i guess i was just tired n i've recovered
last night we stayed for 2 movies
st trinian's n i am legend
i told my mum y i was angry the last time
hopefully she understand

the phone is next to me
but considering it's hols n morning in msia
i'd b a bother if i called
but this winter is making me depress
i need to talk to someone
im a bit tired of keeping a smiling face all the time
though im nt that happy
i feel like im not being true to everyone
i feel angered but dont know the reasons
i hate rain

1-golden compass was great though i think the little girl's acting a bit out of character i mean doesnt seem like a little girl ways of doing things, it would b understandable if she's acting as a teenager but she's only someone in primary school-like-age in that movie,but overall putting aside the age it's great :)

2-some private number has been calling me for the 3rd time now,or is it the second time, but the first time i wasnt aware of it so i didnt pick it up,but tonight it was as if the person mistakenly pressed my number,bcos if i'm correct the sound in the background was as if someone's walking n the mobile is in the pocket.the weird thing is this person somehow realize it n turned it off,but the background was still of that walking sound, how could he/she knew the mobile is calling me if she/he didnt fish it out from the pocket right??i was sleepng at that time-so yeah a bit annoyed at first since it's so hard to fall asleep this few days bcos of some unknown reason,so every little time that i think i might b able to sleep is precious haha :D

3-some people keep giving me comments of which i found utterly opposite of the person or what their page picturing them,n yeah i have to keep deleting those comments,if this continue i should just totally block them from accessing my fs or ym gah what's wrong with these people,try to b normal for once!!!grgrrgr

haha why am i awake in the middle of the night??!?!posting entry at this time 0340 gah cant sleep!!
1-'ll b meeting prof my tutor tomorrow for like 5 minutes=according to time allocated for each student haha 5 minutes i bet that would b just the time taken to get into the room, take a seat listen to whatever sarcastic remarks of his for the day n that's it haha plus he sort of done with commenting during our last tutorial session so there shouldnt b much to say for tomorrow n he has diabetic clinic too on the day so he wont b spending much time on us
2-oh the bacte is over!!!the mcq part that is hahaha hopefully the result'll b ok not like some other subject so stupid even the average class mark is below fail level wahaha really is it bcos we didnt spend time reading or is it bcos the questions were from some 8 gold medals award winner??which is it??anyhow bacte was alright i think, thank god they have it as the 1st mcq for the day if not the other 2 med+surg 'll definitely ruin the mood :)
3-i need to check wheather in turkey,get some turkey currency from the bank, n yeah need to finish up with the surg report as well as the questionnaire for the med info thingy

err i did it again!!we'll see after 14-17 days yippee!!! hopefully my card wont be tendang by that site, but well if it did it doesnt matter omg i think i really am going crazy suddenly deciding to buy that bag,though i need the money to spend in turkey,turkey???yeah turkey we r gonna go there for winter,pls pls make the bag arrived b4 my flight but that's kinda impossible hmmph anyhow i adressed it to the mail service center,as usual la kan hehe :D
oh this evening we had a little chat making all the sweet memories coming flooding my mind again, sometimes i really want to go back to that time,when we were little n know nothing other than playing around the small little world that is my house of course n yeah my gramps kampung as well, maybe bcos of our uncle, he's not much different in age then we r, my brothers n me ,bilah wouldnt b joing us as we were super hyperactive hahhah ye la when i think again i couldnt recall having bilah in the frame,she's asthmatic so sometime she was sort of grounded eventhough during the time when were in our gramps, i remembered following those two nakal boys catching some little fish living in the low area which if it happened to rain the area will trap some water from the nearby river n some fish will b there too-we really didnt listen to what the elders said haha the fact that there r still some crocodile in the nearby river didnt even budge the three of us, the place was very close,it was under the bridge yeah near the crocodile residing river or maybe they didnt know what exactly we were doing in that close proximity, but nothing bad happen heh i havent been to that river for so long, it's actually connected to the one near my own house in trg side,so u can imagine what sort of big river it is, we wouldnt b able to see if the crocodile come around behind us n i heard there r white croc in the river but i havent seen it with my own eyes n they eat the monkey or some unfortunate goat/cows etc, kinda scary haha oh the other thing that i couldnt stop smiling reminiscing is when we went cycling around the sawmill area, there's this area filled with dust coming from the sawmill, the amount is so much that it made me think of it as a hill haha so silly,n there'll b small creek around the area when the rain pour, my brother used to catch n brought back the poor fishes home, guess what he did to them??he threw them into the well in front n at the back of the house bcos i think at that time-i was there as well, bilah too i think, we were playing around the area when we saw the creak n some fish, but the water was nearly drained so that's why my brother came out with that idea : ) our mum didnt say anything about the fish we brought back in a plastic bag but they died some years ago,bcos of old age kot but at least they didnt died at the small creek way back right : )

somehow eventhough im still tossing on my bed couldnt bring my eyes to shut closed (err for the night i mean) im no longer feel stupid hahah :p yeah i have my eyes fixated on this screen reading that torture related stuff on human right,god seems to shed some light on me :D

1-i feel stupid.... what else do i have to dig up to make me feel better????aaaa human rights is killing me-damn torture!! :(

2-someone pls remind me - to go n check my balance in the boi,yes the lump sum!!! hehe :D

initially i just wanted to read smthg else other than torture which im a bit doubtful whether or not to continue as one of my target q but anyway-yeah been surfing the net n d/loaded some manga which i thought might de-stress my mind from the torturer thingy in that human rights, it did start as a funny one making me laugh while reading several parts of it but in the middle it started to make me feel depressed seeing the main charact. being bully by the supposed to b the good bf n the sudden realization that their feeling might actually not b true since someone from the bf household messed up with the main charact. mind making a bit of mess in their rltnship, unfortunately i couldnt stop in the middle of the story bcos i want my perfect couple to have a happy ending!wargh maybe i should read up the summary for the manga b4 deciding to plunge myself into it hoping to find some happy ending story-heh it is a happy ending story but a bit twisted which made me read it twice just to make sure it is really a happy ending :D hahaha

a break fr hemato : )

Temperament

Idealist

You are the quintessential dreamer - spending more time thinking about the possibilities that the world holds for you, rather than your reality. You don't settle for anything less than what you truly desire and you work very hard. You tend to live in every place except the present - you are prone to daydreaming about the future and re-thinking the choices you made in the past. Sometimes you get overly caught up in your thoughts.

Interests

Thrill Seeker

You are interested in anything that is exciting and pleasurable. You're not afraid to indulge yourself - you live by your own set of rules and don't allow yourself to get hung on what others think. For the most part, you are independent and do whatever you please to do. Trying to stop you from doing something only makes you want it even more. At the end of the day - you live for life's most thrilling moments.

Amusement

Adventurous

It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.

Passion

Physical

You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

emm human right is a bit problematic....

sorry guys i really bad at adjusting photos in this blogspot
so u can see how randomly arraged they r hahaa

done with brussels thingy!!
here some lagu i got from my frs page,i know it's an old song but~ : )

1-err i do think i did smthg wrong not that it's unacceptable but the person probably still think im the old me,yes i believe im much different now :D sorry for not meeting ur expectation but people change especially when years have passed : )

2-oh im gonna go check flight tickets + hstel

3-n yeah i cant believe im hearing all this sarcasm from mostly everyone around me-u probably dont know what im thinking hehe :D

4-need to go see my patient tomorrow : )

i'm back from cork!!tiring but definitely worth it-wasnt really planning to go it was just a sudden decision n there we went,it feels so fast-the time flies i mean,feel like we were just there chatting with hana n her h/mates playing some games which i was really not good at hahaha all along we found ourselves laughing of each other as those who managed to grasp the pattern much more earlier making fun of others who were still strugling thinking what type of pattern it is, obviously i was the last one to know the pattern omg i admit i was so slow hahaha nevermind it was just a game anyway :D but yeah we will play that game again when we have some free time - with people in galway plak : ) :D hehe
oh thanks for the hospitality girls : ) esp. hana+yusma+feesha+gg+ilya & nurul n h/mates : )

they put king tut on display!
yes seriously they have that boy in some climate controlled case instead of his sarcophagus so now we can all see his face,well not that it's still have meat on it but this is kinda different from other mummy since i think they r normally put in some museum,but king tut is on display in his tomb in luxor the valley of the kings!
ugh do i sound weird to u?? :p haha

went out with intan but she managed to rein in her shopping desire so yes im the only spendthrift today ugh maybe i should
1-try forgetting my purse when going out
or
2-maybe some guy can help(as if u know what i mean :p haha)=bcos intan has someone reminding her what's important n whatnot not that i/we cant differentiate between those two but yeah i think sometimes some encouraging/reminding words will make us more aware of what we r doing whether it's smthg really need to b done or not like shopping/window shopping/online shopping haha

oh we went eating at rafiq+jawa+nasrul+aiyad 's place in the afternoon
i didnt see any cameraman in the house so no photos from the mkn2 n im actually too lazy to put up another raye related photos-seems like raye is endless here hehe but the good thing is at least i dont have to cook for the weekend :D

hmm i want to call home again....

err i think law got cancelled
well we were suppose to stay for it after ethic but the level of sleepiness was too high thus we rushed back home in case the lecturer got into the hall but we actually bumped into her outside csi main entrance oopss i think i heard her asking smthg like r u ditching the class?? wahahah she remember the faces apparently but now knowing she cancelled it just bcos not enough people stayed back kinda make me feel guilty,she was a little bit rushing herself at that time but yeah i really though she would just make do with that but seems like im wrong hmmmph...

just have to post this up
the vid quality isnt that good but rain was being cute :D
not to mention one of the dj who keep eating throughout the vid haha it's just plain funny seeing their action,i dont really listen to rain his style of music isnt really within the range of my liking but this one is a bit different n maybe bcos there wasnt much dance steps he normally would do in one vid n yeah couldnt really stand his im-cute-face haha thats y i listen to se7en

oh finished the patho mcq
then stayed for ethic which is still have me wondering the main point of the lect?!?!?hahah but i remember his 'bizarre' eg of situation,imagine >80% of people developed spring like legs due to genetically modified foods n thus stairs r not build in the hospital,to get to the second floor u need the pair of spring legs n unfortunately u r among the 20% people who dont have them,basically he's trying to make u realize the feeling of disable people in their daily lives with the surrounding r full with utilities for normal people eh i remember his teaching!!haha :D