: ) dah lama tinggal my blog ni
back in msia now
n everyday have to take turn for the internet esp since kbar is still waiting for his pending malay ib result but i think its more for chatting thingy hehe as if mum know = he just have to make sure that he has that ib result page available when she happpens to pass him by right kbar right??this year the prob is with malay result last yr was worse-they have to wait for their biology result time must b crawling for them thank god it's only malay subject this yr if not mum 'll b bising starting from dawn till dawn again hahahah
he'll b contacting his ib coordinator today-if he remembered what mum said last night which i think he won't-since it's 4.30 in the morning now n i can still hear him laughing over smthg he watch on tv-he'll probably forget everything once his eyelids weight like a stone :p hahhaha
k later i'll smbg balik : )

at some point in ur life(can b more than once i think) u'll realize all u've got is urself n only god as a helping hand.u know that what u r facing will only affect u n ur future not others around u who offer for help or their sympathy or their shoulder to cry on - as if we'll lean on their shoulder anyway(uish a bit harsh haha) but the point is believe it or not this is the only way to get ur life back on track.whatever happened leading to this state n u somehow been living in a comfort zone(u believed u were anyway that's y u keep on living like that) till one day smthg shattered that comfort zone n u r once again back in reality n then all ur plan before u were introduced into that comfort zone came back b4 ur very eyes n u heard urself said u were glad that this thing happened n help to put ur feet back on the ground bcos if not only god knows what other damaged can u cause to urself-get what i mean???ke tak phm tak pe la kalo tak phm :p hahahah.

:D guess what it was raining yesterday-i told u guys we received no rain for the last 7 @ 5 days or so right but it started to pouring down in the morning right after i posted the previous post :D so it's a bit cooler today : ) i'll probably b out in town if the others r at home now *sigh*
btw here is some photos which i snapped on my way back home-using the small road along the stream=i don't think it's a river though we do have quite a big river along the college but this stream(or do i call it small river???but small river is aka stream right??heh whatever) might b from that big river n it ends up in the sea or is it in the big river b4 entering the sea??ahahha nvrmind :D.the sea = spanish ark n there's a lot of swans n ducks n seagulls as well - that seagull word reminds me of this story by 2 of our friends during aimee's birthday.

:D i definitely luv that tungsten colour :D it makes everything look nicer isn't it???k later : )

oopss the pic is suppose to b in the middle-must have forgotten to change the layout .taken at eyre(is this the right spelling??) square a couple of days after summer hols started.the field at the right side is full with people enjoying the blazing sun-yeah some even sunbtahing at the middle of the town i guess it's really hot nowadays. it feels like i'm already in msia n i got headache due to that temperature yesterday-it's been a week or so without rain,uhuhu now i really want the rain to come bet i'll b praying for the dark cloud to go somewhere else if it's in any other season.i wonder how it's going to b when i'm back in msia end of this june-before that did i mention i'll be going to paris in previous post?? :D hehe i am going to paris for 4 nights b4 my flight back to msia-just for sightseeing cos i got no money : ( uhuhuh - i guess i'll b forcing that someone to go for a shopping spree again :D

oh yeah farah n aimee r in germany along with jali while intan is having a good time in msia now-spending time with her bf i guess hehe : ) can't wait to hear from her soon well she did promise me to tell what is happening back there-intan don't forget u promised me!!:p
i'm all alone at home thank god the night is not long bcos if it did the esb bill will b high - what do u expect it's not that i'm afraid of the dark it's a precaution since no one else is around n some nights b4 there's been the blaring of house's alarm/security alarm (i don't know the proper name for it : ) hahahha) in the neighbourhood-along this road i mean so what do i do???i've been turning on the light in each room but of course in different period or else aimee's white bulb is gonna b dead long b4 she reach home hahahah-i know aimee is not much a blog reader but farah is = farah keep this to urself :p hehe. i miss hockey but the backyard is not that big for me to play hockey only enough for the cats to play around so 've been doing some skipping in the evening instead-yeah evening when the sun is no longer on top of my head i know the pigment 'll come out even b4 i step out from the plane at klia cos it's already hot in here uhuhhu : ) i have to attend to smthg else now : ) i'll be posting more after this : )

smthg is wrong with me lately-loosing my appetite even with ice cream n my-thought-forever-fav lamb shish.am i under stresss???bcos of this xam thingy???still have biochem oral to b done n we r waiting for the physio oral list n yup i do realize i get upset easily even with small matters : ( well i am now-but i don't know what has caused me for being upset now,do i just succumb into this depression???i guess no one like this feeling n maybe they prefer not to b around people with this feeling either : ( sorry for those who unexpectedly get scolded for just be present around me at the wrong time or have to repeat whatever she/he is saying as maybe my ears r not really sensitive to people voices/sounds = they just let them pass by without leading them inside or maybe they do get inside but my brain say 'no i won't process you so go away' uhuhuh~ i wanna go home : ( miss my family : ( = homesick ke sbenarnya????confuse confuse hahahaha

it's late but have to wait for subuh cos if put my head on the pillow now i'll probably burn subuh again :p like i did today - don't feel like reading those physiology notes i guess my brain is not working properly dah now as it is late : ( i need to sleep uhhuuh~ ngantuknya but aimee is reading out loud as usual :p hahahha maybe i should just listen to her memorising those lines of physio essays instead of typing this kakakaka i don't know how she did that reading every single thing n still have her voice the next day b4 she start the same routine again over n over again :D oh the anatomy oral list has came out-n no one in this house on that list-thank god :D hehe.
that oral 'll b on the next day after physio paper-they said oral is to help those students either to pass or get into 1st class but they arranged the oral day after physio????what??they aspect the students to prepare just for a couple of hours ke??pelik btul mentensionkan lg ade la kot,sian diaorg : (
hmm should get back to my notes : )
though my brain is screaming no!!! hahahaha

yellow door : )
u guys should see smthg made up from stone i think in the middle of the field in frnt of the building-it's an old building n smthg look like a not-so big castle(-or is it only me who see it that way???)stand not far from it,uh nvrmind that not so big castle,back to what i'm saying,there's this thing made up from rock/cemented?? in love shape with colourful colours on it n i've snapped a pic of it too but I am too lazy to put it up hahahah :D
the day was bright at least when we reached that place-don't remember it's name but it's on our tour through dublin-next time we really should take the city tour instead of county hehe but yeah u guys can go n try the county tour itself-the view is totally different from the cliff maybe bcos there r flowers blooming everywhere-it's no longer winter that's y hehe :D
but there's this one lake which is soo beautiful when look from above n that tour guide said the guinness is made from the water flowing into that lake which explain the colour of the guinness
it's a bit like connemara but there's no rocky burren like place la :D in case u get tired of seeing burren like place like me uhhuh~
need to go back to my biochem-one paper is done = that anat so still have 2 more papers to go n yeah we've got oral for biochem-this one is for everyone what else??oh i've changed the skin but still working on how to enable the comments n stuff,maybe later when the xam is over-b4 i fly to france :D hehe

no time to update this thingy : (
have to wait till xam is over : )

:D my bfast was nasi lemak this morning!!! : ) thanks to intan n farah hehe i thought u guys were doing some cooking n i was about to join the 2 of u in the kitchen n do my own cooking but since the nasi lemak was already served i went straight to the table instead la :D hehe
oh we got our money back yay!!!!
she wasn't trying to cheat us-her phone was gone that's y she didn't reply our msg n yesterday she called farah when we were in town-SHOPPING!!!!again haha :D now we don't have to think of where to get money to pay the deposit for this new house la :D hehe
err i don't know what else to say-oh someone commented on farah blog but that person wasn't using his/her bloggy name,simply anonymous n guess what that person is some kind of hatred-filled-heart himself/herself :p wakakaka n adilla said she would watch her grammar when saying bad things about other people kakaka padan muke terkena balik hahaha-oopss what am i saying???oh yeah should remind u my bloggy site can't b commented without real names = esp.hatred-filled-heart is not welcome :p hahaaha
oh my anat is calling me uhuhuh~ :D

:D hehe sorry still don't have any inside picture of my new house thought that i've moved in since friday,we were a bit busy cleaning that house but it's spotless now : ) n we got couches in the dining room as intan had the living room converted to b her bedroom-but yeah the people who came in sometimes still have their shoes on-n we have to clean that up again uhhuhu~
oh i forgot,the new house is the red one,i was in my old room at that time :D n u can see some wood next to the door inside the house-the one working on the kitchen/floor was still doing his work at that time but he 'll b continuing his work on the dining room's floor this summer probably bcos they don't want to interrupt our day with all the hammering sound n stuff since our landlady/landlord=eleanor/kevin know that we r having our xam this may : ) she/he even said that they'll try to ask people who planned to do some construction work-extending their house next to our house to do that in summer when we r going away for our summer-so thoughtful :D hehe
but there's one prob-our l/lady for the old house is still cannot b contacted i don't know y,one of us text her but the msg is undelivered-that's was intan,but mine was delivered and still we received no response from her n i think farah did text her husband too n yet no reply till this day,what for sure we did make sure she get our 1 month notice-i wonder y she gives no reply to our texts,we actually need the deposits to pay for our new house's deposit hmmm....
hopefully she's not trying to cheat on us or smthg-maybe she's just out of town now = need to think positively heehe : )

my sist is going for her interview for mara scholar-gud luck yana!!: ) wish you all the best

: ) hehe we finally move our stuff into that new house : ) i'm gonna post some pic of it next time cos the one in charge of renovating the house is still doing his works n the rooms r not fully done-actually my camera charger is there among those stuff so i can't upload any new pic even if i snapped some pic of the new house for u guys to see(n prepare to b jealous :p hahaha jali n rafiq were there go ask them if u find that's hard to believe hehehe) same goes with my phone charger : ( i don't know i thought i still have it on my bed but seems like it's gone now,i probably put it into one of the boxes since i wasn't really paying attention in what i grabbed at that time,the floor was covered with lots of stuff so i just grab whatever things i can reach n threw them into the boxes or bags but still have stack of books next to my study table n some more downstair in the living room :D gonna continue moving those in friday or maybe tomorrow : ) . thanks to jali n rafiq who helped with the book shelves [-i don't have to cabut all the paku2 la :p] n other thingy : ) n to aimi n adilla for being penjaga pintu while we were in the house across the street :p kakaka

n about the house :D i got a coffee table in my new room yay!!that's going to b used as my study table n it's from malaysia : ) n i think i need to get a new fitted sheet cos that one is double bed n my bed now is only single size bed : ) another reason to go to town lalala :D we were in town looking for electric meter key-in diy shop n there was this indian guy(think so) who was eyeing us suspiciously which made farah n intan n me to turn n walk the opposite way each time he came closer but all of sudden i found myself standing not far from him n intan was nowhere to be seen as well as farah,b4 we started talking to each other haha n that's when he said he's actually a malaysian n was listening to what we were saying to each other n he recognized the languange,that's y we saw him everywhere in the store b4 he managed to talk to one of us : )

ohohoh so sleepy now : ) gonna get myself a sleep :D

:D look at those trees : ) still have no flowers or leaves on them though that it is spring now,was walking along the bay that evening n those leafless trees reminded me of bronchiopulmonary trunk la :D kakka.there is circus in town around that area actually but there were just 2 of us,it wouldnt b fun without the other 2 or maybe 3(intan+aimee n+aimee's bf??kaka=if aimee want him to tag along la haha) . but i took no pic of the circus cos we can just see it from afar,err it was me who was a bit lazy to walk closer hehe poor farah she probably wanted to take a closer look : ) but it's cold n i only had 1 jacket on me n my digits were already numb=lots of excuses eh??kaka i bet farah's digits were too(kan farah kan???) :p

we were in town hours b4 that :D keke doing some shopping = couldnt blame me,the sale is everywhere so blame those shops :p oh still have some biochem topics to read : ) so i'm off for now :D

ups i forgot been trying to change this blog skin but none suit me so for this time being i think i'll just keep this pinky one :D but nway thanks farah for bg me borrow ur laptop the other day : )

: ) march is over yay!!!
the whole house 'll b busy packing in this next few days-though that someone has already finish doing her packing hehe-who's that rajin gurl eh???kekkek n intan's friends 'll b coming over maybe this weekend,some friends from uk she said just have to wait for their msg but they'll probably arrive when the house is in mess-sorry : ) but at least we r just moving across the street : ) so call moving hehe ye la this house is making us getting arthritis n joint prob n i don't think i can cope up with those for the next 4 years-tak mau tak mau :D lucky us the lady agreed to turn that living room to b another bedroom,so there's 4 bedrooms for 4 of us,etul is staying with the fairlanders till this summer,i don't know what her real plan is but she's no longer staying with us nowdays,the truth is we rarey saw her in the house anyway,since our schedule is different from her-3rd med only heard her voice during the w/ends when she'll b on the phone with her someone :D heh.
oh we've been in town since afternoon-actually we were hoping that the rain will stop but it seems like it's going to b like that for the rest of the day so farah n intan changed their baju,bcos farah's wearing skirt with that not-water-proof-jacket same with intan n me,but unlike me they don't have payung :D hehe , well the rain did stop n we had sunshine again as if it wasn't raining at all it just that the rain stopped only when we were in town :D sian farah n intan : )
had some brownies n cakes from our fav bakery place : ) b4 we continued jln2 around town stopping at almost every shops there till we tired ourselves bcos of that meaningless jln2 kekekek.
then we went home + but on the way we stopped at the college students union shop : ) bought smthg for u :D

this one is nice isn't it??found it in one of the galleries on the net.it's like one picture which is separated into 3 small pieces but still it looks great :D try to look carefully n imagine the 1st 2 to b side by side n joined at the bottom by one of the semicircle in the 3rd piece,it turns to b a love sign :D

n yeah it is the colour of red my fav : )

hmm having physio test this friday : ) , need to start studying for that n the mcq today wasn't as hard as i thought-heheh tak abis baca sket,the mark dropped a bit but at least the other 2 can cover it : ) no need to worry,that's the last mcq for biochem n that physio test is the last one too :D

i finally cooked something proper yesterday though that i just used some instant perencah but at least i have lauk to eat wih my white rice :D

n yeah i miss u :D baca ke???

:D 2 more tests to go n then march 'll b over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
woke up this morning n realized i've over slept rggrr my physio!!!!nasib baik awk msg : ) still have some topics which i thought will b asked in the test today-n good god it's not kakaakak if they did i'll probably get the worst mark which is smthg i can't afford to rite now,hmmm final is coming,n i'm soooo hungry!!!! what does hungry has to do with my final??? hehe intan + farah said we can eat 19 times a day or is it 28??? kakakaakak-korang jgn marah hahha :p need to grab smthg to eat b4 i flip through my biochem books - ????i am gonna do the revision,it just that i use some other notes heheh,that's y i just flip through those books :D

feel like posting smthg in here b4 i go to bed :D need to wake up early tomorrow : ) can't bring myself to read the lines in that physio book uhuh~ nvermind i'll try harder tomorrow : ) n oh been spending the day at the library today,my head is still aching which i don't know y probably bcos i was awake since 3 am today,so it's kind of hurt each time i move my head-pressure thingy hehe = reminding me of my circulatory topic which needed to b finished :D
hmmm that background,i don't know i started to love the colour of pink n red, my fav of all time,believe it or not my baju raya has been red long since i could remember,it was only last year my mum bought something green,that's the only green baju i have,n my bags r red,everything in my room,mostly everyting is red :D hehe n i have red t-shirt on me now,hahaha u guys been wasting time reading this craps ekkeek :D but u guys r not really doing anything rite if not u wouldn't b here on the 1st place :p akkaka
ok need to have a sleep now : ) nite to all : )

i read someone's blog today,n for the 1st time i realized that someone somewhere in this wide world actually having the same feeling of deppression(u know when u feel like everyone around u is turning their back on u just bcos of some small mistake u made in life,like ur not so excellent result or smthg) which i had-hehe i'm not alone
it's a bit funny though-cos he/she was saying something very similar to what i thought when i was in that stage of life,maybe everyone thought of the same thing at that time : ) never mind what we thought k
but those feeling were long gone n i do believe he/she will eventually grasp whatever he/she planned for when he/she managed to keep his/her worries aside
that makes me feel better a bit,not that i'm happy for whoever that is for having the same confusion over things around us,it means that we are indeed in a normal life,where not everyone is what they seems to be-happy all the time,it's just that people hide mostly everything in their own private mind,only exposing the happy side of them : )
n yeah,there r people who r in worse situation then we r - b thankful to God for that : )

: ) anat spot is over!!!
n the timetable for written paper is out,gonna start with anat on 4th,follows by biochem on 9th n the last one is physiology this 17th of may : ) . time to prepare for those big xam n lucky me physio is separated from the other two papers,gonna kill me if they r all in just 2 or 3 days gap heheh :D , but there's still 3 exams coming b4 march is over,biochem mcq,physio lab xam n the last physio-every-two-weeks-test,waaaaaaa byknya!!!!!!!!
but i shouldn't be whining,bcos i'm not the one suffering the most here-heard that 2 in 1 students r having their embriology written xam in this month too uhuuhu thank god i'm not one of them bcos that's not all-they weren't given lectures but its up to them to go n look for whatever they think r important for that subject,ape2 ntah.i think that's one of the subjects which they have to do it by self-study,sian diaorg,have to consider myself lucky rite : )
ok off to my physio notes :D

hehe takde keja,still stuck in the neck n head region, feel like ages since i started working on that topic : ( uhuuhh need to continue studying my anat spot xam is just 1 day ahead : (

:D my first post here
yeah!!!but i'm too sleepy at this moment
need to change the background or whatever they call it,
thinking of the starfish background i found in one of the web or maybe the red colour painting/drawing called tentacles of love or smthg
will see which one is nicer-tomorrow if i have time to
really need to sleep now but my anat's notes r calling uhuhuh my levator palpebrae superioris muscles r tired dah : )
later people :D