avatar was brilliant!
well in terms of the plot it wasnt that complicated
but i enjoy it as this might be the only several movies
with the ending that i like haha
n yeah love the colourful world they have in that pandora
even the people are made purple in colour

oh havent fnished uploading the photos from munich/salzburg
so many to pick from
bcos my laptop is old n couldnt use the easier way of uploading photos
the one with the java application
if i tried it'll take 30min for 20 photos
to try to upload
n i dont have to wait to see, in the end it'll say
failure to upload
so might as well use the old version of uploading

u know everyone is talking about kawen!!!
why?!?!?!?!??!!!!!
can we just finish off this med school n not think about it 1st?
i wish im one of the lucky ones toooooooo haha
blerggh ape2 la
ye someone told me
takpe tunggu je
kakaka ok fine aku tunggu je la
hopefully by the end of the med school someone will come
n propose haha
ok tk nk merepek dah :p

i have lotssssssss to write in here
tp my fingers r growing numbbbbbb
n i forgot where i threw my fingerless gloves
-at least some part of the fingers r still protected from this coldness
speaking of that-galway is freezing
the frost is everywhere!!!
n today the sun wasnt that much of a help
it's there but the warmth couldnt b felt at all
our backyard is still frozen even when now is 2.38 pm already
how r we suppose to go to letterkenny in january?!?!
i can imagine how cold it would b
n what's gonna happen with our plan for giant causeway???
urgh i've been here nearly 6 yrs n havent set foot there
pls dont b so freezing cold nnt!

oh btw im still waiting for jawe to upload gamba2 kawen kakaknya
manenya ni????

ok ade lagu best baru ;) hehe



rossa ni skali tgk cam siti pun ade
tk ke??

i admit
i am a bit impatient ;)
:D

oh safe trip everyone!!!

n c U in a week time :)

sye rindu kah?????
come talk to me pls..... :(

urgh ade org bgtau @ remind me
of 'no such thing as hati baik but pakaian tk baik/seksi sket'
nk tergelak pun ade
sbb truthfully she was talking about someone else
unfortunately terkena batang hidung lak haha
anyway mmg ade blaja dlu2
ape maksudnya menutup aurat
u know kain tk nmpk kaler kulit
n tutup area mane2 tu n longgar sket,
tp somehow those few lessons r
fading-maybe a bit fast from my brain
bagus la for u to remind me-tp i know u dont read my blog
so u wont know im saying thanks for u here haha
ye i'll try to b perfect in ur eyes k ;)

omg hari ni i dont know why
tp penat nya!!!
during the last tutorial-i was standing against the door
trying to rest my back
been standing since morning in the ward round, the clinic
then the theatre+hx pre-op jugak
met ayesha when the theatre was done
n decided to follow her for the ortho tutorial
usually i'll get a signal from my grumbling tummy that i need to sit down
at least for a snack b4 continue with anything else later in the day
tp hari ni perut tk bunyik pulak haha
oh they used leeches today!!!for haematoma dlm flap!
1 leech = 5 euro! but they killed them afterwards by pouring some alcohol, poor thing

today my dr in the team
spoke

spanish
french un petite peu
n earlier in the week
he spoke gaelic!!!!

so he knew at least 4 languages!

hehe dah tgk 500 days of summer
at the end that guy met another girl
but this time her name is autumn hahahah
oh it'll b good if someone can come n SERIUOSLY say
i want to marry u
tp that someone mesti la has a good background
n yeah dont think people wont go n check up on u
if u gave some reference
reverse psychology might not work here
people just might do what u said ok ;p

omg i just realised my number of entries has slopped down compared to years back!
anyway this is a way to naik kan a bit hahahha

oh that's not the main point for this entry
true blood=yes i tried several times to watch it in astro at home
but the kids were getting in the way
so i ended with either changing the channel when they were watching along
or shooed them away
ye la there were scenes which are not appropriate for their age
anyhow, farah n rafiq have the buku crite
but i still want my vampire to remain as what anne rice describe
im not yet ready to put shape shifter in the same story
well though lestat met several weird creatures or went to hell or other weird places
but yes i want them to remain as what the movie interview with the vampire portrayed them as, maybe when im trully done with the chronicles that i'll start looking for different version of vampire ;)

regarding my last entry
it's true we cant control our feelings but
people differ in a way that some may b able to let go quickly n some just get stuck thinking of the same thing all the time
should i say im fortunate@unfortunate, that im the former??? haha
so yes i'll let go when i want to n yes i wont turn back
saye rase as if i dont have attachment to someone/thing hmmm

susah jugak bile senang kecik hati...
tp, hati bukannya boleh di control2...
mungkin, avoidance is the best

ok now this is really going on n on in my head



finally got my case!!
the reg went looking for us in the ct room this after noon
bcos he wont b here tomorrow
he went through the history n also the most important part of all
the ct/us/xray etc baik btul hehe :D

oh my attachment is a mess la
asl la bk sgt benda nya ni.................

usually ade someone yg we can always turn around n talk to
bcos of the closeness we tend to have stronger
feeling to whatever their reactions r towards smthg
concerning us@maybe everything
but we r not mind readers so we cannot tell what they r thinking or feeling n im afraid there will always b a guilty feeling when they didnt respond as what
we expect they would to smthg we did/ask/tell them etc
the hardest thing is actually when it happened n we didnt say anything @they didnt tell us anything
but the silent hurts

dejected

i've been home close to two weeks now
with no one else other than my mum who can drive
i've to finally put into usage my driving license n my
long forgotten driving lessons
so my day starts as early as those school kids
i have to send my little sister to her school which is just
a few minutes from our house
n if my mum is a bit late for the day, i'll have to send
the other two sisters of mine to their school as well
then i have to drive back home to pick up dayana n
send her to her driving class
haha i actually finding myself enjoying driving
n my mum doesnt care if i want to drive her vios
instead of my dad's sentra even though i just
mustered my courage to finally drive on the second day i arrived home
i actually never drive b4 other than during the actual driving classes keke
n its actually a wonder my mum even told me to use her car if i so wanted to
n guess what she said ok when i jokingly said i want
to drive in ireland if i ever got the chance to ;)

i wish i could go roaming all the secondhand bookshops n
buy all the mayfair witches books by anne rice right this moment!!!
the witching hour left me craving for more
i want to know what happen with the newborn lasher
n what exactly is taltos
sometimes the story gets entwined with vampire chronicles which makes
the more reason for me to read all the rest of the vampire chronicle
there's still several books from the vampire chronicle which i
couldnt get my hands on them bcos it's kinda hard to get them here
n i dont think i ever found them if not in secondhand bookshops
gah if only i have time for that
the truth is the books were there in front of me all the time
covered by dust in most of the time, on the shelves in my room
i bought them when i came across anne rice whenever i visited the secondhand
bookshop but time is the only thing which is not quite enough i would say
for us medical students-or maybe me bcos i cant read (buku crite only hehe) without
forgetting the rest of the world
guess what happened the other day?
i heard knocking on the front door several times past few days
but i was reading the witching our at that time
n yes the story is about the mayfair witches with their spirits
the knocking wasnt that loud n maybe the rain n wind were playing some part as well
so it wasnt loud enough for me to believe someone is at the door
the knocking occured for several days n i kept thinking
maybe im imagining things so i let it be
but on the weekend i was sleeping n was startled awake by the noise
i was startled which means i wasnt thinking straight n just ran down the stairs
directly to the front door
n there stood my senior an intern all smiling bcos
at last!! someone open the door for her hahaha
n me the sleepyhead was told it was her n not my imagination that's being
pounding the front door - that's what it took for me to hear her finally

haha terase lawak pulak
but anyway iqbal's here in galway
im currently using his old laptop
bcos mine is out of battery n the charger is not working bcos
the wire finally snapped putus n i couldnt do anything to sambungkn balik
n just too lazy to get out of my cozy room to buy another one
so im buying that charger in msia la nampaknya :)
i havent pack
dont think i'll b bringing much with me anyway ;)

the 1st photo is the bottom one so the 1st on the list is actually the last photo ok
shouldnt b explaining that but i dont have anything to say pun so yes y not

one of our friends put out her wedding invitation card on the fb
the date is on 2nd of august
i've never been to any of my friends' wedding
my place is just too far from everyone else
n even if i took a flight over
the airport is still like 2 or more hours from my house
it might be easier when my dad is still around
bcos he always available to drive us anywhere we want
but seems everything is different now
the only person who can pick us up from the airport is my mum
n she's working till after 3 at least
it's very rare to see her at the house before 3
sometimes i thought maybe i should just take kereta sewa to go back home
but honestly i dont have enough trust in me on them
n not to mention i dont even know the way they drive
i might die of heart atck b4 i reach home who knows haha
so i guess i wont b able to go this one either

kawan2 semua,

SYE SUDAH BELI TIKET!!!!!!!!! :D

finally beli jugak
setelah pening kepala beberape hari hehe
but anyway its on 29th of july from shannon
but will have to take the earliest bus from
galway station around 3 in the morning

n thank you aman! = card dia :D

im stuffing myself with 2 large sizzler pizzas this weekend
was planning to go out during the day n find some stuff for
cooking but it turned out raining

i was blog-hopping this week :D
n yes found some interesting blogs acting as online shops
the items seem pretty goods-in photos
but they got good reviews too so maybe they really are good
but anyhow i couldnt stop wondering how/where they get their hands on the goods
my sister went to bandung n just arrived home yesterday
she brought back several pieces of kebaya with embroidery
from the description they are quite similar to those i saw online
n the price are pretty much the same-well can only b applied to several blogs though
so yes b careful if u want to buy stuff online ye :)

i came across a blog selling baju kurung/kebaya etc
but the price is a little off
i know how much it cost for like thai silk-they came from thai
so a little cheaper i guess or is it because my place
is close to the border that i get them cheaper??
anyway, the price look ridicilously
high for that type of kain-mind u they can b thrown
into a washing machine to make life easier for u
but maybe they are charging for their skills in making the kain into a baju kot

i believe i've committed a crime today
thus i have to study tomorrow!! hahahah

i no longer have the drive to attend any tutorial, wr, or anything else related to hospital!!!!
gah i wanna go home or maybe just away from galway for a little while
sometimes it feels like i'm all drained n exhausted
summer is tooooo hot when u r in the clinic or running around in the wards
n it's hard n frustrating when u cant say that to real people
without getting mock-yes then why r u here doing attachment? that sort of words u know

rasenya ayat2 biase pun bley buat org kecik hati
kalo sket2 tkpe la maybe sye tk kisah
tp kalo byk kali
then maybe bley meletup n lari je dr kamu, mau ke??
ke itu point nya?hmmm

hari ni rase pnjg nyaaaaa
apsal tk mlm2 lg ni???
penat dh tgk matahari sinar2 tu
nasib baik clinic sampai tgh hari je
kalo tk mau pengsan dlm clinic yg panas tu

oh kitaorg bli tiket ke paris 12/6 ni hehe
haaih pandai btul, mesti hangus ble balik dr paris tu nnt
rase nya ni kali ketiga g sane
tkpe la skali skala manje kn diri kekeke
n yes someone reminded me that
i didnt get anything for myself on my birthday
so bley la ni as a gift for myself :D
nnt pg with aman, qama, rafiq, intan n farah
hopefully the weather will stay as bright as this
ye la then baru puas jln2
tp sye mau tgk eiffel time mlm jugak
n now mlm start around kul 10 hmmmm

ye kami pegi dock lg for the second time hehe
why???
sbb these prawnies were calling us haha

take a look at the size of prawnies ni
BESAR!! n sedap, really :D
i wasnt really interested in eating those at first
but once i took a bite, tok le berenti lak
nasib baik line tuk bli tu pnjg
kalo tak maybe kami bli lg :)

we went to our classmates' bbq lps tu
not all people were invited though
n just b4 we reached the house
we bumped into one of those yg tk dijemput

tp dsbbkn we didnt know at that time yg only certain people were invited
like usual, we said hi n tanye mane umah bbq tu
her face changed!n demanded to know whose bbq we were referring
we knew it then-dia tk tau rupenya
feel like lari je dr situ hahha
semua pun cam dh glabah sket-ape nk jawab nih hahah

n yes all the meat were not halal so we made a 2nd trip to town
to charcoal lak :D
ye cuti is for mkn + jln2 + shopping + tido
but unfortunately it's too hot to b sleeping in this summer :(
sye mau kipas angin!!! :(

i got a text msg from mummy pg td
wish happy birthday
tp silap ari plak
mummy lupe ingtkn dh 27/05 kt sini
tp dia kate tkpe la dia jd org first wish
though silap hari haha

hari ni seperti slalu, hujan
Volvo race dlm hujan la maksudnya haha
tk tau volvo race??
sile google sdiri :p

skarang sudah lapar grgrgrg
tp dapur rase cam jauh sgt sgt
coco pops hampir habis
ayam lupe lak nk kuarkn pg ni
mkn ayam kashmir ptg ni saje la :D
tp lambatnya nk pukul 730
rase macam puase pulak heh

called mummy
katenya semua kna ade tuk tnh/whatever nya urusan
hmm but i wont b there till at least august
harap2 bley kasi duit je dkt kakak itu
umah mesti sepi saje pagi2
slalunya abah ade kejut kn semua org yg tk pegi skolah heh
skarang pg2 mesti tkde nasi bungkus or kuih2 atas meja dh
mummy ckp
ptg2 mesti burung2 yg abah used to bela pulang
mkn2/main2 dpn laman umah
cari tuannya agaknya
sian burung2 tu
kucing2 pun mesti tkde org kasi mknn
kesian diaorg

nabilah dh sampai india
dh jumpe si zola (tk tau eja)
tp budak tu buat bodo je katenya
nk aja cari dlm friendster mane satu si zola tu
tkpe la people can do/say whatever they want
cume baik tidak je
tp susah jugak kalo diaorg salah interpret mane baik mane salah haha

farah yg hampir jatuh ke dlm air sungai

oops ade doggy berenang
now that reminds me-when did i celup tgn dlm air itu?
selepas anjing itu lalu ke sebelum??mmmm

sasaran si doggy = swan
tp swan tu mengelak sket so tk kna tangkap hehe

text or msgs
we tend to read with emotion r we not?
am i the only weird person to put emotion in those words?
i'll usually imagine how the person
was like when she/he sends me text/msg

wouldnt it b nice if the sun is out shining n we have our cup ice cream with us?
maybe tomorrow will b better?or not? :p

abah passed away on 3rd of may at 3 pm
but thank God everything went smoothly
here n at home
mum was so sad as does all of us
my sister in india took a flight on monday morning
i wish i could do the same thing but
i couldnt change anything
it was hard at first to digest the news
but when i rethink
mum was by his side for the whole week
accompanying him
she was practically staying in the same ward
taking care of him till the last moment
telling him to say Allah n all,
he did not suffer for a long time
n we talked to him on phone almost every
day when he was in the hosp,
looking back at his life i believe
he did what he needed to do
his life was pretty much completed
seeing us all grown up with
my sister giving him a couple of grandchildren,
retiring from his work as a teacher
gave him more time for himself n the family,
these past few years
he was able to go to masjid or staying up late for tahlil at other people's house
im very much proud that he's like that
i remembered he'll bring home some kuih from the majlis he joined
his tahlil/quran group 'll probably missed him too
as we do now
but the time has come for us to let him go
n yes the only thing we can do is to remember him in our prayers n bacakn yaasin for him
n thank you everyone for all the things u've helped us with :)

urgh we have to re-sit paeds slide!
the paeds-photos book in the library is no longer there
waa sape la yg gatal mulut pg bgtau deprtmnt nih?!?!

the result is out!!
10 to 12 in the afternoon!!!ggrgrgr
but Alhamdulillah :D hehe

i had my books opened n ready to b read but all i could think of
is my paeds osce, so now bley concentrate :D well hopefully la kn
i need to call my mum 1st ;)

my dad is in the hospital for an operation
instead of today-it's been postponed to tomorrow
mum sounds a bit worried initially while i was on phone with her
but she's alright now i think
it's not that big of an operation
but it is for him n my mother
i can sense the doubt in his voice n i knew
he would opt for not going through with it if not for my mother
hehe
today-he saw some of the med students in the hospital
he said one of them look like me
n the night b4 that he asked me again
if im really not going back for summer
i told him no
but listening to him n my mother
maybe i should go home instead of staying

1-what happen if u reject someone's friend request on fb?
do they get a notice after that?u know smtms it's a wonder
why people still add those whom they've thrown some
hurtful words some times ago
they were oh so superior b4 that they think they can say
whatever came to their mind n being an ignorant to others feeling
damn i so wanted to just ignore ur request
but i dont have the heart to
though i know even if i approved, it'll still
b pointless bcos they wont even give u a testi saying hello or smthg
what's the point of wanting to b in the friend's list then???

2-i hate my fb now that it's flooded with people's
stories that r totally unrelated to me,n yes the gedikness included
omg sakit mate!!pls act a little bit normal!
gah maybe i'll do some spring cleaning hahah

i had a weird dream this morning
i dreamed of a baby-my baby!
hahaha
i woke up startled n a bit confused
why a baby of all things/human being?
n when im done with paeds too hmmm

the syndrome in my previous post is called
anhydrotic ectodermal dysplasia-it's affecting the ectoderm
so in that child case, he's definitely hairless,
the skin is somewhat pale and thin
and the other thing is he cant control his temperature
n guess what they suggest??
try living in the cold country!
they might go developing seizure and end up with brain damage
if the temperature is too high
they dont have the normal temperature regulator as we do
because they dont sweat so yes no way of reducing the temperature
and they are prone to infection so explained the many
many tablet he's on

i saw another new rare syndrome this week
the child has rubinstein-taybi syndrome
most of the cases were diagnosed by the broad thumbs/great toes
as the facies are not obvious when they are still young
the disorder is due to the deletion of 16p13.3
her face show the features of the syndrome
like beaked nose,
ptosis, small maxilla, microcephaly,
small mouth with crowded irregular teeth, high palate, n
short upper lip
the great toes and the thumbs have some deviation as well
she has a delayed in speech
but she seems friendly enough to let us come near her
and played with us hehe

i didnt go in with dr.G this time so i probably missed
other interesting patients she has

i need to finish my case now ;)

i wanted to write about what happened in sligo
but one of the things include the unavailability of internet connection
at my bnb so yeah i couldnt go online
the modem was in faulty condition-u can see
from the look of it really
but somehow the bnb's makcik asked someone
to come n fix it-well he did but the internet was not that good
so i have to suffice with only browsing the very few pages that i really need to go to
before the connection disconnected or the signal became very weak
i know it'll b better if i just go down the stairs n just plugged it off for a few minutes but i was too lazy haha

i have an early start every morning-8.30 mostly everyday n the bnb is half an hour away from the general hospital on foot, my paeds ward is on level 7 so i normally take the lift
instead of the stairs :D
the clinics are on mostly everyday
the ward round is twice everyday
the scbu is quite small compare to galway
but there is this one baby with pneumothorax
he's a big baby with diabetic mother
but the insertion of drainage tube was a wow bcos i've never seen one b4 hehe
most of the babies there bcos of diabetic mother
pneumothorax baby is the only one in incubator
the rest are all quite well in their cribs

one pt who came to the clinic
had this very pale thin skin-like an albino
with no hair
i could see blood vessels on his head
very clearly like those of osteogenesis imperfecta
he had three fangs-like tooth at the age of three
the tongue was a bit long
n he's on several medications
later the consultant told me he has...........
i forgot-will post it later haha

i'll b going for my away attacment-in sligo again
for the next two weeks
am hoping for the good weather
n not icy cold-n yes no rain pls
as if that's possible haha

anyway we had an outing last night
the ikan was SEDAPPP as in malaysia hehe
that scallops was a little weird though
i dont really like the taste-or rather
i couldnt recall what the taste was like?!
i would say-if you want to eat fish then go to tamarind
thai garden is as the name is = tom yam/tom ka goong(tk reti eja)
indian food is best in kashmir
trattoria is when u feel like eating italian food :D

my bus is at 8 tonight
gah im so not in the mood to pack my bag!! :(

i snapped at someone on friday
i was very much annoyed with mostly everyone
i had a presentation in the morning
of which i only got the case
on wednesday night
left me with only a day to prepare

i was soooo annoyed
bcos seems like everyone want to b oncall
why the hell do they have to b on ward
when they r not suppose to
n when they not even presenting on the next day
or even in the week
it's alright if they were there to check on
their patients' chart for any progress
but when they asked the nurses for history-after 6 i mean
that's when they've taken other people's
right bcos of the soo many people want to
take history after 6 that wednesday
the nurses were reluctant to allow any more
i.e the people who were on the on call list to do our work
which is FINDING THE CASE FOR PRESENTATION!!
i was frustrated my head was throbbing
n the light was unbareable for my eyes
i had to go home n sleep
b4 i went to a&e with sarinah
thank god there were several pt there
i got the case from there
n my headache stopped heh :D

but anyway i'm done with case presentation
so i wont b banging my head on the wall
bcos i couldnt find one anymore hahaha
i must admit i became a meanie when
im annoyed or tired
n yes dont come near me when im not smiling
i might just lash it out at u :p

mc-mong=i feel crazy ;)

good or bad,
dying or running away,
only choose one from each two,
listen closely n remember this,
until i die i'll only choose u

does it happen in normal life???
flattering isnt it? ;p

the girls r having ladies night at the small lect theater csi
but the two of us just couldnt stay any longer than 20???minutes
my head was throbbing felt like it was going to burst
n my eyes felt strained : ( ughh
im sure intan was feeling worse since she was the one with
osce in the morning
n yes i had svrl doses of caffeine today
n right b4 we went to the csi as well
we tried mr.waffle at town
i was starving but couldnt finished the waffle
bcos it's toooo sweeeeet!but they all did??!weird
mmm-whose threshold level is higher now??:p
n qama had to remind me about the
all-4-siblings-dr-so-no-one-'ll-come-near-me?!grgrgr
so far no one ever pointed that out
but unconciously i tried not to tell new people
im meeting for the 1st time that most of my siblings r
doing medicine bcos yes im afraid they'll
run away after hearing that haha silly me
well mostly did anyway gah

oh this one kid pt hugged me at the pre-school i visited
he probably can sense who needs a hug for that dy haha
he's sooo cute! :D

i started my child psych today
hehe it was a dy full with mischievous kids
one had the urge to go back home
bcos he wants to quickly finish his project
of making a giant slingshot
at the end of the session his mum asked him what
he's gonna do with that thing n he replied
with a grin-his baby brother hahaha
but one thing i realize
most of the cases involve family members
the consultant seems to b very familiar with certain
family names, she could recall treating other members of
the family etc, she's a very pleasant lady :D
oh n i got my 3rd case!!! :)

today the kids mostly have AD/HD
but i only saw two kids who showed their ADHD
symptoms n that was during the bp/wt/ht measuring
i.e when the consultant, their mummy weren't around
they bcame quite aggressive
jumping around from one thing to another
that attracted them (hyperactivity),
they couldnt concentrate (inattention),
n yes it could b very dangerous with
a baby in the house n not to mention
to themselves,one of the core symptoms is impulsivity
of which they act on impulse ; )

i found this last night :D

i had the weirdest dream
my tooth fall out
but i didnt feel any pain just a bit sad
as i stare at the small little tooth in my palm

does it means anything?
i know people said it's a bad sign
im a little bit worried now
hopefully it wasnt aything
plus it wasnt within the 4 am sleep

im worried that bilah might b sick
its been such a long time since i last talk to her
my stubborn rebellious little sister
i still think of her as a little sister
i remember her doing the bird pose when she was little
n abah captured the moment with his camera
the photo might still b in the album in our house somewhere
how i miss my sister
n we have different hols time
maybe i need to go to her place sometime

here's some more photos from the ski trip :)

ayesha n me with the plastic sledges
kebar with his ski equipments
intan with her camera-so not in the photo heh :p

our little snowman

lost my jacket by this time

thick isnt it??

back in cuneo for dinner :)
the price is alright n the foods were delicious
the place is quite close to our hotel
n it was packed with people
we had to wait for half an hour or so
to get seated
but it was worth it :)

the next morning we took the train to ventimiglia,
well supposedly the train straight to nice
but we were a bit late n the train left

the weather was very nice
n u can see the palms tree in the background-err or is it
not obvious in this photo?? well we were
entering the Mediterranean area at this stage

the river flowing from the mountains into the sea

the rocky beach
we reachd nice train station at around 3 pm
from there we walked to our hostel
nice is a big city of which is not really to my liking
bcos of too many people n too many tall modern buildings
that was my first impression
but it changed as i walked around later that evening n
the next two days that we stayed there
nice has its old part as well
of which u can see the differnt in the pattern of the buildings design

they have people of different races n yes religions
eventhough we met many people whom i believe
are muslim, we couldnt find any places to eat
which have the halal signs
one which have the sign
somehow also sell pork-which is a bit confusing doesnt it??
maybe they have different meaning in halal
who knows
but anyway i learnt to like the city :)

the photo below was close to their chrstmas market :)

the picture above is taken by intan on the coach from cuneo airport
to the city centre, everything surrounding us was blanketed with
the white white snow n yes the sun was very bright probably
reflected by the snow,but honestly we didnt really feel cold
the first thing that came to my mind was, did i brought the wrong
clothing??haha but maybe they had the heater on full blown
both the airport n the bus bcos that airport is quite new,
so you know just for the sake of 1st impression hehe
we took the coach for like 20 minutes to the centre

the driver was not speaking anglaise at all
the only thing which made me sure of where we
were going was the sign boards along the street
n maybe bcos we pronounced the cuneo correctly
thus he understood our destination
there's no info.centre at the bus/train station
we had to ask around for the direction to our hotel
n yes as usual we used two different languages
with some sign language to get the direction we want
a lady at the station gave us a map n scribble the
way to get there on foot

the city was bigger than galway but there was not many
people around n the time was around noon on saturday
i thought maybe we were a bit in the outskirt
we check into the hotel n decided for a walk later
in the evening

this is located close to a carpark, not far away from our hotel
the picture below is of one of the piazza-piazza galimberti
they have sort of christmas market on sunday
u can see there wasnt any street performers at this time
n it was saturday
unlike what we normally see in other plaza or along the
shopstreet in galway,they have a quiet saturday i guess


on sunday,we took a taxi to limone piemonte for
60 euro-return journey,couldnt take a train bcos of a snowfall,
one of the ski resort was closed bcos of it,the day b4,
thank God it wasnt anything massive-well
not affecting all of the resorts i mean ;)
the snow was heavy, they advised us not to go to the higher point
but we did take the cabel car to see the area n snapped some photos

kbar decide to try skiing, changed his snowboots n rent the rest
of the gear for skiing-guess how much it cost him???
twenty-two euros only,ayesha n me changed our jacket n rent
2 sledges for thirty euros
earlier, the four of us had 4 snowboots which cost us 11 euros
n later we had coffee for like 40 cents a cup hehe
i was quite amazed with the cost really
i thought it might cost us much much more than that
anyway, we spent several hours playing
n watching kbar trying his hardest not to fall hahaha

there was this one guy i saw in the ski equipments
rental shops all confident trying his boots etc
but then i saw him again in the not-pro area
falling every few seconds bcos he couldnt controlled
his snowboard haha i thought omg he was all boosting
confidence in the shop but it's all gone now,
however that was the only time he played
i didnt see him around after that-poor guy,his friend was
better though, but this guy did used the board till he reached
the watching (??) area eventhough he kept on falling hehe

some people just go there for sun bathing
it was very bright n the rays were reflected from the snow
hence i lost my jacket in the middle of the
sledging hehe :D
i'll put up other photos later ; )

today wasnt that productive,well not yet but it's alright
im planning on writing my essay later
i talked to a pt today she's just full of negative thoughts
just about everything n i feel sorry for her
she seems to have no support from anyone
everyone seems bad in her eyes
but i dont know them-so cant really tell whether that's the truth
her thinking has been like that n cant b change-i think maybe
she doesnt really trust people so she doesnt open up
to the therapist she's been seeing
or maybe she doesnt trust another way of doing things
n stick to her old ways-the same goes with her mind
my consultant might put her n the family on another therapy
hopefully this time her family will
respond well to the therapy n in a way helping her to get through
this episode in her life
the meds doesnt seems to work with her ever

one pt came up to me this morning n demanded a 2nd opinion
on her mental health status
i was at a loss for a bit as she doesnt care even if im only a medical student
but thank god this sr nurse came n said she'll talk to the consultant
for her later, n the pt didnt press the issues further
she seems a bit aggressive though her size is normal
but we never knew what they r capable of if things got out of hand
n the ward is all locked all the time
bcos there's this one pt who has the tendency to run away from the mental hosp
imagine what will happen if one of the pt bcame too
aggressive or maybe homicidal???n u have no place to
escape n save urself??
gah im imagining things hahahha

oh the schedule tomorrow includes self-study
n nasrul mentioned smthg about japanese restaurant in town hehe :D

my bag still need to b packed
though i only have one more week to go, or maybe just 4 dys
not planning on presenting myself for any presentation for the last
day of the attachment, navid 'll b missing as well so
yes im coming back early next week too
the schedule 'll b as tight as last week
but im going to visit more places
n yes i'll b google-ing the places' location again this week heh

anyway, i saw a friend of mine
well rather the blog that i read-saying she's fed up with the unnoticeable
signs left by her everywhere ngehehe
i think i know what that's about-but
hopefully that person 'll realize all the signs directed to him sooner or later
it's easier if u already know that particular person's real feeling
then being left guessing what's going on in his mind
but smthg needs to happen linking both of their minds
together or else the girl might get prasan or deluded by silly small things
which is not actually for her
yes sad isnt it but i think that's just how girl is-we tend to get deluded
with things that we wanted to happen to/for us
even in a way, way beyond other people comprehension
sometimes we just miss the exact meaning of things bcos
of what we want to believe
-well maybe not me ahahaha though there were
times i had those believes as well-i learnt how to control
them-well i believe i mng to-err am i??
hmm but sometimes those feelings give the pleasure in life
it makes us anticipate things or eager for the next day
well not that it's unpleasureable feelings isnt it??? ; )

ari ni,my team is on leave?????
gah if i knew, i wouldnt have dragged myself
through a shower n cold morning to b there!
im in general now, got a history from one pt
though wasnt a full history since her uncle was waiting
to talk to her, but yeah they wont b there tomorrow as well
hehe nampaknya sye akn balik awal!!! :D

:D sligo was a bit foggy today as i was out
to the country side and went to see one pt
in tuberrcurry with this nurse n a consultant
but i wasnt that keen of the country side this morning
smthg else mngd to capture my view n kept it
away from the window the whole time
ngehehe
he even sent me to gnrl hosp.since
"u have a bad cough, n this weather is not helping"
i felt giddy-sory if i mngd to disrupt ur image of me :p

why do u have to be so cute
it's impossible to ignore you

those were the first few lines i heard from imogen heap
probably when i was out shopping with some friends
n i totally fall in love with her music
oh im currently in sligo again
at least this time i got a warm room and
a double bed with electric blanket :D
though once again im gonna miss smayang raye :(
here's another one by imogen heap : )



Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violence
just run with me through rows of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago


it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

my pt couldnt remember why she was depressed
or rather she gave me smthg which is totally
made up-well i think so
bcos its not related to her but she believes that
is the reason emm now it sounds like delusion?haha
n that eo wants us to provide a complete
past psych history for the case
but not without the help of the charts
if i do ask the pt again
she will either repeat the same answer or
she might come out with a new story haaih...
n the truth is i couldnt find the depressive
episode in the chart anyway

im so happy that i found my list of jack johnson in my laptop!!
the internet is acting up again well as usual,
so i couldnt listen to the playlist in the youtube,
but anyway we had this video session this morning
i had a patient with pressure of speech
gah i thought i did very bad, but the doc.
conducting the playback session
told us it is hard to talk to pt with pressure of speech
and she also has this grandiose so yes she likes the camera hahha
i never have thought she would suddeny asked
whether we r being recorded in the middle of the session hahha
i was so embarrassed it's as if i didnt say anything about
the recording though i actually explained to her twice
but she was pleasant and wasnt that disinhibited this morning
and not as tired as the first time i talked to her last 2 weeks
or else she might just said she want to sleep in the
middle of the video session-yes it happened the first time
well she has BPAD really hence the symptoms ;)
im taking her as my second case :)
n i learnt what the intrusive really means today
i know it's like intrusion but dont
exactly know when they applied it
err do i sound stupid to u?haha

oh several other things i got from psych so far is
not to blame urself for anything that happen in the past or
maybe even think about anything that occurred that deep
since it might slightly lead to guilt which yes
might cause stronger guilty feeling as time passes
-u might end up depress
i believe i do feel depress smtms-but yeah
try not to think too much of it :)

i couldnt sleep, i've been up for two hours
this is like waking 4 hours earlier then my normal waking hour
n gah im bloated from eating too much
could that b the reason?

tomorrow i have clinic to attend, but i want to go
n talk to this particular pt as well for my case report
at least i have one case from this week
n the second one from the next week
then wait for the child psych week for one more case

the clinic is at 10
n we have to go to one of psych place later in the afternoon
oh i need to go to the bank by this week too

hahah did i really wrote morocco???
oops salah sbenarnya monaco
haha :p
no wonder jawe tanya haha

oh now i feel like eating the cakes
at rafiq's bday-cheese cake aman grgrgr
maybe i should go to town n cari cheese
cake kt mark n spencer :D
last night the chef n the gang were brilliant - hence the full stomach
n no space for cakes la
mmm tkde photos nk upload...

my other brother had shingles last week, on the face!
kesian maher,probably bcos he was stress out due to the recent xam
n my sister got 5a in upsr :D
i know it's only upsr but no one else in the family
has big exam this yr-aisyah's the only one heh

we bought tickets for winter hols!!!
on 20th of dec.we'll be arriving at cuneo-close to alps
stay there for two nights n 'll go to nice,france
of which we'll take a dy trip to morocco :D hehe
hopefully evrything'll b alright :)

1-music will bring back memories
=im not fond of memories
=yes im not

2-all this while i only talked about others
but dont u know i have feelings too???
just that i dont freely tell people...

3-now that i think about it
maybe it's not the best arrangement after all
i need to follow my heart

3-its hurt but i dont know how to make it goes away
pls help me pls

for some reason i dont know how to proceed with my case anymore
it's like im having a writer block or smthg
u seem to progress but actually u r not
the only thing improving is the number of the word counts
not the main important points which will give the marks for u
grgrggrgr!!!!

yesterday was the surprise party
some of the photos were taken when not all of us r ready
but i like most of them
the people/scene captured seems alive n vibrant
they gave u the happy feeling
all credits goes to aimee's personal photographer haha

i'm so glad to b back to my own room
to the comfort of my own duvet
n yes to get to see the familiar faces again :)

im back in galway for the weekend
the house in sligo was not as expected but i'll bare with it for the next week
the sissy guy was pissing me off this morning just b4 i left
yes he's sissy
and of course not a gentleman at all
he was so adamant to "show" me the appropriate way of
closing the door to even ask me to stay put on the stairs
while i was coming down holding a big heavy bag with me
n he slumberly perform the appropriate way of closing the toilet door,
at that time i just thought
he must b stupid bcos
this morning the wind was blowing in through the window in the toilet
of which i believe was opened by him n pushed the door closed with a bang
but i didnt say anything to him of his stupidity
omg i couldnt believe there could b such a guy
to make matter worst, when i was rushing to get the house door
as the taxi arrived, he asked whether i've eaten smthg
i wasnt thinking of anything bad of him yet, so i just said im gonna grab smthg at the bus station
but this stupid guy rephrased his question,n said whether i've been in the kitchen this morning
guess why???
apparently someone left some bread crumbs on the dining table!!?!
the only person been in the kitchen b4 him was the owner of the house
n yes that shut him up

believe it or not
i've made the stupidest mistake ever!!!
grgrgrg now i need to change the date again
omg i pray that sligo 'll b a better place then the labour ward in galway

we r 5th med now!!!

the merah people!

happy eid mubarak everyone!!!
it's been quite a while now
im doing my ong rotation for the moment
and for the first time in my five years away from home
i couldnt go for eid prayer-we had tutorials the whole morning
but we kinda waver a bit in the afternoon hence we skipped classes
ehehe
tp since i didnt plan to go for any open house that day, i left my camera at home
jd gamba raye kna amik from others
i didnt even have a photo of the three of us!!
maybe will take some during raye celebration or international dinner night

oh i've finally got a case for case commentary
though not as interesting as other cases but at least i've got one
the lady had a tvt done on her
of which i still have lots of reading to do to complete my report
i'll b away to sligo starting this 18th of october for my rotation

i went to town this morning
and have to pay 100 for yana's hepB test-err mum's money
not mine
i dont know whether it's me who is unaware of the expensiveness all this time
or it's only recently being this expensive
and that is without even any other check-up
the letter came quite late-as usual
since we are not in kl
and they(iumc) are expecting the test result this 26th of august
hopefully the lab 'll b able to fax the result by sunday next week
mara's documents are still on their way here-though they said
they'll b using the post laju service hmm..

i think this blog needs an update

life was at a slow pace this couple of weeks
with my mum n dad gone for their umrah
so only my siblings n i are left at home right this moment
maher is home for the school hols.
n the new house next to ours is brought up to life with
their kids running n making noises around the house.
unfortunately they started their little activities when the first
light comes up indicating the start of a new day-well yes everyday!
which is not that pleasant since they are noisy :(
n im not use to it-just yet
n my room is unpractically facing their house too
but they'll only be here for the hols so it's gonna b
peaceful again-well the army aircrafts are still around though

kmb probably sending 13 newbies to nuig
n this sist of mine is still waiting for her offer letter
which seem to b quite late-n she didnt make
any effort of checking any list available to confirm her
college status?!

this is actually= the children section heh

a) adik saye yg darjah 4

b) my ma n one of her teacher friend
-with some of her students's tents at the back

c) my adik2 - the one yg baru lps ib,
adik darjah 4,n kebar

1-i believe it took more than 5 minutes to upload one single photo

2-these are from yesterday,we went to lata belatan n yes i wasnt thinking straight n ended with that baju kurung which is not quite not the right choice of a baju for a trip to a waterfall haha
but we were not allowed to mandi anyway,so maybe that was the reason i went for baju kurung.
my mum had her students out camping at that place so we just went to take a look at how they cope with the place with rain and all,honestly we all think it wasnt that good of a place for school students to have it as their camping site.unless they were separated from the visitors who went there to have fun.there were just too many mat motor loafing around which i found unattractive n yes i could never breath in the smoke coming out from their ciggarette grgrgr didnt everyone go there for some fresh air far away from the polluted jerteh?oh maybe not,the mat motor must have gone there to cuci mate agaknya :p

3-lata belatan was actually located at the bottom of gunung tebu-yes the one with many stories of missing people,especially from some school/institution's mount climbing expedition.there was this incident where they found the missing person in a place which they've been combing for like forever-but no they only found him after all hope was almost gone,quite a game isnt it?maybe the bunian or whatever is said to be residing there was pissed off by those people attitude and decided to play a game on them heh. but anyway,this waterfall is not as dangerous as lata tembakah. they had people died in that particular waterfall but not in lata belatan.another nice place for relaxing is air panas la just a few minutes drive from the 2 lata. err mybe not a few minutes but they are quite near to each other :)

4-oh kpd sape2 yg nk dtg trg n feel like coming to any of that lata (sorry didnt snap the waterfall pic itself) or want to go to klantan n need a place to stay,feel free to contact me through-friendster/facebook/blog k :)

1-my sister got her IB result!
hopefully she'll get the offer letter from the uni of her choice

2-everyone was doing fine but yeah there are people
who didnt do so well
but i believe there's always a reason behind all the
things that doesnt go the way we planned

3-the house is expecting two anak angkat for the weekend
-starting thursday till sunday

i've done painting my room,well not exactly
but i've covered most parts except some which are
smeared with cement when they were reattaching the brick
and the wooden wall
the next project is still in progress-painting my
mother's room interiorly and exteriorly
the interior is done last week
so im doing the exterior yesterday and today
she havent yet decided the new
colour for the house,somebody was asked to choose
the colour since we wont hear the end of it
if the colour we chose doesnt suit his taste :p
but he's BUSY with NOTHING n havent made up his mind??!?!

maybe i'll put up my room's pic someday-it's yellow
n dark pink,try to imagine ;)

turki won the match!!?!?!
err somehow these past few days i always
found myself waken up in the middle of
the night n ended up in front of the tele
joining kebar in watching bola ....?

1-im back in msia
not planning on going anywhere
its too hot to do that anyway
so yes im a staying at home girl for the next couple of months

2-the house is quieter this week since the renovation
in my mum's room is done

3-i havent had a chance to go for a weekend market yet
but tomorrow is gonna b the first after a year away hehe
its not that fanciful a place to b but im kinda miss the situation

4-i've finished reading this book called smthg like
' when god behaving badly ' its not GOD its more like
GODS and GODDESS from the ancient Rome
the book is hilarious with a very good writing
though the gods are from the ancient rome time
they are living in the modern world but with a little power
and yes no one believe in them anymore
which is the actual cause for their loss of power
its about how they became powerfull again=a journey
involving some mortals of how they get the trust from the
london people(somehow they are residents of london city)
which then resulted in their power coming back to them

5-gonna watch tv now :D

i think i might as well start packing
since everyone is leaving already
intan+jawa+rafiq+nasrul were off to msia last night
aimee+jali took their bus this morning to the airport
soon farah'll b leaving to dublin
ughh life is soooo boring!!!
but anyway i want to thank jawa n the gang
for cooking that laksa yesterday :D
n yeah succeeded in our plan to surprise aimee
some friends from cork were here for the party
the weather this morning is so bright n hopefully
they'll have a great time in aran island :)

i should have taken the photos from jawa last night!:(

heh DONE WITH THE EXAM!!!!

or maybe i should put it this way

DONE WITH THE 4TH YR!!!!!!!

but really time just flies, felt like yesterday that we sat for
all the torturous mcq be it patho, medicine, surgery,
all the case reports, SPM project, all the essays bacte + SPM
and all the practical labs and the autopsy-err looking back at it,
it was a lot wasn't it???
n now 2 more yrs to go!!??
wargh that's a bit scary!

oh some people,namely hana n jawa tagged me for this
n since i have nothing else better to do at the moment, so here it is :

7 random facts about me:

-i must admit im shorter than everyone else
-though im the eldest daughter
-n yeah people always think of me as a high-school student
-but truthfully im 2 yrs away from working world???!?!aaaa
-i love japanese/french/korean/indon songs
-i hate waiting for my once in every week ova-i wonder
if there's anyone out there with all the 24 epi...
-i hate extreme weather ahhaha

7 things that scare me:

-quoting from jawa : mak ayah marah
-spider
-lake/ocean/big river
-earthquake
-thunderstorm
-RTA
-losing sight of my purse/passport=high possibility
that i actually lost it

7 random music at the moment:

-a clip with pour la beaute du geste
-a clip ending with conrad at the end-err
im not putting the title here :p
-tercipta untuk ku-ungu
-hikari-utada hikaru
-a clip with - why cant i offer u my arms
(pls trnslate to other language)
-sakura drops-utada hikaru
-the opening song for jjr ova

7 things I say the most:

-haha
-eh
-ye ke
-emm mmm
-k
-tp
-ape lg?isi sdiri la

7 things I treasure the most:

-my LAPTOP
-internet connection
-my phone
-house phone
-credit card heh
-my diamond ring-the rslt from me broken up
my mum's bracelet into two
-my wrist watch though it's out of battery now...

7 "first time" things I ever did:

-flying fox kt plkn nya tempat though i wasnt there for plkn
-Red Thalys!!
-naik bas full with people speaking languange
other than those that i can understand-but
thanks to our good pronunciation we reached our destination
err or maybe the map did
-pecahkn lock on one of my house door
-finally naik eiffel
-mkn mussels in a POT kt belgium restaurant
=people must think of us as weirdos
-my accidental breaking one of my mum's treasured diamond bracelet

7 people to do this:

-aimee kalo dia ade blog-or u can just use
ur other half's account cant u???hehe :p
-farah nadiah st.endas
-lyana
-hani
-umah ketat
-amira amir
-belle

now, what else should i do???

here's smthg for ur listening pleasure :)

haha im posting this though still havent go through the meaning yet :p

Au début tout était bien
Mais tu croisas son chemin
Ton sourire est apparu
Un comme j’avait jamais vu

Comment puis je rivaliser
Entre moi et tes pensées
Déjà tout lui appartient
Moi il me reste que ta main

Ne m’oublie pas
Ton sourire est a jamais en moi
Et pourtant c’est une évidence
Tu restes en transe

A quoi bon vivre avec toi
Si tu ne me souris même pas
Je suis las de comprendre
Ce que je ne veux plus entendre

Tu voyais la vie si belle
La partagé en éternel
Mais depuis tout a changé
Oseras tu me l’avouer ?

Ne m’oublie pas
Ton sourire est a jamais en moi
Et pourtant ta loi du silence
Me fait offense

C’est pour toi que j’ai décidé
Qu’avec lui tu devais rester
Je m’en mors toujours les doigts
J’ai mal au cœur encore parfois…

Me pardonnerais je un jour…
De t’avoir mis dans ces bras ?
Moi qui t’aime depuis toujours
S’il te plait reviens vers moi…

Ne m’oublie pas
Ton sourire est a jamais en moi
Et pourtant depuis ton absence
Rien n’a de sens…

ms.sp fr.surgery want to meet up with us on thursday??
regarding the previous mcq
which saye tembak sket haha
oh well we dont always know everything do we??
hehe alasan sbenarnya :p

what's norm is not always the correct one
smtms i always let myself
get carried away believing the norm is the correct one
though i know it is not

after svrl days of trying
i've successfully downloaded my new ova!
read the manga but the moving pics r always nice too
but they only rlsd the 1st epi for now
i hate waiting so normally i would just let all the epi r done
rlsd b4 i started dloading but this one is just funny
so really have to dload it n yes it is as expected

done with MIME
oh yes we got the result!
y so soon?bcos tomorrow is the oral day
im grateful that i've passed haha

1-this is ridiculous
i dont even have a bf!!??!

2-the previous vid became a talk apparently=well to some people
yes pls b worried n
tell us more what's the right thing (in ur opinion) to do
'll take precaution in the future so that
it wont happen again-err or maybe wont let it leak out??haha

im seriously getting agitated over this
which i know i shouldnt since i didnt do anything wrong
as long as im aware of when i was at the event

really pls b more prepared when u've planned
to convey smthg imp.to people
who may came with a very steep knowledge of whatever the subject is
what u say will either bring those people
into understanding of what the wrong thing is
or maybe they might just shut themselves totally away
from whatever ur msg is & if this happened
u should know - u've just failed

the morning sun shone brightly today n managed to dry my bedsheets etc but guess what happened at the end of the day???
it was snowing!!!haha pretty weird
well maybe not
this is galway weather haha ;)
oh im looking forward for the bbq next wk!

emm this next few wks we'll have lect on social preventive medicine, forensic pathology and global health, the later one is actually an optional course but seems like interesting so i'll go as long it doesnt clash with my other tutorial, erk i think my core topic tutorial 'll b at 3 for the next 3 wks, wonder whether the lect is on the same time on tuesday....

did i tell u guys we've got our reslt for patho n bacte???
this is kinda old news but i dont remember writing about it in my blog
so yeah they've rlsd the list of id of people who pass the xam
which im happy enough to have find my id number on it hehe :D

1-ridiculous isn't it when people wanted to b added to the friend list bcos :
a)they r from the same country as u
b)u came across their page
c)bcos they've view ur pg
is that a good reason to b forced to add/accept their friend request???it might b forgiven if:
a)they tried to make themselves a friend first
b)they drop a comment on ur page asking POLITELY to b added
c)or at least give me ONE GOOD REASON why i should accept their friend request
duh what r they thinking??!?!?!