at our house during the day

my sister-that particular one- said she want

that cermai to be cooked=cant explain

because it'll sound weird

it is because i dont think u can imagine how that small little fruit can b cooked

it can n we do cook or maybe there's other suitable word for that

but i dont know what-sorry :p

we r still waiting for the rooms to be done

which i doubt 'll b finished by the end of this month

probably have to come back home again next summer

if i want to see the rooms

oh here's some pics

i should b the one taking the pics next time

cos my sister seems to b obsessed with her face

n random people so i cant put them up here

gah the internet is slow like hell!!
i want to read more fanfic!!

n this blogger thingy keep making me mad

maybe the real prob is the internet connection

but this spacing sure got nothing to do with the connection dont they??

finger cross cos i'm dead sleepy now n wont b in the mood for some editing later : (

last pic-can see my father in here

i need more pics!!!