omg hari ni i dont know why
tp penat nya!!!
during the last tutorial-i was standing against the door
trying to rest my back
been standing since morning in the ward round, the clinic
then the theatre+hx pre-op jugak
met ayesha when the theatre was done
n decided to follow her for the ortho tutorial
usually i'll get a signal from my grumbling tummy that i need to sit down
at least for a snack b4 continue with anything else later in the day
tp hari ni perut tk bunyik pulak haha
oh they used leeches today!!!for haematoma dlm flap!
1 leech = 5 euro! but they killed them afterwards by pouring some alcohol, poor thing

today my dr in the team
spoke

spanish
french un petite peu
n earlier in the week
he spoke gaelic!!!!

so he knew at least 4 languages!

hehe dah tgk 500 days of summer
at the end that guy met another girl
but this time her name is autumn hahahah
oh it'll b good if someone can come n SERIUOSLY say
i want to marry u
tp that someone mesti la has a good background
n yeah dont think people wont go n check up on u
if u gave some reference
reverse psychology might not work here
people just might do what u said ok ;p

omg i just realised my number of entries has slopped down compared to years back!
anyway this is a way to naik kan a bit hahahha

oh that's not the main point for this entry
true blood=yes i tried several times to watch it in astro at home
but the kids were getting in the way
so i ended with either changing the channel when they were watching along
or shooed them away
ye la there were scenes which are not appropriate for their age
anyhow, farah n rafiq have the buku crite
but i still want my vampire to remain as what anne rice describe
im not yet ready to put shape shifter in the same story
well though lestat met several weird creatures or went to hell or other weird places
but yes i want them to remain as what the movie interview with the vampire portrayed them as, maybe when im trully done with the chronicles that i'll start looking for different version of vampire ;)

regarding my last entry
it's true we cant control our feelings but
people differ in a way that some may b able to let go quickly n some just get stuck thinking of the same thing all the time
should i say im fortunate@unfortunate, that im the former??? haha
so yes i'll let go when i want to n yes i wont turn back
saye rase as if i dont have attachment to someone/thing hmmm

susah jugak bile senang kecik hati...
tp, hati bukannya boleh di control2...
mungkin, avoidance is the best

ok now this is really going on n on in my head



finally got my case!!
the reg went looking for us in the ct room this after noon
bcos he wont b here tomorrow
he went through the history n also the most important part of all
the ct/us/xray etc baik btul hehe :D

oh my attachment is a mess la
asl la bk sgt benda nya ni.................

usually ade someone yg we can always turn around n talk to
bcos of the closeness we tend to have stronger
feeling to whatever their reactions r towards smthg
concerning us@maybe everything
but we r not mind readers so we cannot tell what they r thinking or feeling n im afraid there will always b a guilty feeling when they didnt respond as what
we expect they would to smthg we did/ask/tell them etc
the hardest thing is actually when it happened n we didnt say anything @they didnt tell us anything
but the silent hurts

dejected

i've been home close to two weeks now
with no one else other than my mum who can drive
i've to finally put into usage my driving license n my
long forgotten driving lessons
so my day starts as early as those school kids
i have to send my little sister to her school which is just
a few minutes from our house
n if my mum is a bit late for the day, i'll have to send
the other two sisters of mine to their school as well
then i have to drive back home to pick up dayana n
send her to her driving class
haha i actually finding myself enjoying driving
n my mum doesnt care if i want to drive her vios
instead of my dad's sentra even though i just
mustered my courage to finally drive on the second day i arrived home
i actually never drive b4 other than during the actual driving classes keke
n its actually a wonder my mum even told me to use her car if i so wanted to
n guess what she said ok when i jokingly said i want
to drive in ireland if i ever got the chance to ;)

i wish i could go roaming all the secondhand bookshops n
buy all the mayfair witches books by anne rice right this moment!!!
the witching hour left me craving for more
i want to know what happen with the newborn lasher
n what exactly is taltos
sometimes the story gets entwined with vampire chronicles which makes
the more reason for me to read all the rest of the vampire chronicle
there's still several books from the vampire chronicle which i
couldnt get my hands on them bcos it's kinda hard to get them here
n i dont think i ever found them if not in secondhand bookshops
gah if only i have time for that
the truth is the books were there in front of me all the time
covered by dust in most of the time, on the shelves in my room
i bought them when i came across anne rice whenever i visited the secondhand
bookshop but time is the only thing which is not quite enough i would say
for us medical students-or maybe me bcos i cant read (buku crite only hehe) without
forgetting the rest of the world
guess what happened the other day?
i heard knocking on the front door several times past few days
but i was reading the witching our at that time
n yes the story is about the mayfair witches with their spirits
the knocking wasnt that loud n maybe the rain n wind were playing some part as well
so it wasnt loud enough for me to believe someone is at the door
the knocking occured for several days n i kept thinking
maybe im imagining things so i let it be
but on the weekend i was sleeping n was startled awake by the noise
i was startled which means i wasnt thinking straight n just ran down the stairs
directly to the front door
n there stood my senior an intern all smiling bcos
at last!! someone open the door for her hahaha
n me the sleepyhead was told it was her n not my imagination that's being
pounding the front door - that's what it took for me to hear her finally

haha terase lawak pulak
but anyway iqbal's here in galway
im currently using his old laptop
bcos mine is out of battery n the charger is not working bcos
the wire finally snapped putus n i couldnt do anything to sambungkn balik
n just too lazy to get out of my cozy room to buy another one
so im buying that charger in msia la nampaknya :)
i havent pack
dont think i'll b bringing much with me anyway ;)

the 1st photo is the bottom one so the 1st on the list is actually the last photo ok
shouldnt b explaining that but i dont have anything to say pun so yes y not

one of our friends put out her wedding invitation card on the fb
the date is on 2nd of august
i've never been to any of my friends' wedding
my place is just too far from everyone else
n even if i took a flight over
the airport is still like 2 or more hours from my house
it might be easier when my dad is still around
bcos he always available to drive us anywhere we want
but seems everything is different now
the only person who can pick us up from the airport is my mum
n she's working till after 3 at least
it's very rare to see her at the house before 3
sometimes i thought maybe i should just take kereta sewa to go back home
but honestly i dont have enough trust in me on them
n not to mention i dont even know the way they drive
i might die of heart atck b4 i reach home who knows haha
so i guess i wont b able to go this one either

kawan2 semua,

SYE SUDAH BELI TIKET!!!!!!!!! :D

finally beli jugak
setelah pening kepala beberape hari hehe
but anyway its on 29th of july from shannon
but will have to take the earliest bus from
galway station around 3 in the morning

n thank you aman! = card dia :D

im stuffing myself with 2 large sizzler pizzas this weekend
was planning to go out during the day n find some stuff for
cooking but it turned out raining

i was blog-hopping this week :D
n yes found some interesting blogs acting as online shops
the items seem pretty goods-in photos
but they got good reviews too so maybe they really are good
but anyhow i couldnt stop wondering how/where they get their hands on the goods
my sister went to bandung n just arrived home yesterday
she brought back several pieces of kebaya with embroidery
from the description they are quite similar to those i saw online
n the price are pretty much the same-well can only b applied to several blogs though
so yes b careful if u want to buy stuff online ye :)

i came across a blog selling baju kurung/kebaya etc
but the price is a little off
i know how much it cost for like thai silk-they came from thai
so a little cheaper i guess or is it because my place
is close to the border that i get them cheaper??
anyway, the price look ridicilously
high for that type of kain-mind u they can b thrown
into a washing machine to make life easier for u
but maybe they are charging for their skills in making the kain into a baju kot

i believe i've committed a crime today
thus i have to study tomorrow!! hahahah

i no longer have the drive to attend any tutorial, wr, or anything else related to hospital!!!!
gah i wanna go home or maybe just away from galway for a little while
sometimes it feels like i'm all drained n exhausted
summer is tooooo hot when u r in the clinic or running around in the wards
n it's hard n frustrating when u cant say that to real people
without getting mock-yes then why r u here doing attachment? that sort of words u know

rasenya ayat2 biase pun bley buat org kecik hati
kalo sket2 tkpe la maybe sye tk kisah
tp kalo byk kali
then maybe bley meletup n lari je dr kamu, mau ke??
ke itu point nya?hmmm

hari ni rase pnjg nyaaaaa
apsal tk mlm2 lg ni???
penat dh tgk matahari sinar2 tu
nasib baik clinic sampai tgh hari je
kalo tk mau pengsan dlm clinic yg panas tu

oh kitaorg bli tiket ke paris 12/6 ni hehe
haaih pandai btul, mesti hangus ble balik dr paris tu nnt
rase nya ni kali ketiga g sane
tkpe la skali skala manje kn diri kekeke
n yes someone reminded me that
i didnt get anything for myself on my birthday
so bley la ni as a gift for myself :D
nnt pg with aman, qama, rafiq, intan n farah
hopefully the weather will stay as bright as this
ye la then baru puas jln2
tp sye mau tgk eiffel time mlm jugak
n now mlm start around kul 10 hmmmm