missing everyone
i feel so empty inside
tkde kawan :(

mr. fiance tq for bringing me my new altis!! :)

i miss those days when we sat together in the pc suite
looking for our next destination for the holidays
googling map to make sure we use the chance to visit any city/town possible that are close proximity to each other, within our limited time and money
i miss the different weather the places have eventhough they are next to each other
i miss experiencing the foods
the people who will usually stare at us because we looks different with our head covers
i miss the feeling of anticipation in each and every travel we had in those days
at the end of the day, im glad i''ve spent my time in europe travelling around at least i dont regret studying there for 6 years
we have photos and those sweet memories in our mind to be recalled when we are able to sit together again :)

im contented for now :)
thanks to everyone who attended the ceremony
it was all smooth
n we have decided on the date for the big day
currently there are still a few things to be bought
a few more stuff to be arranged
and pls patiently wait for the card ye :)
oh i'll msg/text for address later :)

nape nk kna ade pimple time2 camni???
knape knape knape????????

urgh rase cam tk buat ape2 pun tuk majlis tu lol
cam balik tuk majlis org lain lak hahahha
ye la sape suh takmo tuka oncall ngan zairi?
padan muke sdiri
neway cepat sgt ke?????hmmmm

i said i want an accord this yr right????
ok i wanted an accord but seems impossible with my spending habit hahahhaha
plus im putting aside some money for future occasion
so my mummy booked an altis instead
insyaAllah i'll get the car by the end of april :D

alone, hungry and lonely :( :( :(
can it became worse than that????

viva for medical posting dah lepas!!!!
that left me another 9 days in medical!
with few more days of oncall and 1 week to settle my logbook
:D :D

im so relieved when my boss announced that i pass my viva
n am looking forward for surgery :D

lamenya tk tulis anything in this blog
i've been busy as expected from medical posting
but it has been enjoyable
eventhough i have to admit it is tiring and very busy
im still handling female ward
which in my opinion is a bit more complicated then male ward
male ward usually came with straight forward kind of cases
unlike female who always always presented with complex history
they say yes they have problem with every single systems of their body
so nk buat ape????tx every single system ke?
huh
nway
my car bumper was hit from behind by my own hospital pharmacist houseman's car
i'll have my relative to fix it for me tomorrow while im oncall
n then i'll be going to KT to see my *ehem2*!!
no la, im going to KT for dengue course
but yes will find time to see him :D

it has been hectic for the past two days
n im oncall again tomorrow
of which i feel so unhappy about it
my feet need massage so badly
i dont feel like standing fr ward round
for blood taking etc etc
we got this two patients who always require branula
the lifetime of their branula is usually one day only
n u have to poke them at difficult small vessel each day
one has ESRF so yes difficulty difficult small line,her hand is so small
it looks like my sister's when she was in standard three or two
the other one has post-cva epilepsy
u might accidentally lost/bump the line if she so happen having fits
while u were doing the line gah
im tired......

woke up from the wrong side of the bed today
i burnt a hole on my beautiful kurung batik while ironing it this morning
this is the first time this kind of thing happen
but why does it have to be my batik?!??!?! :( :( :(
dah la mahal, n it was my most beautiful batik ugh :(
i hardly wear it bcos im afraid its thin material may not tolerate my work in the ward
waaa sedihnya :(
tp nasib baik not my crepe batik heh

ok that was written 2 days ago
so today, went to work in the morning to find out
work round was already done by the MO
yeay tk yah buat round haha
went to pekan to visit my little sister
bought her a new sony ericsson phone on the way there
i think i might bought it for myself if i didnt have my HTC right now
cute nye phone n she was delighted telling my mom after that hehe
ok esok oncall n i have a presentation to be done on monday

my * bought me a new crepe batik today :D
happy nye :D thank u!

i want an accord! this yr!

i know im not always straight forward
but this is just ridicilous
do i need to spell it out to u word by word??
pls understand that IM NOT INTERESTED

gah today tido sampai tokle tido dh
finally qada' all the sleep in need! :D
tp bosan jugak sbb tk tau nk buat ape
all the magazines yg ade pun tk menarik sgt
internet pun tk menarik
well maybe dh penat cuti
so esok start keja balik!

i wasnt planning to go home this weekend but since
this one driver insisted
so i followed him back home n back here
again in kemaman in one day
woah crazy tak???tp i wasnt the one driving so
suke sbb bley balik umah even for 2 hours
of which i spent tido again n iron baju hahaha
tk productive lgsg la kn balik umah
tp bley jumpe mummy so ok la ;)
reached kemaman quite late as expected

my second day of cuti was spent travelling to kuala lipis phg
yg i ingat dekat tp sbenarnya tak
my mum sent me a text asking where exactly
was our destination, KL ke kuala lipis
so i told her, KL stand for kuala lipis jugak ape hahahaha
mesti my mum bengang time tu
anyway the wedding ceremony was nearly
reaching its end time kitaorg sampai
n guess what i saw few juniors from smapk!
thats not the only surprise
the bride was actually my junior
gagagga cume my batch tkde la heh
n they called me kak najmi
urgh kantoi la umur sye.....

ok tonight terkantoi yg tak bley cover langsung!!!!
just imagined u sat just a table apart from them n yes
they noticed u when u were taking a seat
there wasnt a way out we had to say hello n b friendly gagaggaga
i know people knew but this is just unexpected n i just dont know how to act lol
anyway i'll just go with muke selambe je la esok to ward haha

today was busssyyyyy!!!!
i wanted to stay n help out but im too tired
the ward was too crowded especially during visiting hours
medical is too different from ortho
though i love it since we are allow to do procedure here
but the work load is just BANYAK
btw i managed to perform 4 peritoneal dialysis
tried to insert one long line but failed uhuhu
never mind there will always b a second time ;)
im taking 3 days leave this coming weekend
the plan is to go jln2 with cough*but it started raining few days now
so if the water level keep increasing we might get stuck in kemaman
n i dont think i'll be able to go home in besut because of the flood that's going on now

urgh i think im hungry again :(

skrang dah ade geng chubby haha, nabilah's flight from kb was at 9 today
i drove her there ~6.30 am n of course we missed one junction but
i made a u turn n we reached the airport at 7.30 am

she accompanied me shopping for my new room in kemaman
but as expected i spent more on stuff which is not essential
like 3 akemi comforter sets-king size with different colour n design
they are irresistable!!! can u imagine the original prize was close
to thousand per set but i got it for less than 200 per set
so yes i have to buy them :p haha
but then no sunglasses for me yet
i'll put aside some money next month for the glasses
i bought some curtain which will need someone to put up the rail
some more pillow n bolster
one small cupboard which need to b put together later
n one stand to hang my clothes (more like my tudung)
n today after sending her to airport i went to tesco n found the
rotan-like box for my laundry however i didnt get the size that i want
they only have medium n small size so i took the medium one



oh did i mention that im taking back what i said previously :p
got this in kuantan-cantik tk baju raye saye???
imagined me in that in the ot changing room-i was oncall
on my first day raye lol n we had one operation that day

best nya kalo bley mengutuk without the doubt that u'll find out
ni ade palpitation lak kalo nk mengutuk since everyone can read malay heh

anyway im kinda tired - i can still hear intan said "dh start dah perangai lame dia" haha
but i am...........
i honestly dont know where to go from now
should i put u behind as a history or keep u as a case to be reviewed later?
am i making myself confuse????? :(

anyway im at home
my sister from india is on holiday
will be spending a few days in malaysia
as she spent the rest in australia with her bf
we will be going for window shopping or maybe shopping for real tomorrow at KB
oh today pecah record bwk keta!i took 3 hours only from kemaman to besut!maybe sbb today bukan school or raye holidays kot ;)

i think i wrote another draft to b published when i have some free time but seems like it's gone
anyway im home today in besut, been driving for close to 5 hours
n i actually chose a different route without realizing it till it's too late n impossible to turn around to find the familiar route i normally used
instead of 3 roundabout
i probably took a different turn n ended going into permaisuri area,my father used to teach at sek.men sultan ibrahim (not sure whether sultan ke bukan sultan lol haha ke maybe sek men tengku ibrahim?)
anyway highway nye ade lalu area2 construction n felda n ladang2 sawit
lucky me my car's oil was enough ;)

im soooooo tired today, i was up till 4 am yesterday - oncall
n my minute sleep was disturbed-someone misread my instruction n thought my pt needs branula when i wrote legibly it's a CAP not IV anyway takpe la since i skipped the round today pun ;D hahha

This is the first raye yg i bought baju raye,in previous yrs i made my own. Td g kuantan n i swear lps ni i wont park kt parkson yg the nearest to entrance of kuantan tu-tinggi btul blum sampai i already felt like throwing up sbb jln pusing2 naik atas.