dejected

i've been home close to two weeks now
with no one else other than my mum who can drive
i've to finally put into usage my driving license n my
long forgotten driving lessons
so my day starts as early as those school kids
i have to send my little sister to her school which is just
a few minutes from our house
n if my mum is a bit late for the day, i'll have to send
the other two sisters of mine to their school as well
then i have to drive back home to pick up dayana n
send her to her driving class
haha i actually finding myself enjoying driving
n my mum doesnt care if i want to drive her vios
instead of my dad's sentra even though i just
mustered my courage to finally drive on the second day i arrived home
i actually never drive b4 other than during the actual driving classes keke
n its actually a wonder my mum even told me to use her car if i so wanted to
n guess what she said ok when i jokingly said i want
to drive in ireland if i ever got the chance to ;)

i wish i could go roaming all the secondhand bookshops n
buy all the mayfair witches books by anne rice right this moment!!!
the witching hour left me craving for more
i want to know what happen with the newborn lasher
n what exactly is taltos
sometimes the story gets entwined with vampire chronicles which makes
the more reason for me to read all the rest of the vampire chronicle
there's still several books from the vampire chronicle which i
couldnt get my hands on them bcos it's kinda hard to get them here
n i dont think i ever found them if not in secondhand bookshops
gah if only i have time for that
the truth is the books were there in front of me all the time
covered by dust in most of the time, on the shelves in my room
i bought them when i came across anne rice whenever i visited the secondhand
bookshop but time is the only thing which is not quite enough i would say
for us medical students-or maybe me bcos i cant read (buku crite only hehe) without
forgetting the rest of the world
guess what happened the other day?
i heard knocking on the front door several times past few days
but i was reading the witching our at that time
n yes the story is about the mayfair witches with their spirits
the knocking wasnt that loud n maybe the rain n wind were playing some part as well
so it wasnt loud enough for me to believe someone is at the door
the knocking occured for several days n i kept thinking
maybe im imagining things so i let it be
but on the weekend i was sleeping n was startled awake by the noise
i was startled which means i wasnt thinking straight n just ran down the stairs
directly to the front door
n there stood my senior an intern all smiling bcos
at last!! someone open the door for her hahaha
n me the sleepyhead was told it was her n not my imagination that's being
pounding the front door - that's what it took for me to hear her finally

haha terase lawak pulak
but anyway iqbal's here in galway
im currently using his old laptop
bcos mine is out of battery n the charger is not working bcos
the wire finally snapped putus n i couldnt do anything to sambungkn balik
n just too lazy to get out of my cozy room to buy another one
so im buying that charger in msia la nampaknya :)
i havent pack
dont think i'll b bringing much with me anyway ;)

the 1st photo is the bottom one so the 1st on the list is actually the last photo ok
shouldnt b explaining that but i dont have anything to say pun so yes y not

one of our friends put out her wedding invitation card on the fb
the date is on 2nd of august
i've never been to any of my friends' wedding
my place is just too far from everyone else
n even if i took a flight over
the airport is still like 2 or more hours from my house
it might be easier when my dad is still around
bcos he always available to drive us anywhere we want
but seems everything is different now
the only person who can pick us up from the airport is my mum
n she's working till after 3 at least
it's very rare to see her at the house before 3
sometimes i thought maybe i should just take kereta sewa to go back home
but honestly i dont have enough trust in me on them
n not to mention i dont even know the way they drive
i might die of heart atck b4 i reach home who knows haha
so i guess i wont b able to go this one either

kawan2 semua,

SYE SUDAH BELI TIKET!!!!!!!!! :D

finally beli jugak
setelah pening kepala beberape hari hehe
but anyway its on 29th of july from shannon
but will have to take the earliest bus from
galway station around 3 in the morning

n thank you aman! = card dia :D

im stuffing myself with 2 large sizzler pizzas this weekend
was planning to go out during the day n find some stuff for
cooking but it turned out raining

i was blog-hopping this week :D
n yes found some interesting blogs acting as online shops
the items seem pretty goods-in photos
but they got good reviews too so maybe they really are good
but anyhow i couldnt stop wondering how/where they get their hands on the goods
my sister went to bandung n just arrived home yesterday
she brought back several pieces of kebaya with embroidery
from the description they are quite similar to those i saw online
n the price are pretty much the same-well can only b applied to several blogs though
so yes b careful if u want to buy stuff online ye :)

i came across a blog selling baju kurung/kebaya etc
but the price is a little off
i know how much it cost for like thai silk-they came from thai
so a little cheaper i guess or is it because my place
is close to the border that i get them cheaper??
anyway, the price look ridicilously
high for that type of kain-mind u they can b thrown
into a washing machine to make life easier for u
but maybe they are charging for their skills in making the kain into a baju kot

i believe i've committed a crime today
thus i have to study tomorrow!! hahahah

i no longer have the drive to attend any tutorial, wr, or anything else related to hospital!!!!
gah i wanna go home or maybe just away from galway for a little while
sometimes it feels like i'm all drained n exhausted
summer is tooooo hot when u r in the clinic or running around in the wards
n it's hard n frustrating when u cant say that to real people
without getting mock-yes then why r u here doing attachment? that sort of words u know

rasenya ayat2 biase pun bley buat org kecik hati
kalo sket2 tkpe la maybe sye tk kisah
tp kalo byk kali
then maybe bley meletup n lari je dr kamu, mau ke??
ke itu point nya?hmmm

hari ni rase pnjg nyaaaaa
apsal tk mlm2 lg ni???
penat dh tgk matahari sinar2 tu
nasib baik clinic sampai tgh hari je
kalo tk mau pengsan dlm clinic yg panas tu

oh kitaorg bli tiket ke paris 12/6 ni hehe
haaih pandai btul, mesti hangus ble balik dr paris tu nnt
rase nya ni kali ketiga g sane
tkpe la skali skala manje kn diri kekeke
n yes someone reminded me that
i didnt get anything for myself on my birthday
so bley la ni as a gift for myself :D
nnt pg with aman, qama, rafiq, intan n farah
hopefully the weather will stay as bright as this
ye la then baru puas jln2
tp sye mau tgk eiffel time mlm jugak
n now mlm start around kul 10 hmmmm

ye kami pegi dock lg for the second time hehe
why???
sbb these prawnies were calling us haha

take a look at the size of prawnies ni
BESAR!! n sedap, really :D
i wasnt really interested in eating those at first
but once i took a bite, tok le berenti lak
nasib baik line tuk bli tu pnjg
kalo tak maybe kami bli lg :)

we went to our classmates' bbq lps tu
not all people were invited though
n just b4 we reached the house
we bumped into one of those yg tk dijemput

tp dsbbkn we didnt know at that time yg only certain people were invited
like usual, we said hi n tanye mane umah bbq tu
her face changed!n demanded to know whose bbq we were referring
we knew it then-dia tk tau rupenya
feel like lari je dr situ hahha
semua pun cam dh glabah sket-ape nk jawab nih hahah

n yes all the meat were not halal so we made a 2nd trip to town
to charcoal lak :D
ye cuti is for mkn + jln2 + shopping + tido
but unfortunately it's too hot to b sleeping in this summer :(
sye mau kipas angin!!! :(

i got a text msg from mummy pg td
wish happy birthday
tp silap ari plak
mummy lupe ingtkn dh 27/05 kt sini
tp dia kate tkpe la dia jd org first wish
though silap hari haha

hari ni seperti slalu, hujan
Volvo race dlm hujan la maksudnya haha
tk tau volvo race??
sile google sdiri :p

skarang sudah lapar grgrgrg
tp dapur rase cam jauh sgt sgt
coco pops hampir habis
ayam lupe lak nk kuarkn pg ni
mkn ayam kashmir ptg ni saje la :D
tp lambatnya nk pukul 730
rase macam puase pulak heh

called mummy
katenya semua kna ade tuk tnh/whatever nya urusan
hmm but i wont b there till at least august
harap2 bley kasi duit je dkt kakak itu
umah mesti sepi saje pagi2
slalunya abah ade kejut kn semua org yg tk pegi skolah heh
skarang pg2 mesti tkde nasi bungkus or kuih2 atas meja dh
mummy ckp
ptg2 mesti burung2 yg abah used to bela pulang
mkn2/main2 dpn laman umah
cari tuannya agaknya
sian burung2 tu
kucing2 pun mesti tkde org kasi mknn
kesian diaorg

nabilah dh sampai india
dh jumpe si zola (tk tau eja)
tp budak tu buat bodo je katenya
nk aja cari dlm friendster mane satu si zola tu
tkpe la people can do/say whatever they want
cume baik tidak je
tp susah jugak kalo diaorg salah interpret mane baik mane salah haha

farah yg hampir jatuh ke dlm air sungai

oops ade doggy berenang
now that reminds me-when did i celup tgn dlm air itu?
selepas anjing itu lalu ke sebelum??mmmm

sasaran si doggy = swan
tp swan tu mengelak sket so tk kna tangkap hehe

text or msgs
we tend to read with emotion r we not?
am i the only weird person to put emotion in those words?
i'll usually imagine how the person
was like when she/he sends me text/msg

wouldnt it b nice if the sun is out shining n we have our cup ice cream with us?
maybe tomorrow will b better?or not? :p

abah passed away on 3rd of may at 3 pm
but thank God everything went smoothly
here n at home
mum was so sad as does all of us
my sister in india took a flight on monday morning
i wish i could do the same thing but
i couldnt change anything
it was hard at first to digest the news
but when i rethink
mum was by his side for the whole week
accompanying him
she was practically staying in the same ward
taking care of him till the last moment
telling him to say Allah n all,
he did not suffer for a long time
n we talked to him on phone almost every
day when he was in the hosp,
looking back at his life i believe
he did what he needed to do
his life was pretty much completed
seeing us all grown up with
my sister giving him a couple of grandchildren,
retiring from his work as a teacher
gave him more time for himself n the family,
these past few years
he was able to go to masjid or staying up late for tahlil at other people's house
im very much proud that he's like that
i remembered he'll bring home some kuih from the majlis he joined
his tahlil/quran group 'll probably missed him too
as we do now
but the time has come for us to let him go
n yes the only thing we can do is to remember him in our prayers n bacakn yaasin for him
n thank you everyone for all the things u've helped us with :)

urgh we have to re-sit paeds slide!
the paeds-photos book in the library is no longer there
waa sape la yg gatal mulut pg bgtau deprtmnt nih?!?!

the result is out!!
10 to 12 in the afternoon!!!ggrgrgr
but Alhamdulillah :D hehe

i had my books opened n ready to b read but all i could think of
is my paeds osce, so now bley concentrate :D well hopefully la kn
i need to call my mum 1st ;)

my dad is in the hospital for an operation
instead of today-it's been postponed to tomorrow
mum sounds a bit worried initially while i was on phone with her
but she's alright now i think
it's not that big of an operation
but it is for him n my mother
i can sense the doubt in his voice n i knew
he would opt for not going through with it if not for my mother
hehe
today-he saw some of the med students in the hospital
he said one of them look like me
n the night b4 that he asked me again
if im really not going back for summer
i told him no
but listening to him n my mother
maybe i should go home instead of staying