i no longer have the drive to attend any tutorial, wr, or anything else related to hospital!!!!
gah i wanna go home or maybe just away from galway for a little while
sometimes it feels like i'm all drained n exhausted
summer is tooooo hot when u r in the clinic or running around in the wards
n it's hard n frustrating when u cant say that to real people
without getting mock-yes then why r u here doing attachment? that sort of words u know

rasenya ayat2 biase pun bley buat org kecik hati
kalo sket2 tkpe la maybe sye tk kisah
tp kalo byk kali
then maybe bley meletup n lari je dr kamu, mau ke??
ke itu point nya?hmmm

hari ni rase pnjg nyaaaaa
apsal tk mlm2 lg ni???
penat dh tgk matahari sinar2 tu
nasib baik clinic sampai tgh hari je
kalo tk mau pengsan dlm clinic yg panas tu

oh kitaorg bli tiket ke paris 12/6 ni hehe
haaih pandai btul, mesti hangus ble balik dr paris tu nnt
rase nya ni kali ketiga g sane
tkpe la skali skala manje kn diri kekeke
n yes someone reminded me that
i didnt get anything for myself on my birthday
so bley la ni as a gift for myself :D
nnt pg with aman, qama, rafiq, intan n farah
hopefully the weather will stay as bright as this
ye la then baru puas jln2
tp sye mau tgk eiffel time mlm jugak
n now mlm start around kul 10 hmmmm

ye kami pegi dock lg for the second time hehe
why???
sbb these prawnies were calling us haha

take a look at the size of prawnies ni
BESAR!! n sedap, really :D
i wasnt really interested in eating those at first
but once i took a bite, tok le berenti lak
nasib baik line tuk bli tu pnjg
kalo tak maybe kami bli lg :)

we went to our classmates' bbq lps tu
not all people were invited though
n just b4 we reached the house
we bumped into one of those yg tk dijemput

tp dsbbkn we didnt know at that time yg only certain people were invited
like usual, we said hi n tanye mane umah bbq tu
her face changed!n demanded to know whose bbq we were referring
we knew it then-dia tk tau rupenya
feel like lari je dr situ hahha
semua pun cam dh glabah sket-ape nk jawab nih hahah

n yes all the meat were not halal so we made a 2nd trip to town
to charcoal lak :D
ye cuti is for mkn + jln2 + shopping + tido
but unfortunately it's too hot to b sleeping in this summer :(
sye mau kipas angin!!! :(

i got a text msg from mummy pg td
wish happy birthday
tp silap ari plak
mummy lupe ingtkn dh 27/05 kt sini
tp dia kate tkpe la dia jd org first wish
though silap hari haha

hari ni seperti slalu, hujan
Volvo race dlm hujan la maksudnya haha
tk tau volvo race??
sile google sdiri :p

skarang sudah lapar grgrgrg
tp dapur rase cam jauh sgt sgt
coco pops hampir habis
ayam lupe lak nk kuarkn pg ni
mkn ayam kashmir ptg ni saje la :D
tp lambatnya nk pukul 730
rase macam puase pulak heh

called mummy
katenya semua kna ade tuk tnh/whatever nya urusan
hmm but i wont b there till at least august
harap2 bley kasi duit je dkt kakak itu
umah mesti sepi saje pagi2
slalunya abah ade kejut kn semua org yg tk pegi skolah heh
skarang pg2 mesti tkde nasi bungkus or kuih2 atas meja dh
mummy ckp
ptg2 mesti burung2 yg abah used to bela pulang
mkn2/main2 dpn laman umah
cari tuannya agaknya
sian burung2 tu
kucing2 pun mesti tkde org kasi mknn
kesian diaorg

nabilah dh sampai india
dh jumpe si zola (tk tau eja)
tp budak tu buat bodo je katenya
nk aja cari dlm friendster mane satu si zola tu
tkpe la people can do/say whatever they want
cume baik tidak je
tp susah jugak kalo diaorg salah interpret mane baik mane salah haha

farah yg hampir jatuh ke dlm air sungai

oops ade doggy berenang
now that reminds me-when did i celup tgn dlm air itu?
selepas anjing itu lalu ke sebelum??mmmm

sasaran si doggy = swan
tp swan tu mengelak sket so tk kna tangkap hehe

text or msgs
we tend to read with emotion r we not?
am i the only weird person to put emotion in those words?
i'll usually imagine how the person
was like when she/he sends me text/msg

wouldnt it b nice if the sun is out shining n we have our cup ice cream with us?
maybe tomorrow will b better?or not? :p

abah passed away on 3rd of may at 3 pm
but thank God everything went smoothly
here n at home
mum was so sad as does all of us
my sister in india took a flight on monday morning
i wish i could do the same thing but
i couldnt change anything
it was hard at first to digest the news
but when i rethink
mum was by his side for the whole week
accompanying him
she was practically staying in the same ward
taking care of him till the last moment
telling him to say Allah n all,
he did not suffer for a long time
n we talked to him on phone almost every
day when he was in the hosp,
looking back at his life i believe
he did what he needed to do
his life was pretty much completed
seeing us all grown up with
my sister giving him a couple of grandchildren,
retiring from his work as a teacher
gave him more time for himself n the family,
these past few years
he was able to go to masjid or staying up late for tahlil at other people's house
im very much proud that he's like that
i remembered he'll bring home some kuih from the majlis he joined
his tahlil/quran group 'll probably missed him too
as we do now
but the time has come for us to let him go
n yes the only thing we can do is to remember him in our prayers n bacakn yaasin for him
n thank you everyone for all the things u've helped us with :)

urgh we have to re-sit paeds slide!
the paeds-photos book in the library is no longer there
waa sape la yg gatal mulut pg bgtau deprtmnt nih?!?!

the result is out!!
10 to 12 in the afternoon!!!ggrgrgr
but Alhamdulillah :D hehe

i had my books opened n ready to b read but all i could think of
is my paeds osce, so now bley concentrate :D well hopefully la kn
i need to call my mum 1st ;)

my dad is in the hospital for an operation
instead of today-it's been postponed to tomorrow
mum sounds a bit worried initially while i was on phone with her
but she's alright now i think
it's not that big of an operation
but it is for him n my mother
i can sense the doubt in his voice n i knew
he would opt for not going through with it if not for my mother
hehe
today-he saw some of the med students in the hospital
he said one of them look like me
n the night b4 that he asked me again
if im really not going back for summer
i told him no
but listening to him n my mother
maybe i should go home instead of staying

1-what happen if u reject someone's friend request on fb?
do they get a notice after that?u know smtms it's a wonder
why people still add those whom they've thrown some
hurtful words some times ago
they were oh so superior b4 that they think they can say
whatever came to their mind n being an ignorant to others feeling
damn i so wanted to just ignore ur request
but i dont have the heart to
though i know even if i approved, it'll still
b pointless bcos they wont even give u a testi saying hello or smthg
what's the point of wanting to b in the friend's list then???

2-i hate my fb now that it's flooded with people's
stories that r totally unrelated to me,n yes the gedikness included
omg sakit mate!!pls act a little bit normal!
gah maybe i'll do some spring cleaning hahah

i had a weird dream this morning
i dreamed of a baby-my baby!
hahaha
i woke up startled n a bit confused
why a baby of all things/human being?
n when im done with paeds too hmmm

the syndrome in my previous post is called
anhydrotic ectodermal dysplasia-it's affecting the ectoderm
so in that child case, he's definitely hairless,
the skin is somewhat pale and thin
and the other thing is he cant control his temperature
n guess what they suggest??
try living in the cold country!
they might go developing seizure and end up with brain damage
if the temperature is too high
they dont have the normal temperature regulator as we do
because they dont sweat so yes no way of reducing the temperature
and they are prone to infection so explained the many
many tablet he's on

i saw another new rare syndrome this week
the child has rubinstein-taybi syndrome
most of the cases were diagnosed by the broad thumbs/great toes
as the facies are not obvious when they are still young
the disorder is due to the deletion of 16p13.3
her face show the features of the syndrome
like beaked nose,
ptosis, small maxilla, microcephaly,
small mouth with crowded irregular teeth, high palate, n
short upper lip
the great toes and the thumbs have some deviation as well
she has a delayed in speech
but she seems friendly enough to let us come near her
and played with us hehe

i didnt go in with dr.G this time so i probably missed
other interesting patients she has

i need to finish my case now ;)

i wanted to write about what happened in sligo
but one of the things include the unavailability of internet connection
at my bnb so yeah i couldnt go online
the modem was in faulty condition-u can see
from the look of it really
but somehow the bnb's makcik asked someone
to come n fix it-well he did but the internet was not that good
so i have to suffice with only browsing the very few pages that i really need to go to
before the connection disconnected or the signal became very weak
i know it'll b better if i just go down the stairs n just plugged it off for a few minutes but i was too lazy haha

i have an early start every morning-8.30 mostly everyday n the bnb is half an hour away from the general hospital on foot, my paeds ward is on level 7 so i normally take the lift
instead of the stairs :D
the clinics are on mostly everyday
the ward round is twice everyday
the scbu is quite small compare to galway
but there is this one baby with pneumothorax
he's a big baby with diabetic mother
but the insertion of drainage tube was a wow bcos i've never seen one b4 hehe
most of the babies there bcos of diabetic mother
pneumothorax baby is the only one in incubator
the rest are all quite well in their cribs

one pt who came to the clinic
had this very pale thin skin-like an albino
with no hair
i could see blood vessels on his head
very clearly like those of osteogenesis imperfecta
he had three fangs-like tooth at the age of three
the tongue was a bit long
n he's on several medications
later the consultant told me he has...........
i forgot-will post it later haha

i'll b going for my away attacment-in sligo again
for the next two weeks
am hoping for the good weather
n not icy cold-n yes no rain pls
as if that's possible haha

anyway we had an outing last night
the ikan was SEDAPPP as in malaysia hehe
that scallops was a little weird though
i dont really like the taste-or rather
i couldnt recall what the taste was like?!
i would say-if you want to eat fish then go to tamarind
thai garden is as the name is = tom yam/tom ka goong(tk reti eja)
indian food is best in kashmir
trattoria is when u feel like eating italian food :D

my bus is at 8 tonight
gah im so not in the mood to pack my bag!! :(

i snapped at someone on friday
i was very much annoyed with mostly everyone
i had a presentation in the morning
of which i only got the case
on wednesday night
left me with only a day to prepare

i was soooo annoyed
bcos seems like everyone want to b oncall
why the hell do they have to b on ward
when they r not suppose to
n when they not even presenting on the next day
or even in the week
it's alright if they were there to check on
their patients' chart for any progress
but when they asked the nurses for history-after 6 i mean
that's when they've taken other people's
right bcos of the soo many people want to
take history after 6 that wednesday
the nurses were reluctant to allow any more
i.e the people who were on the on call list to do our work
which is FINDING THE CASE FOR PRESENTATION!!
i was frustrated my head was throbbing
n the light was unbareable for my eyes
i had to go home n sleep
b4 i went to a&e with sarinah
thank god there were several pt there
i got the case from there
n my headache stopped heh :D

but anyway i'm done with case presentation
so i wont b banging my head on the wall
bcos i couldnt find one anymore hahaha
i must admit i became a meanie when
im annoyed or tired
n yes dont come near me when im not smiling
i might just lash it out at u :p