i need help
can we have an open session again?

yay my kari ikan is coming!!! heehehe
omg asyik pikir mkn je ni
study group pun mkn
sblum g study group pun mkn
time tido je tokle mkn
haaih gemuk jugak la camni kakaka

tp dh lame out of kari ikan nya stock so rindu la :D

avatar was brilliant!
well in terms of the plot it wasnt that complicated
but i enjoy it as this might be the only several movies
with the ending that i like haha
n yeah love the colourful world they have in that pandora
even the people are made purple in colour

oh havent fnished uploading the photos from munich/salzburg
so many to pick from
bcos my laptop is old n couldnt use the easier way of uploading photos
the one with the java application
if i tried it'll take 30min for 20 photos
to try to upload
n i dont have to wait to see, in the end it'll say
failure to upload
so might as well use the old version of uploading

u know everyone is talking about kawen!!!
why?!?!?!?!??!!!!!
can we just finish off this med school n not think about it 1st?
i wish im one of the lucky ones toooooooo haha
blerggh ape2 la
ye someone told me
takpe tunggu je
kakaka ok fine aku tunggu je la
hopefully by the end of the med school someone will come
n propose haha
ok tk nk merepek dah :p

i have lotssssssss to write in here
tp my fingers r growing numbbbbbb
n i forgot where i threw my fingerless gloves
-at least some part of the fingers r still protected from this coldness
speaking of that-galway is freezing
the frost is everywhere!!!
n today the sun wasnt that much of a help
it's there but the warmth couldnt b felt at all
our backyard is still frozen even when now is 2.38 pm already
how r we suppose to go to letterkenny in january?!?!
i can imagine how cold it would b
n what's gonna happen with our plan for giant causeway???
urgh i've been here nearly 6 yrs n havent set foot there
pls dont b so freezing cold nnt!

oh btw im still waiting for jawe to upload gamba2 kawen kakaknya
manenya ni????

ok ade lagu best baru ;) hehe



rossa ni skali tgk cam siti pun ade
tk ke??

i admit
i am a bit impatient ;)
:D

oh safe trip everyone!!!

n c U in a week time :)

sye rindu kah?????
come talk to me pls..... :(

urgh ade org bgtau @ remind me
of 'no such thing as hati baik but pakaian tk baik/seksi sket'
nk tergelak pun ade
sbb truthfully she was talking about someone else
unfortunately terkena batang hidung lak haha
anyway mmg ade blaja dlu2
ape maksudnya menutup aurat
u know kain tk nmpk kaler kulit
n tutup area mane2 tu n longgar sket,
tp somehow those few lessons r
fading-maybe a bit fast from my brain
bagus la for u to remind me-tp i know u dont read my blog
so u wont know im saying thanks for u here haha
ye i'll try to b perfect in ur eyes k ;)

omg hari ni i dont know why
tp penat nya!!!
during the last tutorial-i was standing against the door
trying to rest my back
been standing since morning in the ward round, the clinic
then the theatre+hx pre-op jugak
met ayesha when the theatre was done
n decided to follow her for the ortho tutorial
usually i'll get a signal from my grumbling tummy that i need to sit down
at least for a snack b4 continue with anything else later in the day
tp hari ni perut tk bunyik pulak haha
oh they used leeches today!!!for haematoma dlm flap!
1 leech = 5 euro! but they killed them afterwards by pouring some alcohol, poor thing

today my dr in the team
spoke

spanish
french un petite peu
n earlier in the week
he spoke gaelic!!!!

so he knew at least 4 languages!

hehe dah tgk 500 days of summer
at the end that guy met another girl
but this time her name is autumn hahahah
oh it'll b good if someone can come n SERIUOSLY say
i want to marry u
tp that someone mesti la has a good background
n yeah dont think people wont go n check up on u
if u gave some reference
reverse psychology might not work here
people just might do what u said ok ;p

omg i just realised my number of entries has slopped down compared to years back!
anyway this is a way to naik kan a bit hahahha

oh that's not the main point for this entry
true blood=yes i tried several times to watch it in astro at home
but the kids were getting in the way
so i ended with either changing the channel when they were watching along
or shooed them away
ye la there were scenes which are not appropriate for their age
anyhow, farah n rafiq have the buku crite
but i still want my vampire to remain as what anne rice describe
im not yet ready to put shape shifter in the same story
well though lestat met several weird creatures or went to hell or other weird places
but yes i want them to remain as what the movie interview with the vampire portrayed them as, maybe when im trully done with the chronicles that i'll start looking for different version of vampire ;)

regarding my last entry
it's true we cant control our feelings but
people differ in a way that some may b able to let go quickly n some just get stuck thinking of the same thing all the time
should i say im fortunate@unfortunate, that im the former??? haha
so yes i'll let go when i want to n yes i wont turn back
saye rase as if i dont have attachment to someone/thing hmmm

susah jugak bile senang kecik hati...
tp, hati bukannya boleh di control2...
mungkin, avoidance is the best

ok now this is really going on n on in my head



finally got my case!!
the reg went looking for us in the ct room this after noon
bcos he wont b here tomorrow
he went through the history n also the most important part of all
the ct/us/xray etc baik btul hehe :D

oh my attachment is a mess la
asl la bk sgt benda nya ni.................

usually ade someone yg we can always turn around n talk to
bcos of the closeness we tend to have stronger
feeling to whatever their reactions r towards smthg
concerning us@maybe everything
but we r not mind readers so we cannot tell what they r thinking or feeling n im afraid there will always b a guilty feeling when they didnt respond as what
we expect they would to smthg we did/ask/tell them etc
the hardest thing is actually when it happened n we didnt say anything @they didnt tell us anything
but the silent hurts

dejected

i've been home close to two weeks now
with no one else other than my mum who can drive
i've to finally put into usage my driving license n my
long forgotten driving lessons
so my day starts as early as those school kids
i have to send my little sister to her school which is just
a few minutes from our house
n if my mum is a bit late for the day, i'll have to send
the other two sisters of mine to their school as well
then i have to drive back home to pick up dayana n
send her to her driving class
haha i actually finding myself enjoying driving
n my mum doesnt care if i want to drive her vios
instead of my dad's sentra even though i just
mustered my courage to finally drive on the second day i arrived home
i actually never drive b4 other than during the actual driving classes keke
n its actually a wonder my mum even told me to use her car if i so wanted to
n guess what she said ok when i jokingly said i want
to drive in ireland if i ever got the chance to ;)

i wish i could go roaming all the secondhand bookshops n
buy all the mayfair witches books by anne rice right this moment!!!
the witching hour left me craving for more
i want to know what happen with the newborn lasher
n what exactly is taltos
sometimes the story gets entwined with vampire chronicles which makes
the more reason for me to read all the rest of the vampire chronicle
there's still several books from the vampire chronicle which i
couldnt get my hands on them bcos it's kinda hard to get them here
n i dont think i ever found them if not in secondhand bookshops
gah if only i have time for that
the truth is the books were there in front of me all the time
covered by dust in most of the time, on the shelves in my room
i bought them when i came across anne rice whenever i visited the secondhand
bookshop but time is the only thing which is not quite enough i would say
for us medical students-or maybe me bcos i cant read (buku crite only hehe) without
forgetting the rest of the world
guess what happened the other day?
i heard knocking on the front door several times past few days
but i was reading the witching our at that time
n yes the story is about the mayfair witches with their spirits
the knocking wasnt that loud n maybe the rain n wind were playing some part as well
so it wasnt loud enough for me to believe someone is at the door
the knocking occured for several days n i kept thinking
maybe im imagining things so i let it be
but on the weekend i was sleeping n was startled awake by the noise
i was startled which means i wasnt thinking straight n just ran down the stairs
directly to the front door
n there stood my senior an intern all smiling bcos
at last!! someone open the door for her hahaha
n me the sleepyhead was told it was her n not my imagination that's being
pounding the front door - that's what it took for me to hear her finally

haha terase lawak pulak
but anyway iqbal's here in galway
im currently using his old laptop
bcos mine is out of battery n the charger is not working bcos
the wire finally snapped putus n i couldnt do anything to sambungkn balik
n just too lazy to get out of my cozy room to buy another one
so im buying that charger in msia la nampaknya :)
i havent pack
dont think i'll b bringing much with me anyway ;)